The course of true love never did run smooth.

today's just not my day, i felt so.
watch the basketball match. damn fucking, argh!
yah, we're singaporeans, we should support our country.
but, why cant we spare a thought for other country?
its like they came all the way to singapore for a match,
and not just to play match, but still for us to mock at them?
wth is the world comming to?
when i cheered for them, people give me those eyes tht im betraying singapore.
please la, you of cause can support your own country.
but at the very least, dont " BOOO " at others can?
cant you people have some moral respect?
imagine our country go all the way to theirs, and got all this.
will we be happy? no right? no common sense.
and a stupid babu seng. im not rasist. just for this particular fucker.
he even raise a board to them, not a cheering words for them, yet :
MISS LAA!
fuckyou! hope your hair all drop. your mustage, i dont know how to spell.
all drop ah! no hair no nothing! you so clever you go play la!
i came home alone... im damn freaking scared lahs.
a uncle stopped me and asked me directions.
i told him how and he kept saying that he dont know how to walk,
and insist on me bring him to the place -.-"
okay, deep in me, im afraid. i gotto admit.
i made excues and he kept pestering me.. finally my bus came..
he even went onto the same bus with me!
but luckly i got down before him, i dont know where's he going to.
but he told me he wanto go to chinatown MRT ..
but he hop onto the bus in chinatown with me. to dontknow where!???
okay, and im very dissapointed in him.
called louis, he chatted with me on phone awhile and he gotto hang off.
so called hakim and kimmie.
they just qurral with _____ .
okay, and back to the topic of TRUE FRIENDS.
seriously, on my view.
i think that a true friend doesnt have to be by your side always.
cause you know their heart is with you. thats enough.
you know when you're in trouble, there are always never away.
as long as u need them, they never say bye.
you doesnt have to stick together 24hrs like GLUE.
so what if you have a friend like that, but disappear when your're int trouble?
right? and fuck that person.
fuck off, FUCK YOURSELF. YOU ARE JUST WORST THAN A JUNK.
TODAY JUST SUCKS TO MAX. THATS ALL.

you should know the limits of everybody.

MOODY MOODY FUCKING HELL MOODY!
i saw him today in school. omg. i know whats the meaning.
i dint notice it at all at first till he turned.
mood was damn low all the way till after school..
luckily i have my nice classmate.
rismail kept on doing all stupid actions to make me laugh.
thanks thanks a million okay! (:
now, still hell moody. i dont know why.
when i first saw him just now, all memories flashed back.
all, every single little thing.
okay, i dont know what to do now.
but i know that there isnt any feeling from me to him.
dont says that i have, cause i know it myself.
someone scolded me bastard. and she claims that i still love him.
i know myself well, at least, better than you.
who are you to scold me in the first ?
going for the bball match later...
shall go and get ready now.
argh, i dont have the mood to do anything now.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FCUK.
everything will remain like this, just unchange, please.
when a love comes to an end, it isnt the saddest part,
its only when a love doesnt have an ending to end, thats the worst ever.
at least i have an ending, and i know it clearly how it ends.
and how both parties felt that time. im still a lucky one.
ARGHH~ kill me now please!

our love isnt a game.

huijie! you lied to me again ):<
she promised me to blog yesterday..
and uploading the photos.. but now, 6.10AM,
i saw 1 picture of dont-know-what, depite of our photos~ LOL
nvm, she needs 12346972123 years to blog i think.
okay, i changed my blog song to the old one.
cause i still feels that its the best song ever i loved.
i tend to love the song so much and listened to it repeatly.
butbut, its different for this. idontknow why too.. i just love this song.
HAHAHA, the impact of the person who have the ability to love this song,
the person will also holds the ability to made me hate this song.
TRUST ME OKAY.
wento collect my pay yesterday, guessed what.
i got the most pay ever.
$ 22.50 HAHAHAHAA. huijie said that she wants to go k-box.
cause our pay is out, yaya! my pay can buy down the whole k-box luhs! LOL
saw seng and wenshu. THE HELL JOKER.
i was like saying that the isussed the wrong check to me.
and dontknow what lahs, then wenshu said edmund can stop my check.
butbut, wait. my check's only worth $ 22.50. LOL
he was like laughing.. he mustwell give me cash instead..
like what seng said, a piece of check is expensive. LOL

okay, there's a phrase that goes like this,
the new will come if the old one goes.
i finally know whats the meaning behind this..
it does not happen just on things, but human. FRIENDS.
years of friends, cant even be compared to someone whom they
knew of months.
get the difference? years and months.
conference-d with hakim zalif and kimmie yesterday..
and what they said are damn true.
even though a friend is with you for years, they are just friend. never true.
there are friends that are true, but rare.
but i know at least, i've got afew TRUE FRIENDS WITH ME (:
you know who you guys are((:
but some, they dont know how to cherish or treasure.
once they found a place of their own popularity, they are off from you.
cause staying by your side, you own more.
thats why they choose to go to other that people liked them more.
they dont care how you've helped them.
but once they've got bitten, they will run back to u eventually.
but i know for this time round, we wont.
thats what the 4 of us had decided.
its like what for? treating us like a spare tyre?
we aint, you need us, but we doesnt. get it ?
anyway, no names mentioned. (:
off to school now. . .
watching bball match with shiqi and classmate later.
cant wait for it! =D

something called love.

HUIJIE, PLEASE BLOG AND UPLOAD ALL THE PHOTOS!

school wasnt fun at all. totally sucks.
maths for first period. -.- follow by science -.-
nahhbey! all the subjects that i hate -.-
PE damn tiring, we played soccer..
im seriously afraid of that stupid soccer ball luhs.
and i dint touch the ball at all. and ali and my grp members laughed at me-.-
plan to skip school for tomorrow..
cause im sick.. and and 2hours of CPA tomorrow. * faints *
boyf's phone was being cofiscated. LOL.
couldnt contact him at all for today toally. and i dint met him today at all.
he asked teacher to return, teacher refused. ahah. poor boy.
he called me after he reached home..
he said he'd call back.. but till now.. he's still in his lala land, i guess.
okay. lazy to blog futher. BYE

should it be.. or its not supposed to be.

okay, was working yesterday. from 12-5.
hoho, end up i ended work at 6pm.
thomas also, so we slack around at SD.. hahah!
boyf came after meeting his mom.
we head t shop and save for ingredients for chickenchop!
rong gave me recipe of it..
but i dint manage to get all of those.. ):
and im really damn dumb. even a kid also wont put 1TABLESPOON
of salt onto 1 piece of chicken luhs!
its like meant for 2pieces of chicken and i ... ... omg~
end up, chicken damn fucking hell SALTY.
but boyf ate all finished despite being FUCKING SALTY.. awww. how nice(:
instead of finishing up, i threw it away..
and im going to retry again tomorrow =x hhhahaha!
yah, woke up earlier than boyf again today..
he needs to have his hair cut cause his mom wants so..
so he came and fetch me and head to kawaii cuts.
full of people inside.. omg. saw jeff, lennard and blahsss... ...
end up, he dint manage to have his hair cut. LOL
head to bugis cause i wanted to get some NY clothes.
end up, -.- full of people as i expected.
so head to tiong rather than sqeezing with bunch of people..
bought a pair of flippers. hahaha. black one.
saw it on magazine last month. and i got it at last.
nowhere to go. and we headed home..
played ps. and yay i won!
nights...

sadly to say, its all over.

The greatest irony of love:

Loving the right person at the wrong time,
Having the wrong person when the time is right,
And finding out you love someone right after
That person walks out of your life.
And sometimes,
you think you're already over a person,
Until you see them smile at you again,
You'll suddenly realize that you're really not.
For some, they think that letting go is one way
Of expressing how much you love the person,
By sacrificing your happiness for theirs,
Without realizing that the other person's
Doing the same thing for them.
Most relationships tend to fail
Not because of the absence of love;
Love is always present,
It's just that one is being loved too much
And the other was being loved too little.
We always fall in love with the person we think we love,
Only to discover that what we loved about them fades.
Bad experiences are always remembered,
But it's the wonderful memories that are captured
To remind us that there are brighter days ahead
And that happiness exists.
You need to learn to let go when you're hurting too much,
Realize that sometimes love just isn't enough
And accept the fact that things aren't always gonna be the same.
There is someone out there who will love you more.
It's all the thought you put into your decisions
That impairs your judgement
When your heart already knows what you need to do.
Listen to your heart.
Even though it's on the left side, it's always right. (:

okay, i slept super duper early yesterday night.
its like only 7 plus and im already in my lala land.
okay, woke up at 2am for nothing, i also dont know why.
school was alright cause i dint fall asleep in class at all.
im damn hyper.. and i also dont know the reason why. LOL
wasnt in the mood at all just now.
skipped my remedial today =x
was like talking about skipping school without mc ..
action will be taken all this shit. and everybody was telling me tht its meant for me.
but im a good girl okay! i dint skipped school for this whole week.
the whole entire week. I WENT TO SCHOOL. unwillingly though.
got so much homework today! gosh. and D&T lesseon was fun.
before that we had our ITE survey.
i want cooking couse for western.
but have to go for injection. omhg! but nvm, i want my dream to come true.
& sec4 seriously isnt a joke.
i got to be serious for this entire year.
no sleeping or skipping school. my classmate told me that im like germs.
which cant really be seen cause i always absent myself from school -.-
sometimes i really like my classmates alot.
but sometimes they really makes my blood boil.
sometimes we are really united, but at times they dont even bother u as a friend.
okay im like looking at the blue sky now.
the clouds are damn white =x
huijie's birthday comming! hahahah!
im going to work soon. im waiting for shiqi now.
im still not in the mood. argh.
boyf is worst, cause he's still in school for groupstudy.
it will end at 4.15 today for his class.. poor thing eh.
so i should not be grumbling now.. HAHA
yesterday went studying with ongling and boyf.
both of them get along pretty well. * phew *
and they both kept telling me not to skip school and sleep in class.
im putting on weight already. omg. i have to slim down okay! ROAR
byebye !

there's something unexpected.

okay, today is the Olvl's results day.
our school wasnt bad.
and im not in the mood today.
dint intend to attend the results time.
but nowell wanted to watch as nobody accompany her.
so ya. i went in. my mind was like hell blank.
and i know what am i feeling at that time.
with a heavy heart sitting inside the hall.
glancing through one last time at all the 4Es 5Ns of last year.
this might probly be the last time i might see them..
i wasnt even listening to the teachers neither the principle.
i dont know where my mind had gone to..
i just know that it wasnt with me all the while.
and all the past came and go like wind.
i had feelings deep in me at this moment and gone in another.
i felt painness right now and gone in a split of second.
i thought i've got over everything...
but till today, i know i have yet got over totally.
nvm, time is gonna heal everything...
cause its gonna be the last time im having the chance to see him.
i wanted to leave, yet i want to have a look for just a glance.
and thats more than enough..
i know what im doing isnt fair to my boyf.
but im not gonna dwell on my past from now. right at this minute.
the past is my experience, my present is for me to change.
my future is for me to know what am i going to do next.
im a girl who used to not treasuring my past,
not caring about my presence,
& not even be bothered about my future.
but now, im treating my past as my memories, experience.
my presence is what i should cherish and change for better.
my future to be someone who can be a total changed person.
not like my past nor presence.
okay, im emo now. i dont know why.
okay, im going to sleep now.
cause i doesnt have enough rest at all for this whole week.
okay! NIGGHTSSSSSSSSSSS!

letting go of what im holding on...

okay, school sucks today.
or maybe quite fun. im sleeping in class,
and rismail kept banging on my table and wake me up.
skipppped~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`

boyf came to my class after school, as he have got no GS.
so he waited for me to finish doing the notice board.
lihao and octopus came and look for us.
but nowell still having lesson, so we head to hawker.
okay! SKIPP~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

boyf send me home..
and slack till 7plus, he went home and i head to vivo.
okay, i got myself damn hell wet home,
cause i was thrown by don down to the pool -.-
winnie that bday girl was first to get wet.
and then follow by nowell and me -.-
ROARRR! i was being pushed into the water and my leg's injured.
how bad. but nvm, we had lots of fun.!
cabbed home with winnie and don.
as for nowell, she cabbed with lihao. LOL
just finish bathing and my hair is wet now ): BOOOOO~
nvm, shall go and dont know do what now. HAHA~!

HAPPY BDAY WINNIE! =D

and not forgetting another friend of mine.

HAPPY BDAY KAISHENG TOO! =D

cause your presence means more than the world.

okay, here to blog cause im bored.
okay, im like talking to him.
just friend talking luhs.. im like emo now. i dont know why.
i tried hard to keep that friendship after ........
but it seems hard.
but i know we have already accpet the fact of everything.
okay, im not in the mood now.
i shall go and sleep.
NIGHTTTSSSSSSSSSSSS

memorable one.

okay, im just too lazy to post.
but, now im not lazy! HAHA
i'll start frm saturday okay... ... hmmmmm..

sat, went out with bf for lunch and search for present.
and he sent me to work at chinatown.
$10 per hour. cool eh! got mr goh chock tong!
i dont know whether the spelling is correct.
as long as you can pronouce, its good enough. =x
just serve drinks, its more than enough.
at first i thought that it'd be an easy job -.-
but, the bottles of water was damn hell heavy okay.
omhg! so watched performance and watch firecrackers!
eh, singapore cant use it, i know. and im suprised too.
yah, and i got to know friends there. and found another job. LOL
people asked if i wanto work in their resturant.
not bad ehh. hahahha. so after work, head to mac.
cause lihao and bf was there.
some conflicts happened. but was fine after that.

yesterday, wento winnie's bday celebration.
wento k-BOX till 2pm.
and bf and lihao came.. yaoxin was late for K.
haahhaha. wento skate. and before that, im damn moody.
was messaging with boonpeng.. he's nice to cheer me up(:
skate till my leg got blister -.--!
and head to movie. long time never see GILBERT already!
my korkor! he kept on bully me! but nvm, had a enjoyable day.
was supposed to bring grandma out for dinner.
cause its her bday today.
BUT my uncle back out last min, and i thought that it's been cancelled.
nobody inform me. and i got a hell from mom. -.-
wth is it? its like nobody told me that im still bring.
okay, fine. bf sent me home...
and wento school today!
omg, CPA lesson seriously sucks!
i wanted to sleep sooo soo bloody much, yet i cant!
nvmm, i must sleep early tmr.
i just cooked dinner for grandma.
and she told me that she've eaten -.-
forget it, nobody appreciate it. fuck it!
nahbey! BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

you should know where's the limit... ... ...

roar! no school today! haha
i mean, i gave myself off day again.
going for interview soon.
okokay! im like so bored now tht's why im blogging!
hahahaha! waiting for nowell to be done.
okay, i had a long long time to decide
what clothing should i wear for interview.
okay, its kinda stupid. but i got it.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

will all the promises be gone when i believed ?

tday isnt a nice day. maybe at the start. but..
boyf came after his remedial ..and and and me and well brought him to
RMCC to meet up with junren, lihao, andrey & cheeho.
okay, reluctantly, he wento play bball with them.
cause he doesnt wanto play bball of some reasons.
that why im trying my best to push him back to play.
was like so damn bored and i called kimpeng down.
okay, i dont like the feeling of everybody staring at me.
like wth is this la. im not flirting with kimpeng. he's my korkor.
i eventually knew him earlier then <3.
and when i talked to him only, why am i supposed to have all these eyes.
i seriously hate it. is like, if im flirting or whateverso.
i dont mind you guys come and help boyf to scold me

if i did anything wrong.but i dint even do this at all. and he's my korkor.
why cant i even like talk to him as friend.
at least, i dint hide this behind anyone .
and i even bring him up to chat with nowell too.
at least i proved that i dint do any other things behind <3.
is this wrong? and when i heard nowell said bout
everyone was like looking at me talking to kimpeng,
my mood really went down down down .
is really like wtf. cant i even have my "guys" de friend?
and anyway, i dint stop <3>

i dint claim that he should stop if i were to.
i allowed him to do so. cause i trust him.
basic trust. and cant him have on me too?
kimpeng wento buy dinner. and i accompanyed nowell.
okay, i dont wanto explain any futher,
cause it will be like im trying to cover up my faults and deeds..
which i dint even do any wrong things okay. ):<

somethings happen and i shall not elaborate much..
<3 face="arial">but i insist that he should go home.
and after that, he wento find his other friends. -.-"
and got scolding from his dad after that. -.-!
okay. im like damn bored now.
and i think nowell is gonna have lesser time for me. LOL
hahahahah! nvm, im independent okay.
finally im having the urge to on my lappy which have been alone for weeks.
okay, sorry lappy. and my PSP. im charging it now.
but i dint play that anymore. i dont know why too.

way too hard to be explained... ...

okay, its like 6.55am now.
and im doing my blogging!
LOLs. cause i skipped school. get it?
partly because im still a little sick.
thats why. and i dontknow why.
i think i still prefer single. OMHG.
okay, i know im changing my desicion
like im changing my clothes.
but seriously, i love single more than attached alot more.
but i cant just say - b r e a k u p - just because
i wanto be single right, i know i have t be fair.
and yah, i miss him alot now.
he's in school and im doing blogging at home.
he waited for me to finish doing my notice board yesterday.
yah, he came into my class and chatted with my classmates.
then nowell came after he remedial. and lihao and Andrea i think.
i think spelling error. but nvm!
all of them waiting for me to finish my work.
and blah! im lazy to post further. so. byeeeeeeeeeee
imissyyouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

the unpredictable girl...

seriously, sometimes i dont know what to say.
kimmie chatted with me on the phone after nowell.
me and kim is like chatting bout copycats.
okay, copycats seriously sucks.
they copy all the things, the ways, the actions,
just EVERY LITTLE SINGLE THINGs you do. they FOLLOW.
cant copycats just get a life for yourself eh?
she named 2 copycat. which i knew too.
okay. seriously, you're making people hating you.
is this the way you want.
i know im nobody to comment on your way, your style.
BUT WAIT. its all not yours lah!
its all others. cause you find what they do are attractive.
and you simply have no thinking of your own.
please, may you rot to death.
okay enough of all these evil thoughts.

wento tiong for lunch.
and head to nowell's house with boonwee.
and together, we 3 head to tiong and find lihao.
roar. i seriously hate school.
and im working tomorrow.
anyone will be kind enough to come to SD and accompany
me to pass through that torturing hours.
im working from 4 - 11 .. omg!
hahaha! okay. byeee!
miss me people! HAHAHAHHA

lets walk down this road hand in hand.