The course of true love never did run smooth.

okay, im here to declare something.
true friends are rare. TRUST ME.
they might seems to be so GOOD to you.
yet stab a knife behind your BACK.
okay, i've encounter this today...
i will find one day to confront you, dont worry.
anyway, you'll never find any friends that
will really treats you well, cause you dont too.
you think you're that pretty, please..
take a look at the mirror. FUCK OFF.
when you're in trouble, am i not good enough to be
there to help you solve your problem?
by having new friends and stick around with them.
cause you feel more popularity in them?
then please, when you're in trouble, go to them.
i SWEAR that im not gonna be there helping you anymore.
and i NEVER WILL. i've seen thru you..
all these while, i closed one eye. so please dont take advantages.
you should know me well..
im not flaring up at you now.. but soon(: dont worry.
dont make me post like i did previously...
dont ever try, cause you know i will do so.
you should know me well, i mean what i said.
go to your new friends then, cause we dont need you too, bitch.
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okay, had mother tongue test today.. paper was alright
hope that i wont fail this okay. if not i will really cry! ROAR
head to hawker with louis and romel..
that stupid korkor i have. HAHA! =x
head to tiong with ongling and get my hair cut.
sorry eunice, i dont know that you're not cutting..
& thanks for accompanying me too(: LOVES YOU! =D
i felt really guilty just now.
okay, headed home after studying...
and head to vivo after im home-d.
might not be going tomorrow.. ps.
reached home, baby called..
so head to bukit merah central and meet up with him.
he had his hair cut.. HAHA!
i laughed non-stop when i saw him. LOL

everything was meant this way.its not the stars that holds our destiny but ourselves.i think back alot.. and i realise that its so real.i made a mistake. i thought that it's the end of destiny... but im actually the one who ends it.. fate had been created for me and you, im the one who changed everything that had been already laid nicely for me.. i took another way, another route.. and i know that i shouldnt do so... but now, i cherish my love ones. and im holding on tightly this time, i promise i wont let go so easily this time round.. but i hope that you'd be gone.. cause it will be you who will be able to let me give up on this, let go of this.. cause i know it all so much more better than others.

im holding, how about you?

okay, i changed my blogskin.
i had a hard time doing so okay! LOL

out of a sudden, i felt helpless.
out of a sudden, i felt aches.
out of a sudden, i felt guilty.
out of a sudden, i felt afraid.
all came out suddenly, im breaking down, soon.

swimming in her own tears,
can you feel the agony in her?
she remember all the sweet times vividly.
how about you?
when she met you, she' just nothing.
life was bad for her, she's in a bad state.
you came in and light up her life.
you always held on her tightly when she let go.
she have got no faith for the love you gave at first.
but you proved it to her as time pass by.
& her life started to change.. & her love for you developed.
sweet memories begin to build,
and quarrels starts to approach..
you've never thought of how much painess she've recieved.
you only know how badly have you been hurt by her.
crying behind the doors, you've never seen her tears.
all along, you dint.. did you realise that?
you've cried in front of her twice.. in front of her eyes.
it cuts right through her heart..
but you only get to hear her crying on that day.
and she really cried badly... you've never made her tear before.
never at all, till you left..
you saved her with your own hands & destroyed her yourself too.
her life changed again and no happiness was there for her.
she used to be so pampered by you.
and yet you left. she knows she've got big attitude..
but she've been trying to change all these while..
but you're aint aware at all..
she hopes that you'd be a friend of hers again..
like how you and her used to joke around before getting together.
is that so diffcult for you to do so?
she was once told, if both of you can talk like normal..
talked like you both had never been together..
something's not gonna be right..
you avoid talking to her.. and it hurts her too.
but if both can talk like how it used to be,
does it mean that both have never truly been in love at all?
or does the situation now proves that both had really loved
each other truly in the past? she dont know..
she felt confused and devastated now..
she lost again on the track..
i remembered that there's no saddness in her face before
she met you.. but after knowing you,
she've got lots of expression that she never had before.
all those confusing expression, all those sadness..
she have to think alot.. and she've got no energy anymore..
since the day you left, she's worst than ever she could imagine.
she just hope that you'd be fine..
and she knows that you're always fine without her all these while..
it hurts her, but she know that its worth while..
cause your smile means more than the world.

get a new life from the old one.

okay, class was fun...

PE in the morning, ran 3 rounds...

and got gastric as i dint had my breakfast in the morning.

cause i dont. HAHA. okay, drank milo...

and head for soccer test. LOL. like wth?
PE also got test. NAHBEY. i got rank D. HAHA

i hate soccer like hell... in the past..

till i met him, i started to watch soccer with him.

but still, i dont like to play soccer, but i dont mind watching.

okay, i pratically ran away from the ball..

okay, i know im stupid.. but helmi's playing so rough..

and im really scared when he came running towards me..

Ali & azhar was nice, they kicked the ball to me..

cause they know that i've been left out by the rest.

im like standing there like stone. HAHA

ali kicked the ball to me wanting me to stop and goal.

cause thats what mr chan wants for the test.

so ya, ali kicked the ball to me, i dint managed to stop the ball.

it went pass me and i ran towards it stupidly.

and the ball just goal itself with ali's kick. LOL

i turned back and smile at ali.. he smacked his head..

and azhar was like laughing at me.. okay, im just suck at soccer.

hope that captain's ball will come soon. CAUSE IM LOVE THAT.

headed back to class.. and we were laughing all the way.

OKAY, bloody FUCK. i failed my maths test despite studying

it the day before it.. AND HELL MAN. im starting to detest

maths more and more.. FUCK!

i failed all 3 common test.. i guess im failing my science paper too

cause i've left the last 3 pages totally blank.
WELL DONE shirley. best record..

i never failed to leave blanks for my maths and science.

tomorrow's mother tongue paper.. HOPEFULLY I PASS.

cause i even failed my ENGLISH which im strong at.

so i seriously have got no confident for my chinese too..

okay, head to KFC with ongling after school.. baby came.

we went tiong for movie, " the leap years "
okay, must watch! DAMN NICE. 5/5 rating.

haha, i cried, damn touching okay. & baby laughed at me. -.-

his phone rang during the movie, that mrbean's singing.

how stupid. HAAHHA! okay, im not in good mood at all..

cause i've achieved the best failure award already. (:
BYEBYE.

i saw the ring that you gave me.

memories flashed back and i cried.

but i felt nothing when i saw u tday.

why is it so when i dont feel anything and

something will always appear to make me

feel hurt and guilt towards you?

okay, im here to blog since im feeling sleepy..

head to school for maths test today...

i dint have calculator with me at all.. and zarif lent me.

i did all my questions till the last one, which is drawing..

cause baby teached me yesterday, plus.. i did listen in class

for that particular chapter only .. HAHA. hopfully, i will pass.

cause mr loo doesnt allow me to sleep at all..

and kept asking me to answer all his questions..

i hope that he'll torture me in this way more...

ohhmy. im being so unnormal.. HAHAH cause i hate

maths usually like HELL. and what did i just typed? LOL

nvm, i'll just have to stop playing for the time being and get

myself back onto the maths track.. and its like only 7 months to go.

4years of my secondary life, i think i'll wish to spent this few

months on my maths to get myself into a good course..

and i've been sleeping my maths life away for 4 solid years.

its time to wake up and buck up for afew months..

so i still gain isnt it? i've been playing for 3years and 3months

so i should stop... AND U KNOW WHY ?

cause i know that the couse which i wanted to be in..

requires NO maths and science... HAHHAHAHA!

have you seen thru my cunning plan? LOL

tomorrow's science paper.. im failling for SURE.

cause i dint listen in class today... i just kept on chit-chatting

with ongling all the way thru-out the lesson..

so, i dont mind if i fail, i will cry if i can pass. HAHA!

i saw you today, we're so near once again.

heartbeat did not increase like the past.

i do have afraids' in me, i do feel a'lil aches in my heart.

but our hearts had been far too away from each other..

our memories cant be erased, im sure.

cause its you, which i promise that nobody can replace.

im having a hard time getting you out of my mind.

when are you gonna be leaving totally, i seriously have no idea.

i seriously hope that we'd be friends once again..

be like how we used to before we got together..

my confidence in him is growing everyday...

im trying to cherish what i have now & trying

to walk out from my past.. i know you've done so..

maybe im still brooding over it.. but somehow i know,

i will overcome all the things between the both of us

and walk our life peacefully without needing each other.

okay, i feel depressed as what had happened t my friend.
she showed me many things..
what she did, is totally same as my past..
i feel sad for her, seriously..
i sincerely hope that she wont give up like this..
i dont wish to see her following my footstep.

i dont know how to cherish in the past.
i dont know how to treasure in the past.
i dont know how to think in the past.
i dont know how to treat him well.
i dont know how and i choose not to know..

i dont wish to see her in this state too.. seriously...
if i were to use the reason that you gave me now...
what would your answer be? so like yours...
im stating out all examples.. and i wish you will think bout it..
you know that he really needs you..
you knows that you needs him too..
dont do this to yourself...
it aint easy for 2 to be together...
why let go when you've got the happiness in your hands?
for 2 person to meet in this world is so tiny.
for 2 person to be in love and be together can be so impossible.
you've overcome all this already, yet you let go..
what you're thinking is so foolish, do you know that.
i dont wish to see you like this, my friend.
cause you aint a normal friend to me(:

okay, MY FUCKING ENGLISH COMMON TEST FAILED. wth is this? i just cant accept the fact that i failed can?! NAHHBEYY! i totally dint have enough time for it..plus 1 whole page of careless mistake.. which the instructions said that i should circle.. its like multiple choice what... who will think of circling it instead of writing A,B,C or D ... NAHHBEY.

next test, i will do better! I SWEAR!

and tomorrow's gonna be that SCARY maths test..

help ME! i hope i dont fail... cause ... ...

I STUDIED TODAY!. baby teached me and i got it..

plus, i did listen for that chapter..

so i hope i will pass.. i dont aim for top.. just a pass (:

okay, my mood's aint getting any better...

im gonna be watching teevee...

byee!

* baby, i hope that i wont be borthed by her too..

but im sorry, i really feel sorry for her...

okay, baby just created a new bloggy..
im gonna be linking him after this post.
wento study after school. PS nowell. SORRY):
okay, im the one who forced baby to blog.
so, its my fault too.. but he blogged okay!
nehneh! hahhaa. im starting to love photoshop.
so i kept editing it.. LOL..
im so hungry can? LOL. i wanto change blogskin..
i need michelle's help.. HAHA
okay, school was fine..
till last 2 periods, mrTeo dint come..
mrTay went for reserviced..
2hours of FREE PERIOD.
but tomorrow's gonna be having CPA.GRRRR
ohya! i flunk my english common test. FUCK.
i dint have enough time at all can!
NAHBEY! i cant score for top..
but nehmind, next test im gonna do it better!
gonna be talking to baby soon..
shall go and cook egg, so i can have my dinner!

iloveyou, how about you?

i cooked this.. the egg spoiled the whole thing ):

baby and me. <3

at outside toilet okay.

ps. ILOVEU

okay.. hahah! uploaded pics..

finally can DL the photoshop.
helped louis with blog thang.. HAHA

he too slow.. cause he's turtle! LOL

opps. i think he's gonna kill me if he sees this =x

okay, baby just finished studying...

and common test starts tomorrow..

everybody, wish me goodluck please..

OMG, im dying soon. OKAY.

bye, shall call my korkor and chat with him..

cause baby's calling me after he reached home.

BYEBYE.

something; unchanged.

okay, out of boredom, i came and blog.
i wanted to go out.. but nobody's accompanying me.
baby's going out to study with his friends later on.
so i will be staying at home for the sake of
turning my playing mood to study mood..
neh neh neh. IM BORED.
i wanted to watch the leap years movie! PLEASE
okay, im damn farking lazy to blog further ..
byebyebye

nothing's here.

its a basic manner for a person to reply.
okay, i talked to u on msn today...
just wanto bid a last goodbye to you
kanninahbey, dont u know how t reply uhh?
basic manners, you dont have.
basic replies, you dont know.
all the basic of the basic, dont even know..
then why are you still flying aboard to study. ?
you're just bloody hell wasting your
bloody money and your bloody time.. but of cause,
its bloody non-of-my-business to care..
anyway, bloody is a too nice word for you.
FUCKu then. you think u really can leave just like this.?
you're gonna be living in a guilt for the rest of ur life.
reflect on all your doings in the fucking past..
ken, dennis, huijie, shiqi, eunice, joshua and me.
dint we FUCKING-LY treat you well uhh?
dont u bloody fucking push the blame to ken & dennis.
this thingy have got nothing to do with them.
neither do they know that im gonna be typing this.
and im FORCING dennis to ask u to read this.
all u know is just to act BIG
all u know is just to act PITY
all u know is just to act CLEVER/SMART
all u know is just to BETRAY
all u know is just to BACKSTAB
but what you dont know are,
how to treasure friends around YOU
how to treat your friends WELL
how to be grateful to THEM
how to forgive and forget
how to appreciate things around you..

tell me, are you gonna fucking live your life like this?
ohhplease, you're just a piece of shit.. get it?
im not gonna say any nice thing in here.
cause you aint got any for me to say too, seriously.
all you know is to set up people and harm them.
face up to the world. dont be a corward and do all this
fucking shit behind people, espically to those who shouldnt
be even treated in this way by you.
who do you think you are in the first place?
so what do u think u know how to fight? SO WHAT?
i remember this fucking incident vividly.
binwei was asking ME bout basketball thingy? remember?
he's asking me. SHIRLEY TAN. not YOU.
REFLECT on that, im stating out examples for you NOW.
you asked him to play and place bet with you. SG500.
so what if you've got money? BIG FUCK EH?
you named out all sorts of sports and wanted to force
him to have the " GAMBLE " with you..

if you're really so rich, dont come SINGAPORE to work.

so what if you've got 2-3 cars at home?

please luhs, expensense in MALAYSIA are so much cheeper

than SINGAPORE isnt it? dont come SINGAPORE and work then.
okay, back here.

but what u name out, do u really seriously know it ?
you're only 18 going to 19 now..
you know all sorts of things.. yea, that might be good.
but doesnt mean you're the best of the best.
you kept claimming that you're sucha great fighter.
you got the whole malaysia 14th position.
but wait, 14, yea, great. but this proved that you aint the strongest.
since you aint the no1. why are u talking so loudly?
talk all this to those who got 13th to 1st.
singapore isnt a place for u to be a " GANGSTER "
if u want, fuck yourself back to your malaysia.
and im very frank with you here..
remember one night when closing..
you wanted to wash the grill ?
_____ and me closed the fire thing.
i wont stated out who did that with me.
cause i know how to protect my friend. and wont betray.
i dont treat my friend as SHIT cause friends means
alot to EVERYONE in the world.
im damn fucked up with u, so i ask _____ to off one
and i off another one. ( you were in the fucking chiller )
you came out in a fucking blur face which made me
wanna slap u when i remember ... trying to act cute
and ask who off that ... HAHAH! FUCKING STUPID.
dont tell me u know that its me. or _____ .
CAUSE YOU AINT THAT FUCKING SMART OKAY.
get yourself a life now.. think back of all the things you done.
if you still have abit of heartache of what you did.
you might have some hope? might only.
apologise to those who you have to before you leave.
im not forcing you.. im stating out all my hatred in me.
at least, i dont hide.
if you're unhappy with the things i've stated..
come to me. dont ask your FRIEND to do so.
cause its your problem not them. so dont throw your
fucking shit to them and let them clean your arse.
im waiting to answer you if you've got any doubts or questions.
and for goodness sake. stop all the FUCKING nonsense.
dont act as if you could speak profound english okay.
though im in NT stream, i swear i can speak and type better
THAN YOU BY MILES OF TIMES.
buck up your english okay.. dont ask friend or check dictonary.
please admit that you're suck at it.
BYE, MY F FRIEND.

get a life before everyone turn their back on you.

okay, i just watched the show, 28days later..
okay, im W-O-L-S i know.. but its m18 la..
watched it thru internet.. cause im not watching alone.
watch with baby and he kept forcing me to watch.
what a bad boyf i've got can! LOL
its scary.. and i fell asleep while watching..
im damn damn hell tired after work..
the sales for tday aint good.. when i left ...
opening for burger.. i aint late okay...
thought that the new RM was late for opening...
ended up, its jiahui who's late for it.. RM went dentist..
he've to pluck out his teeth, i think.
so burger was damn slack like fucking monday..
cause totally no orders for me, if not its just 1 burger..
fuckhell, who wouldnt fall asleep like this.?
okay, walked around whole SD just to keep myself awake..
and when peak our arrived, at one go came in 15 burgers..
im like staring at the bloody screen helplessly...
nobody's able to help me... no point crying over it..
neither would i do that tooo okay!
settle down, and go order by order.. hahha!
DAMN BLOODY FUCKING H-I-G-H after that..
cause its like i have to wrap fast...
and its like time for me to pack up and go home!
haha! wento do baristar, i dont know how to spell..
and 'fool' around cashier, cause no customer okay..
i know when to play and when to be serious too kay.
baby came and went GIANT for some stuffs..
head home and im super dupery tired..
he just reached home.. hopefully he can use phone.
and im damn sleepy... will KO right after he call me..
nightsnightsnightsnightsnights. IM OFF TO BEDDY!

what's wrong with it when nothing's wrong.?

look at the all the bullshit that baby did..

we went delifrance, aiya.. dont know how t spell..

and baby did the comment thingy...

what andy lao.. omg.. damn ps lah..

and i just couldnt stop him from doing so.. haha

idiot.. i quarrel with grandma again.. fuck...

i hope that i just dint shout back at her.. but i just cant control.

my kanasai attitude which i hated it myself too..

its damn bloody hard to change lahs. FCUK

okay, tomorrow cross-country.. HAHAH. i need not attend!

baby kept complaining that he've to wake up early..

and i kept telling him that i can sleep till the sun shines on me!
he's damn jealous.. and he's sleeping now.. HAHA

okay, many things been running thru my mind..

and im trying not to think so much...

i wanna watch - the leap years - its like damn nice can? LOL

and gonna be watching mid-night show with baby tomorrow..

the eye.. like so cool luhs! HAHHAHA

its the first time im watching midnight with baby and

the first time i watch mid-night after ______________

ROAR. okay, i really wish to get into cooking course now.

idontknow why too.. i just feel like cooking now..

OMG. lol. talking with dennis now..

always ask whether im dead anot..

monkey doesnt die easily one kay! lol.

okay, im growing fatter already. OMGGGG!

i must go on diet.. I MUST.

nights people!`

things aint as easy as their appearance.

okay, i skipped school as what i've said..
gonna get an mc later on.. hope that i can get for tmr too
cause i dont wanto run for cross country at all.
stomach wasnt feeling well.. whole body hurts like fuck.
head spin like a wheel and stupid fever is killing me. ROAR
i hope that i will die just like that.. ROAR.
had lots of miss call and messages from friends... lol
till now, i dint even reply any of their messages..
today's timetable sucks. i just saw.. seriously sucks..
okay, im like abandon this post for like 20mins?
cause i wento cook maggie.. damn hungry luhs...
and i just quarrel with grandma. the feeling just sucks..
i know i shouldnt.. but the way she shout is damn ridiculars la..
okay, my post have become more and more boring as each day passes
i even felt like throwing this blog aside... but.
i would always feel like blogging when i touch my keyboard.
i've 2 days MC (: which means i dont have to run for cross country
hahahha! POWER! COOL!
okay, i dont know what to post already..
so shall end here. ..

you cant see; cause you dont.

okay, school sucks.. im like at sickbay after recess.
having fever sucks.. but nehmind! cause i can skip school
so i will be going to take an mc tomorrow!
house election was held in the morning.. its like damn suck.
and im having fever now still ...
wento ongling's house after school.
sihan came when im having PE lesson..
i skipped running cause im sick..
he teached me magic again..
he gave me a deck and a -------- . hahah!
im starting to love magic now! LOL
okay, i shall go and talk to baby before he complains that
i kept ignoring him because of computer (:

the loverable memories

okay. school sucks to the max like hell today.
and im falling sick soon..
had a small tiff with baby just now.. but its alright now(:
head to SD just now and tiong..
okay, damn tired now.. yesterday too..
its sign of me falling sick, if not, i wont wanto sleep.
ROAR. its good to be sick okay...
cause this give me the excuese to skip school for the day!
so i hope, i will fall sick right now! RIGHT NOW.
for the whole week, i dont mind.. lol. im like so unnormal. HAH
okay, i wanna turn in early for today.. yea.. EARLY. ( 7pm )
hahhaha. miss me ya! LOL BYEEE

better be safe than sorry.

okay, school was bored at D&T.
i fell asleep pratically the whole period.. o.0
head to hawker with sam and ling after school..
nowell wento do spec with her boyf.
we were like having sexuality programme.. LOL.
can u imagine, we talked about how sex occur...
how does a petting starts when 2 are alone.. LOL.
okay, skipped.. we just had fun, thats all..
tomorrow's having damn CPA in first 2 period.. its like wtf.
i know im gonna fall asleep like how i normally did.
baby came and find me after his remedial..
and we head to ikea to buy plates.. LOL . cause i feel like.
head to tiong and now im damn tired..
im gonna be sleeping early today.. baby's yawning whole day..
he's damn tired too.. he should be sleeping by now..
okay. nights people..

letting go of what should be hold.

okay.. met baby at tiong..
head for ahlong movie.. the second time i watched(:
its funny and nice, i dont mind watching it again! (:
my eyelid have been jumping whole dayy!
and i finally know why it is jumping non-stop.
cause, while watching halfway thru.. the whole cinema black out.
not only the cinema, the whole tiong bahru building.
LOL. cool ehh. black out for like 15mins?
then we got a coupon for free movie for next visit..
and the best thing is, its limited for R21, M18 and NC16.
whatthehell, we watched PG lea? means its damn unfair to me .
not only me.. all the 15years and below.. BOOOO! nahhbey!
brought yu sheng home with baby...
alright, baby's ignoring me cause he's sloving puzzle! -.-
okay.. shall go and eat my food. tmr school's starting again. -.- damnn!
BYEBYEBYE.

living in the world; darkness.

okay, went for the flag day thingy..
damn boring can! and we went door by door.!
baby's worst.. he went plaza sing with friends and sleep.
he took out 2 dollars from own and changed to 10cents..
how kind can he get? omg..
head to greatworld and find him...
head to bugis after that.. he's damn tired already but refused to go hme.
how stubbon can he get until.?
he fell asleep in bus.. and accompanyed me to dua..
lion dance all this came.. wa.. but i dint stay ):
sent baby home by cab and head home..
its like so tired laa.
was working opening today, but i kept running to toilet..
stomach wasent feeling well.. and i cant work..
called jiahui and lucky she allow..
i havent yet see a doctor cause ahma gave me medicine! -.-
okay.. im sick, short and sweet. bye!

its alright without you; anymore.

okay, just finished bathing.
lied to baby saying that im not attending his party.
he's upsad.. haha, and he's shocked that actually,
nowell, lihao, octopus and me appeared..
lihao told him that his mum dont allow..
octopus said that he needs to go out with mum..
nowell dint go cause i dint go. and i've got things to attend. haha
they set up the pit.. and okay, i dont sit still..
i wento snatch from him to like make the fire bigger..
junren came and snatch from me and asked me to sit down and behave. -.-
okay, he's drunk after that so is cheeho..
that strawberry boy. LOL.
I GOT HIT BY KWEEXIANG'S VOLLEY BALL.
i dint realise and the ball hit my head. -.- okay fine..
he came over and blahsss.~~
they started throwing cake and all that.. i stand still and behave..
kweexiang ran towards me and smash on my face.. -.-
jazeel was running away from kweexiang but its a plot. -.-
i got hit, and kweexiang is damn strong.. -.- its the bloody fact.
he laughed and showed me his back by telling me that he's worst. lol
okay.. baby drank 1 can of "gasbert". i dont know how t spell.
and another 1 kind of beer which i dont know whats tht..
and i think red wine too.. if im not wrong, not sure too..
and cheeho was really drunk.. so is junren. he cant walk properly.. lol
baby talked lots of nonsense while in the cab..
i sent him home cause im sure he cannot make it..
and i got scolding for sending him home -.- eh its like wth..
okay, nvm, will settle this score tomorrow when he come and fetch me.
tomorrow flag day. BORING CAN!
and i think i attitude nowell cause of some reasons.. ps ah! i dint mean it.
okay, my hair is drying up soon..
and im talking to juepeng now..
okay, bye people.. im on the way to lala land NOW.

many thoughts run through; i dint manage to stop.

okay..valentines day's over..
so its baby's birthday!
happy birthday baby!
he gave me a big mickey mouse for val's present.
and i seriously LOVE the mickey!
its big, and it will be sure EXPENSIVE!
omg, he spent alot on this valentines..
and actually we're heading to mount faber for cable car sitting..
but come to think of it, he spent so much already..
so i skipped it.. haiz.. okay..
im sad, thats for sure.. but i will have the chance to do so..
its like seriously. 1 YEAR wish that haven been fulfill. LOL
met up with nowell & lihao at tiong, cause she told me that vivo tickets are selling fast.
so head to tiong for ps, iloveu, movie..
saw his friends.. i dint realise at first, but i heard my name.
i turned as i thought that its my friend, but its his friends.
many things ran through, but i know that its just memories.. no more.
head to vivo after movie.. okay, im seriously damn tired.
will be skipping school tomorrow.. so, HAHAHA. no IPP for me too!
somemore i haven yet get baby's present.. i need to do so too.
ROAR. im going to be broke for sure!

iloveyou; baby.

im bored! THATS WHY IM HERE.
okay, shall start from yesterday ya.
working sucks like, seriously!
cause i got scolding for nothing..
maybe i talked abit loud which i dint realise..
but i dint mean to shout what.. thats the bloody fact.
its someone who tap on my back and scare me..
so everybody tell me.. am i in the wrong?
im looking at people mopping and suddenly,
somebody tap at your back like so sudden.. and its abit hard..
for some, they may not shout, but not all.
so if the person were to shout. is it wrong, tell me?
wth.. forget it.. mood went bloody down like fuck can.
nahhbey.. arghh!
nowell dint came to school.. so i took bus alone..
on the journey, it sucks..
cause i think of my last valentines..
but it isnt my fault okay.. who doesnt think of their past.?
cried and i swear the feeling is sucky..
i used dont- know- how- long to turn my mood back to normal.. ROAR
school's also celebrating valentines. LOL
okay, skipp allll.. im at my comfy room with air-con on. haha!
going out soon.

the only; are kept and sealed

okay.. head to bugis right after school..
cause i havent get ready his bday present yet..
and still, i need to get valentines day present for baby.
while im working, baby came with his friends..
and. now lazy to post futher..
byebye..

get it clear; you're gone.

okay. im lazy to upload pics still..
so will upload SOON okay. hahha
mood wasnt good at all! totally bad like fuck luhs.
valentines day comming, and yet im not looking forward.
dont ask why.. many things happen..
and valentines day will also be like a normal day to me.
i got called to stand up cause im sleeping in class..
mr loo made me stand.. and guess what.
i stood up, but im sleeping.. LOL .. mrloo buay tahan me.
im seriously tired okay...
i did some puzzles yesterday night and fuck damn it.
dont know who moved my puzzle and all become like how i just bought.
and i seriously have no mood to find it and put it one by one.
and i guess some parts will be gone also..
fuck.. if its my grandma, i also cant do anything..
afterall, she's my grandma.. how could i scold her because of that.
argh. im fucking tired now..
and when i saw the puzzles lying on my BED. i feel like destroying it all away.
nvm nvm, baby just messaged me..
and i might be going down to meet him for lunch.
okay. BYEBYE

its a replacement for it.

okay, today, i ran around the whole SD.
cause from burger to cashier to control post to hotdog
and then to barista. LOL
then in kitchen, me, rong, dennis, hao are like singing old song.
ahahha! damn fun luhs. but im not in the mood.
so, i only laughed.. closing we sat and talked..
and they told me that the new RM asked for me..
cause he praised me! =x he said my burger is fast.
thankyou. and i think i will be working with him on wed.
hope everything goes smoothly for me..
cause i dont wanto get any scolding or nagging. ohhhya!
and i found the song that i lost.. not lost luhs,
its in my ipod.. but then its like "spoiled" so i cant listen anymore.
so i can only use imeem to listen )):
tomorrow is dennis bday.. haven get present yet ):
and im not in the mood for EVERYTHING now.
im still lazy to upload photos..
okay, after i replied juepeng, i've forgotten what i wanto post. -.-
and i told him that my house here got people die.
he keep telling me that 12am is reaching.
anyway, my house here really got people jumped off the building..
i think its my blk at the very right..
and from now on, i will not come home late. cause im scared can.
saw josspapaer, police and the taoist, i think.
and the one that looked like tent, that keep dead people inside. OMG
can i move to my uncle house these few days? LOL
okay, juepeng kept disturbing me .. and im getting more and more afraid.
okay, lazy to blog more..
okay, 12am sharp now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENNIS NGGGG!
HOPE THAT YOU WILL STOP TESTING OUR FRIES.
CAUSE YOU MIGHT CAUSE SHORTAGE TO THE FRIES.

recieved too much love; and you got too little in return.

okay, worked from 12 - 5 today, opening buger tmr.
i did my prep just now. and i took photos.
but im just too lazy to on my lappy and upload.
sorry, will do it soooooon. i TRY.
cashier whole day.. i dint promote SUPERBURGER as usual.
cause im lazy, and why should i when nobody even cared.
did some window shopping while waiting for dear to come..
he went for movie with friends and did not tell me..
cause he promised to watch movie with me today..
so he told me after he came awhile.. so i decided not to watch..
its like he's watching 2 movies in a day and he'll be broke for sure.
but i seriously wanto watch luhs! )):
actually, window shopping is C O O L. hahaha!
i cut my FINGERNAILS . can you IMAGINE.
i dontknow why too.. but i like the feeling when im typing.
school is just like 2 1 day to go.. cause its 1+ now.
sick of it. think of it make me wanna CRYY!
okay, im like so crazy over flowers now. i dontknow why too.
maybe cause valentines comming? L O L
no luhs, was talking bout roses with friends.
and their difference between " father, mother, friends, lover " roses.
so doesnt mean if you were to give flowers, you must be a lover!
hahah, im sooo sooo sooo IN LOVE WITH WHITE ROSE. 1 ONLY.
and not forgetting the 1 red rose, i dontknow why. but its meaningful.
so so so, plus plus plus, the very first time i recieved rose is red.
1 and only red rose. so so , i loved it. and i love the meaning.
i dont like the white rose meaning, but i love the pure miky white.
i dont like many stupid flowers chucking together.. but 1 will do.
its like sweet, isnt it ? =D
and 6 roses. cause it stands for " Speak of tthe need to be loved and cherished "
meaningful isnt it? hahhaa. i feel like opening a flower shop now!
hahaha! STOP DREAMING, SHIRLEYTANN!
but i wanto open a resturant, thats the sure thing now.
okay, im not trying to dream, im trying to make my dream come true.
whatever! if you dont like, scram off from my blog, thats it.
okay, i gotta go tooo sleeeppp! nights people!

the black world; when you bring your presence off.

waoo.. working today can get HIGH like fuck.
and im like wearing heels the whole day can?! LOLLL
cause the order is like.... comming, jamming, comming, jamming.
customers are all comming in non-stop.
kopitiam & banquet are closed.. the green-house cafe beside us are closed too.
and left with us and the chicken rice shop.
their shop are also filled with people, so are ours.
and shiqi and rong said that i kept peeping to TCR-S.. LOL.
im at fries, no orders of cause see luhs..
is like why SD so many people.. can go crazy today can!
and and and, dennis said that im very serious for work today.
wth? its like im not serious during all other days? LOL
wento zhenming's buger, cause it jammed like F-U-C-K. like seriously can!
20 over burgers comming in, im clearing all the burgers so tht
zhenming can do preparations for tomorrow.. L O L uhh.
dear came and fetched me today..
i gave him my staff meal which is a damn hell big mistake..
cause im damn bloody hell fucking hungry now.
oppps! i think too much of vul. already..
nevermind, cause i still have steamboat in my kitchen.
tomorrow working from 12-5. gosh, im hell damn tired now.
i needa my sleep sleep SLEEP!
nights worldd, valentines day comming!
i feel like not spending it with A N Y O N E , like seriously.
okay, off i gooooooo!

the love that stays; because its you.

waooohooo! my uncle and aunties are all here.
my cousin all this.. i love them lots lots!
chatted with my cousin, cause its like, 1 year i dint see them.
cause we dont visit them or they visit us.
hahaha.. my third cousin come already..
now my whole house soooo noisy! LOL
i love CNY like seriosuly.. cause the whole family will get together.
and we'll all be chatting happily..
we aint small family, we are bigbig family..
with all my grandpa brothers and sister.
7 brothers 1 sister. woooo! big uhh.
and my grandpa is the oldest, so everybody will gather here.
hahahah! so we dont have to go around, im lazy too luhs! =x
each of them have at least 2 children.. at most 4.
seee, big right? so angbao more luhs! =x
its like 70 over people gathering together ..
how nice.. how sweet.. not many of the families can do that..
so im like so blissful to be born in this family luhs..
roarrr! my mood swing is back..
i think i better go back and chat with them..
if not, i will start to think lots and lots..
okay, blog after i come back from work then.
LOVESSSS!

the replacement for the past

okay, have a sudden urge to change my blogskin.
cause its like a new year, new blogskin.
though i liked the previous one more. but nevermind
i will develop my love for this skin soon too!
black white and blue is my lucky colour for this year!
so i can have more excues to buy more black clothings!
okay. byebye

okay, yesterday had a little tiff with mum.
cause im late for reunion dinner..
but its like 5++ and she said till like it 9 or 10 pm. -.-
wento have hair cut.. and the service sucks!
SERIOUSLY SUCKs. at redhill mrt there. lengkok bahru.
" sissors paper rock " the fucking shop name. and that fucking lady.
never will i go there again..
its like i've made my apointment and so is nowell.
i let her do first. and that lady asked if i could go and find another shop
cause she've got too many customers comming soon. WTF ?
they made appointment later then me. and u asked me go to other shop.
AND FUCK U. DONT AGREE IF YOU CANT DO IT OKAY.
still, she gave me her phone no. and say if i wanto go, call a day earlier,
so she will give me 10% discount.
AHH, save it. i will never step into ur shop again. _\_

okay, woke up at 10 plus.. mum came over to ah ma's house.
when im supposed to go to her house first. troublesome -.-
so i drag and continue sleeping despite thousands of calls from her. =x
head to uncle joe's mum place and mum's teacher's place.
i've already collected like 400$ of angbaos. damn little can?
if we were to stay for dinner at mum's teacher's place. i will earn another 100+
cause every year's like that. so will have lesser $$$ this year.
its like all the rich people who gave 10$ per angbao. how rich.
but sadly, mum dont wanto stay. )):
nvm nvm nvm, next year can take also! ((:
ate lots of steamboat stuffs. going to nowell's house for majong session later(:
and so i wont be sleeping tonight! )"
okay, im damn tired okay.. ohyaaa!
they said that for monkey this year.
they will give lots of attitude to their boyf ' girlf.
and their feeling for the old love will come back.
& will have some misunderstanding in their RS. omg!
anyway, i only listen to R.S thang. thats all.
and goat. ya. their spouse will be dont know what. they will need to give in more.
hahahhaha! if they wanto maintain well. they must take photos or whatever la.
LOL. its like COOOOOOL =x
so i must tell my boyf to give in more? LOL nono!
i will control my temper and will give in to him toooo! =x
i hope what i said will be true. ((:
and i wish that this year, everything will go smoothing for me and EVERYONE.
my N will pass well. and get into the couse i wanto!
of cause lots of money toooo =x hahaha, okok.
i shall go and continue my food again.. im growing FATTT! ROARR!

& i miss you ;

okay, im damn moody, changed blog song already..
i just love this song that hell much okay.
im just too stunned and many things came back b'coz of this song.
im like listening to it repeatly..
going to school tomorrow..
skipped school today.. wento vivo to slack there.
listen to this song carefully..
its really meaningful..
i just feel that this can express what im thinking or feeling.
dont ask why, i just simply feel so. thats it.
look at the lyrics.. meaningingful okay..
this will really bring someone's memories back out of sudden..
i've been listening whole day, looking at the lyrics since i've got it.
for once, i did this..

我想念去年的冬天

下着雪的那一夜

你给的温柔　

紧握的双手　

温暖整个寒冬失去了

曾经的拥有　

在你离开以后带走了笑容　

只留下寂寞　

忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜　

特别的漆黑　

只能闭上双眼去感觉

没有我的夜　

谁在你身边　

代替了那个从前

失去了曾经的拥有　

在你离开以后带走了笑容　

只留下寂寞　

忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜　

特别的漆黑　

只能闭上双眼去感觉

没有我的夜　

谁在你身边　

代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我　

回到还在你怀里的时候

能不能让我再一次拥有　

曾属于我的温柔

能不能让我再一次拥有　

曾属于我的温柔.

i dont know why, somehow, i seriously miss my past alot.
i seriously have got no doubt about how much love he've invested.
no doubt that he'd really give in to me alot.
no doubt in his care and concern to me.
no doubt that im always the first in his heart.
no bout bout my importance in him.
no doubt that his love will fade.
no doubt of every little things from him to me.
i dont have to worry bout all this.
and he even give up something that's so precious to him.
and all his friends just to spent more time with me..
and this song really makes me get myself emotional..
i know that i should not have said _____ __ in the first plcae
because of my implusive.. but its just all too late to say anything.
i got back my K800I from nowell..
i saw all his photos still in there.. i saw the video that i took for him...
every little thing is kept in that phone..
not 1 is being deleted.. neither will i..
that phone's going to be 1 year old soon.
the longest phone that i used. and the only phone that i seriously loved.
and i know that that's the last thing for me to treasure..
before that phone is gone, and i know im gonna be regretting again.
thats the very last thing that i could do for now..
cause i know whats the real meaning behind " LOVE "
nobody could let me have the feeling like him.
he's the one whom really did too much for me..
till im so blinded to see it myself when he's with me.
but i realised all this too late. simply toooo late.
i cant regret. cause i choose this path.
im not used to regret things that i did..
but he made me to. and the only one that i know what's love all about.
and how to smile , and how to cry, lost my smile totally.

the past that i'd love to go back; kcab.

okay, i did surveys again out of boredom.

wento school, slept in class.

CPA 's lesson seriously sucks to max.

morning damn cold, lazy to bring jacket..

so called ongling to bring one for me(:

okay, lazy to post futher. im farking tired. no school for me tmr.

cause 2hours of CPA, who wanna go? fuck.

BYEE

i cant get hold.

hahah! i saw this survey and did it, and so my results are here.

OKAY, IM TIRED. i miss my boy.

cause im working whole day today, so i cant meet him.

sorry, i promised to spent my weekends with him..

but ended up working instead of accompanying him..

AND FINALLY, i saw the new RM.

i find him nice(: i dontknow why.

and i talked to the new RM too. hahah. not scolding okay!

i wanna sit the cable car at mount faber!

who is nice enough to bring me to sit ?

its been like going to 1 year soon, ever since i longed for that.

from last year valentines till this year's valentines.

when i went last year, already closed. so cannot sit..

i hope i can sit this year, so my 1 year wish will come true.

WHO WILL BE KIND ENOUGH TO DO SO?

i will spent my V.day with him or her! AHAH

no particular people, girl or boy, i dont mind! =x

opps. hahahaha! okay, im farking tired now.

i needa my sleep. dont feel like attending school tomorrow.

but only 1hour of CPA. nvm, i go..

but will skip school on tues, cause 2hours. kill me then!

or maybe i will reached school at recess time! =x

nights world!

just love isnt enough.

okay, i dint sleep at all today in class.
so im freaking tired nownowNOW.
came home to bathe and head to cityhall with well.
as her papa is buying a new phone for her.
saw a box, very nice. bought it.
and head to tiong for somethings.. and head to vivo.
im like rushing like a business women. LOL
okay, i felt so sleepy. wento set up things around 10pm.
im like hiding myself cause i hold the big cake.
when i came out, i dint sing any bday song for huijie.
but at the last sentence, i sang... YET HUIJIETEO DINT NOTICE ME.
HOW BAD CAN SHE GET! ):<
she then turned blurly and looked at me staring at her. LOL
she's sick, get well soon my dear(:
okay, chatted and ate the cakes.. and head home..
hope she enjoy the frog that i get for her.
im really afraid that she will have it.. but NO! HAHA
okay im seriously tired now! byeeebyeee.
tomorrow's gonna be another busy day for me.
and sunday im working! how super could i get till ? lol
nights to the world.

you might not know at all.