The course of true love never did run smooth.

OMG, got hair check today and again, caught.
for my fucking nails and hair..
i sprayed my hair today to prevent from being caught.
and lucky, not colour.. its my damn frindge.
and my fingernails.. so damn SHORT NOW.
nvm, they'll still grow. Sigh.
and yea. CPA lesson delayed our time. _!_
that cheng refused to let us go off lah. idiot.
and came out at 1.55pm.
baby messaged me and met me at gate..
waited for nowell and she actually have already go off.
Sian diao. hahah. head to baby house..
played ps2 again, ahahahha! FUN LUHS!
and head to LJS for lunch.. and wento mum's house..
and dammit. i wanted to watch 9pm show
and they went on watching CJ7. wth
walked home and was so damn angry.. and fucking problems occurs.
i dint bring keys out today and i expect my ahma to be homed.
and nobody's home and i got stucked outside house. -.-
i blew my top at baby i think..
i threw my bag on the floor and everything that im holding..
baby picked them up again for me. =x i know im bad.
baby kept quiet all along and i wento apologised.
waited for half solid hours for ahma to be home. -.-
baby went home after that. and his dad wants him to be home by 9.
and gosh, he dint tell me till 9.30 plus..
and we are still stucked outside the house..
asked him to go home and he refused.. he said that is worried. (:
what a nice baby i have right((:
and yah, came into the house.. baby sat awhile and went home..
and omg, no bus at all for like 30 mins and he so angry too.
hahahah, poor boy. hope that his daddy wont scold him.
omg, monday exam liao. OHHHHMYYYYGGGGGOOOOODDDD!
but nevertheless, tomorrow's HOLIDAY! im gonna shop shop shop!
ahahahha! but i've already spent my $$$ away. )))):
S-H-I-T . ohhhNOOO!
nvm, shall go and call my friend before baby calls. nighta!

that was what it used to be.

today class was fun? and bored too lah!
and ohmy. exams are only left with like 5 more days.
i really wanna pass my Maths !
but i dont think that i'll have the mood to do so.
bw promised me that he'll study with me..
and yet he end up playing bball with friends. -.-
am i not good enough? have i not try to understand him?
WTf, why am i afraid that i'll hurt him if i blow up?
FORGET IT. cause even if quarrel occurs..
im sure that there'll be people saying that its my fault.
cause im always the one giving attitude.
FUCK. bye people. dont have that fucking mood for BLOGGING

when im trying hard alone.

okay, damn sad now..
cause weekends are ending in 20 mins time.
today wento pasa malam. LOL
head to boon lay with baby...
bought lotsa things there and we have fun.
shuyu came along too(:
chit chat.. and baby told me today is 28 of april.
and i was like shit. today is boonpeng's bday.
and yah. messaged him happy bday..
and i told him sorry for the belated one..
and made me look like a fool lah... LOL
aahhaha, mum bought smelly tofu home..
and baby is afraid of that smell. HAHAHA
he's sleeping now. shall ask him go home. he's tired): sorry!
cause he've been bringing me around today! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOONPENG(:
MAY YOU AND HER LAST LONNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGG(:

just wish to save that friendship. sadly, i cant.
plucked my courage wanting to chat with him,
but he went offline .. maybe im not supposed to?

alright, lets talk about happy things yea?
woke up at like 2 and saw baby's message.
wento bath and met up with him at bukit merah central.
ate mac and he refused to let me have fries.
due to my sorethroat and flu. )):
walked around NTUC and bought 2 drumstick..
asked him to cook for his mum as mama day's comming.
and try to cheer his mum up.
however, he fell asleep after plucking the chicken ...
and i have to clear the mess and my ahhma come and helped me.
first time ever, i see people cook till sleep. -.-
and i put sharks fin in tooo! ((((((((((:
im going to take a second bowl after i blogged. ahahaha
i will grow fat like hell this time round.
he's sleeping soundly now and im posting.. -.-
tomorrow is sunday and which means, my weekends are ending):
nvm, shall enjoy now!
alright, shall go and EAT, AGAIN! byyeyeeyyeyeye!

we are just a drama in real life.

hell god damn it. my mood is damn low now! FUCK EVERYTHING. am i a flirt? am i really not serious bout this relationship? and on the other hand, im still ... Sigh. i got to know so many things today.. and im having fever now plus its 3 plus and i still cant sleep. maybe its unfair to bw. but .. is this what i want? i tried, i tried many ways. but ...

exams are stressing me out now and more things are comming towards me and i seriously cant handle at all. im breaking down soon. real soon. i wish that i can just let go of everything now.
F***

what's the point.

wahahah! dint attend school today..
i was sick and down with bad flu & fever...
baby had oral today and he's damn nervous..
he messaged me before his oral.. ahaha..
he came after everything and slacked at home..
mum asked me not to go to work because im sick..
called dennis and apologised to him...
and mum forbidden me to go to work tmr too. SHIT.
such a short time, how to find people to replace me? DAMN.
so is baby.. he always bullys me when mum is around.
and my mom agrees with what baby is saying -.-
wento find nowell and cook..
and my sore throat got worst..
baby scolded me for eating fries because im sick.
and he kept forcing me to drink plain water ):
im trying hard not to throw temper to baby,
because i know im always doing that ):
i've been trying to keep my anger to myself instead of blowing up to him.
and he injured himself today while playing basketball. -.-
WTH . okay, finally he blogged today..
he dint keep his promise that he'll blog EVERYDAY.
AHAHHA! he's hugging my PSP now..
shall go and snatch from him liaooo! LOL.

im here always..

FIRSTLY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOW LI HAO!

ROAHAHAH! exams today..
okay, chinese sure will have 1 wrong.
FOR DAMN FUCKING SURE because of my careless mistake.
english is stressing me and i went toilet to sleep.
okay, sounds no link at all, i know.
waited for nowell and baby for about 1&half hour.
OMG, so long laahh and i felt sleepy.
finally nowell came down and so is baby(:
wento baby's home and play ps2. LOL. lame, i know..
played with the childish basketball thingy..
where kids stick the ring on the wall and baby basketball. AHA
i dont know how to explain too.
yah, i can dunk using that okay! LOL
played the sims on ps2.. and the family name is stupidpid.
AHHA.. his sister came home while im screaming. =x
ookay, his sis is PRETTY OKAY! (: and gentle too((:
head to have chicken chop again.. GROWING FATTER AGAIN too.
wento NTUC like some ah chek and ah soh ...
blah blah blah...
came home and change and head to nowell's house...
wanto to go k-box but its damn ex..
and everyone of us dont have enough money. SO IS THE RICH BDAY BOY.
so wento for movie instead and pool.
baby nearly won don by 1 ball and because of the white ball.
if not, he would have won. okay..
from now on, im going to accept the fact that he really did play well.
ahahhaha! movie was wonderful, SUPERHERO.
i accused baby for looking at girls stripping their bras.
but of cause, never show anything ...
ahhahah! cabbed home and im so sleepy...
im having damn bad flu now ):
and havin 38 degree fever now.. DYING SOON.
okay, shall go and sleep before baby starts to scold me..
he always scold me nowadays if i dont take care ):
but never mind, because he cared for me..
and he've forbidden soo many things and especially my shirts. ):
okay, i shall cherish and treasure him well, hopefully.
ahah! kevin is talking bout craps with me now. AHA. BYE!

turning away with regrets.

dragged myself to school in the morning.
and tomorrow is my eng lang paper1 and L2.
GOSH, pray for me people! PLUUUUHHHHLEASE!
okay, got scolding from mr Ali today due to no MC.
and please laa! i swear that me ongling and shiqi never
get together and plan not to come school together okay!
):< size="1">trying to figure what's on his mind at that moment.
guess you'll never know whats on my mind.
because you'll never bother or be bothered by all these.
baby's house have got a small basketball thang.!
ahahah i kept playing with that.. saw his baby photo! LOL
and the small place where he kept the things i gave him!
played with his gameboy and he kept laughing.!
hahahaha. baby cooked friend rice for his dad today! ((:
but he injured himself while cooking. GODDAMMIT.
he's really not intrested in cooking AT ALL i should say.
but nvm, as long as he cheer his dad up after all the quarrels with his dad.
he made his dad angry everytime.. ALAMAK.
okay.. shall go and study NOW before i cant pass tomorrow.
REMEMBER, wish me GOODLUCK people.
&& to those who are trying to curse me..
i'll still wish you good luck but hopefully the curse that you gave
wont happen ON YOURSELF! =)

i asked if i could ...

yay-ness! changed skin le!
all thanks to EUNICE LAOGONG!
im like so stupid cause i dont know how to do.
ahahha! skipped school today, again.
but shiqi, ongling and nowell also.
dint know that at all till baby told me..
and when i called nowell out to study. LOL
and poor samm will be alone then. OMG.
okay.. cooked dinner for baby to bring home..
as he said that nobody buying food for him...
and omg.. thurs is comming and exams! HOLY SHIT.
and its also LIHAO'S birthday!
poor him! still have to stay back even though is exam!
AHAHAHA. still thinking of buying what present for him.
who can help me think? HAHA
but i think the best present will be NOWELL!
ahahha. byebye..
shall go do my project now..
tomorrow have to pass up.. OMG, doing now.!
wish me good luck people! =c

the sweetest part will be the saddest part.

school was pretty fun today..
i bought a sweet which look like hair jel.
walked around my class asking the guys to style hair..
okay, andy got tricked.
he rubbed with his hands and put on his hair. OMG
we laughed like hell lahs.!
follow by tingyu.. aahahah! samm ate the sweet.
its nice but quite sour..
wento queenstown CC after school..
skipped.. baby sent me home(:
head to meet up with deb, kimmie, hakim and nabil.
elvin dint come cause he wanted to spent time with his girlf.
pangseh! AHAHAHA.
spent sucha wonderful time with them just now! LOVES!
okay, wanted to do my science thingy yet i dint bring my book home.
im tired of blogging.. im using my lappy again((:
yah, baby saw the chat log that the patrick had worte to me..
he got so angry.. and omg. dont wish to elaborate much on it.
nights earthlings.

when everything gets complicated.

LOL. we are S-T-R-O-N-G. while having D&T lessons.

i gave him the D&T thingy.. AHAAHA

half of his face got cut off.

aahhah! i pulled his ears.

look at how sian she is when looking at boon.AHA

im using my lappy after dont know how many donkey years. finally, uploading my photos partly cause im not lazy liao.AHHA wento study today but ended up playing and fooling around... i ate damn alot today luhs! OmG. ongling damn sian just now.. and omg, i need hair spray. mr ali told me that my pony tail is long and asked me to do something bout it already. sian diao. hahahha! okay... today is damn dont know what day la. wento mac and study for awhile and head to redhill. ate chicken rice at my dad's shop and head to buy sweets. and how lame can we get ? we walked all the way to bukit merah view to buy a jelly sweet. its sour i should say.. how FAR?! and a guy called me and asked whether if im shirley.. and he said that he's JJ LIN?!?!?!?! LMAO... damn fucker and i suspect that he's patrick yeo. FUCKU. dear answered and he said that he called wrong and hung up. called back using public phone and a indian guy picked up... he said that his place is a factory and nobody used the phone.? damn WTF lahs. if he's really patrick, he'll be dead. i swear. trying to upload photos now but keep cannot. ): okay, head to telok blangah and ate chicken chop! (: yummy! nothing to blog liao.. shall go and talk to dear.. if not he will complain that i wanto use computer... (: nightsaaa!

if only i could get that over...

roar hahahah! im at macdonal now using net.
yeap, i came mac with SD friends after closing..
so ohmygod... school wasnt really fun at all.. BOREDOM.
head to hawker with ongling and samm...
ate sweet and sour chicken and it's YUMMY. * thumbs up *

okay, im damn fucked up with patrick yeo NOW.
he's a damn bloody despo guy who just wants sex and girlf.
so is a guy called patrick yeo aged 22 or 23.. beware!
fucking EWWWW. and hakim and nabil wanted to find him.
ohh my. okay, shall not elaborate much here.

i seriously like the keyboard in mac... i dont know how to xplain.
the typing sound and the buttons are the type which im looking for.
hahahahha... so i think, im gonna change my keyboard.
tomorrow working from 11-5.
and am going to queensway to buy somethings with ongling.
okay, shall go and have my mac now...
BYE, shall blog when im home-d, i think.

how is the one i cared?

class was pretty fun...
and yes, LETS COUNT DOWN TO FRIDAY
omg, im working tomorrow. ):
its been sucha long time since i last worked.
nehhmind! i miss them all so so MUCH!
you know, i asked one of my classmate this today..

me: eh, andy, u stay where?
andy: telok.B . drive.
me: condo eh?
andy: yes..
me: ohhh. ( pause )
me: wah, ongling, he so rich why so stingy?
i just owe him 20cents he keep chasing. kaoz.
ongling: niao ma... condo? sure bo?
eh, andy, you stay at how many room flat.
andy: 4 ehh.. nono 5.
me: WAHHH! ( pause ) .. got swimming pool bo?
andy: no.
me and ongling is scratching head now..
me: then got security guard one? or tennis court or gym?
andy: no la.
me: ur house how many room.?
andy: 3.
me: hall?
andy: 1 laaahhh! ( LOUDLY )
me and ongling: EHH PLEASE LA.
HDB flat la... condo ur head.
me: if your want condo i terrace house liao la.
and its not 5 room flat. damn u, its 4 room flat.
are you crazy over staying in condo? -.-"
andy: * quiet *

and its like what the hell la. LOL
made me and ongling laughed so much in bus.
wento Queenstown CC and played basketball...
wento gym after that and slacked there.. HAHA.
baby came and fetch me home after that...
and he bought bus stamp like how i did. HAHA
seee, im helping you to save money like that.! AHAHAH
i still told him that im 100% sure that he'll never use bus stamp.
cause his dad dont allow.. and he asked mom for money and buy.
WTH ? HAHAHA....

rahaha. just called dennis and asked for working stuffs.
so many people had gone over to pasir ris to work already..
and i have a little more urge to work tomorrow...
but after all, i think i've really move-d on.. and still,
alilbit of lazyness in me.. sian. after all, the work is just for
_____________. BAHHHHH~ shall go and bathe tomorrow..
tomorrow burger station for me(((: sucha long time since
i last wrap my favourite burger...
anyway, this is not LOW CLASS HOR,
if anyone think it is, then dont eat at fast food restuarant. (:
no other intention when i said that. get it clear?

im feeling damn sucky now.. i dont know why too. ):
its been sucha long time since im having this feeling...
feeling of lost and everything seems to be drifting away from me.
and what im having now, will it be gone tomorrow?
why am i having all these worries now? i dont used to have.
Sigh, i've changed, i think. i still miss ___.
and if i could hold everything that i want in my hands,
that would be so so much better...
this isnt the path that i really wished to have...
but maybe i'll be happier in the future? who knows.
right? like i said, i'll buck up and not dwell on that anymore.
i believe, i'll never be defeated by these.
i'll stand at where i fall. I WILL ... ... ...
(: nights everybody.

how are you doing lately, ____ _____?

claiming that you're her good friend.
you know what's call actions speaks louder than words?
ahahha! fucking betrayer! bastard.
only know how to betray friends that treats you well...
and treat those fucker kind. HAHAHA.
why must force people to do things that they dont like?
nehhmind, this wont last...
wait till they despise you, dont come running to us((:
i think its time to draw a line between you and me.

was supposed to go to old folks home today...
me and ongling wento find mr Ho today...
but cant see him at all... doubt that he's in school.
wento nowell's house to study today... and you know what?!
her baby sis knows how to walk already(: SO CUTE LA!
ate mee sua for my dinner... omg, i dont feel like going to school tomorrow.
SIAN SIAN SIAN.

i cant if i would.

SCHOOOLLL SUCKS SOOO SOO MUCH!
okay, i teached my class MATHS today..
new syllb. HAHHAHA! arc length = 1/2 x base x pieR.
hahahha! okay, no maths today as loo have to attend NCC thing.
so so so, i got homework that is not done yet...
cause i totally have no idea of how to do AT ALL.
wento print some worksheets of mid year paper...
hoefully can help me in my comming exams...
2 weeks time to english paper. OMG
i scored top for my compo today! phew...
hopefully this can happen on my mid year too..
i dint study for last year.. so must must buck up this year.
WAHAHAHA, sounds so unlike me uhh? neehhhmind!
people do change, so DO I.
ate kfc after school.. saw peiwen and xiuqun and doggy!
peiwen's dog is so damn CUTE! =D
i wish i could have 1 myself too.. maybe if i score well for mid-year?
hahahahha! tomorrow i going to do CIP.
hahaha.. its late already.. i shall go and bathe now! BYEE

you told me that im important to you.
but tell me, why cant i feel it?
in a relationship that doesnt have any happiness,
does it mean that it'll be comming to an end sonner or later?
im always trying to wake out of the past...
but i still believes that you're still stucked in your past..
i know how she feels...
i wanted to help her, but it seems that no matter how i tried,
i still cant help her...
tell me, why are guys all the same?
the pain that girls gave compared to the guys who gave to girls,
are far too much to be compared.

teach me, how to cry?

dragged myself to school in early morning.
and omg omg, my class is always "full" of students.
if you'd realise, my class is always the LONGEST.
crap in the early morning with ongling ...
blahs, lesson was damn boring... and im getting sick soon.
& plus, im getting sick of maths soon.
i cant keep myself awake like the past few days already.
and today, i threw my temper at my classmates.. sorry!
i even threw the duster towards the whiteboard and
whole class kept quiet while they were happily make noise.
my mood is damn bad today and i dont know why. sigh. SORRY!
omg, have been sneezing non-stop in class... and now!
im having a bad bad flu okay! )):
how i wished i could skip school tomorrow.
but i've taken too many days of mc this month.
its only 14 and yet i've taken 5 days of mc. OMG
i'll die if this goes on. HAHAHHA.
wento study after school with dear, lihao and nowell.
and i felt damn sleepy once i opened up my maths. OMG
reached home and watch tong xin yuan. ahaha. nice yah.
thou its a repeat show, but im loving it...
AAHHH, those who wanto comment, shutup.
okay, shall go and bathe now... nightsa people!

letting go for the sake of letting it off.

okay, guess what?
i found that diary. unbelieveable eh?
i was about to give up searching and yet it ...
so tell me, what im trying to let go now is something
that i should hold on? FUCK.
wento cine and watched movie with him, lihao and nowell.
today is a bad day and i hate it..
and now, i have got no mood to blog... sooo ,

byebye.

easier to be let go.

i lost that diary ):

i hate yesterday so so so much...

i felt damn god hurting in my heart.

never ever did i have to report to class with classmates.

never did i ever watch parade before..

if i were still in NCC, i wont be standing there watching..

saddness crowd around me while they were marching.

i miss the band beating drum and we march in.

that was the best ever that i had.

but all was the past. head to hall for concert... DAMN BORING.

it sucks cause its 2 more marks of my chinese and i get to go up.

i used to stay in my favourite CCA, used to own happiness and __________.

but afterall, i lost them all.. all slipped away from my hand.

right infront of my eyes.

after the whole speech day concert, i saw NCC doing pumping...

and its something which i can never be able to do so, again.

wento fill my stomach at kofu.

head home after eating and idle-ing around commonwealth MRT.

i hate yesterday damn lot..

called nowell, yet she've slept.. and she said she wanna tell me a uncle story.

ROAR, and i miss SD people.. not those in red shirts and home clothes.

ps. red shirt as in they must wear it. and not those who wore but can change.

FUCK EVERYTHING. you know, life is never good.

but nvm, i wont be defeat by these...

people falls and stand... i will stand at where i fell.

and so, life will be better for me even thou it doesnt.

and i will never let anyone to comes in and spoil my feelings and mood.

i've been thinking damn alot yesterday night.

and im gonna try even thou its hard.. even thou i may not succeed.

at least, i gave it a try and i must never live with regrets in my life, again.

and nomatter what, i must never cry when i fall, again.

hopefully my studies will not go down anymore..

every subject is going up but not my science...

who can be a mr/ms nice to teach me..

i MUST score well for my mid and 0.

i wanna score a _2 for my maths you know. A and B or 22.

guess yourself. HAHAHA, i believe that i can do well if i study.

i dont wanna sleep anymore in class. HAHAHA. hopefully.

byebye .. wanna go bathe and meet that idiotic hakim to take things.

i'll never be defeated by you.

skipped school today, AGAIN. changed phone, AGAIN. played basketball, AGAIN. YAY-ness, i got to changed my phoney again! HAHAHAH! and yes, i need sucha long time to send songs all... my mood wasnt good at all.. tomorrow is cousin's wedding and yet i have to attend that stupid speechday thang. OMG, im leaving this school in half year's time. TIME FLIES. which means, after this half year, we might never meet again.. maybe years down the road... but the chances are slim.

he came and look for me after the remedial. and we played basketball and head to tiong to study with nowell and lihao. and out of the sudden, many things in my mind ran wild and i just cant get all the maths thingy into my mind. walked home, wanted to walk home alone but he refused. and again, many things flashed back when im walking down that route. ):

and this relationship aint growing upwards, i think its downwards. dont ask why.. everything in my life is sucha mess NOW. and im not even prepared for my mid-year now because of the same old thing that is bothering me now. maybe my results will be the same as last year? hope not. cause its my N this year. i thought that everything will go on smoothly this year for me and its totally up-side down. all the while, im just running away from the fact that i ________ _____ ___ _____ _______ and the mind-set that she still likes _______. Sigh..
yes, im no longer the same shirley anymore.. just from that incident, im totally changed. and just then i know, im not happy at all all these while.. i thought that my grades will go up and so is all the things around me which its all wrong. im always taking _______ to compare with _____ care and concern which i totally should not be doing all these... but, the feeling is so damn unexplainable. he treats me well.. but sometimes, the things he does really made my character became sensitive which i dont even have all these in the past. Argh, forget it.. NOBODY understand all these and what am i going through alone instead of having someone sharing all these problems with me.

i used to slash myself with penkife which i know its a damn stupid thing to do so. But .... HOW I WISH IM DEAD NOW.

- the door that has been locked by you.

had a surprise test today which killed me. my mind went blank and F -U - C - K.

today was a chaos. my mind was blank also today after school. my heart had ran away from me.

okay.. im having fever now.. hopefully that the fever will go up.. HAHAHA. so i can skip school again? =x anyway, playing basketball in the rain is FUN FUN FUN. get it? and due to the rain with the thunder just now... im having a minor fever now. LOL
i said that i wanna go study but end up it dint turn out to be what it was supposed to be... LOL

im not alright at all.

school was GREAT. (: And again, i've been studying for my maths again. YES! AGAIN. and skippppppp all the way to after school. head to hawker with dear and ongling. ate chicken rice and head to queensway to buy basketball(: BLACK ONE LEH!!! LOL. the ball is with me now cause ongling cannot bring home when she's the owner of the ball. LOL

i trashed ongling. 3 - 0. and lost to dear by 1 ball. NAHHBEY. nvm, next time, i'll win. DONT WORRY OKAY, dear? LOL. did 25 pumping. ongling did 30 and dear did 20. cause we played some stupid passing game... DAMN TIRED NOW. might go for study later with ongling. ):
later to blog further... shall go and bathe and call ongling. BYE! GOODLUCK TO EVERONE.

it wasnt enough.

okay, im damn lazy to blog yesterday.. hahha! wento sao mu yesterday morning... i swear, i dont like this year... its like people going by themselves and can even seperate into 2 group.. we are one big family from outside but .. the big lorry which we used to sit and together and joke around have nobody sitting on it already.. Sigh.. its not the same anymore.. ): okay.. lets not talk about the saddness yea?

reached there and saw no5, 6, 7 uncles and aunties there and so is my cousins... talked bout school life and childhood. and my cousin is also chua lai heng's friend... LOL same badge and same class... power ehh? LOL. yaya.. skipppppppp!~~~

met baby... how sweet of him to cook something for me to eat(: THANKS((: fries, chicken, hotdog.. LOL alot laaa... and we wento take neoprints after that and watch " SLAM " too.. nice.. but i hate the ending >:(

today was a nice day too.. i've been studying for maths these 2 days and did not sleep okay! hopefully my grades will improve slowly... ): HAHAHA.

relationships are like platforms at railway stations.

wento play bball with dear, junren and andrey.. and we played till 11plus and a 4 eye toad came out and kaobei us. yea, before we leave, i used the ball to hit the metal board for a loud bang.. he came chasing out and he ran damn fast i must comment (:

okay, dear nealy gave him one punch and he pushed junren, i mean that toad. and yah.. he kept accusing dear and junren who throw the ball onto the metal board.. and i went up to that toad and said that i was the one.. okay.. crap till the police came..

he told the police that we were playing basketball when its totally so hilarious( did i use the correct word? pardon me if its wrong. =x ).. we are sitting at the playground and not playing ball you fucktard. you need another new pair of specs please. _!_ yah. even police cant tolerate his nonsense and he is the regular customer that have been calling the police for minimum 3 times a day.. what a shit? policemans were damn nice i must say.. and that toad asked for the policemen superior no. what the motherfuck? and he took down the 2 policemen name too.. and he accused that we are public harrasment and the police said that its not and its a basketball game whereby we dint even try to harras that toad. the toad got damn angry...

but nevermind, we shall see what that bloody toad is gonna do.. and it really shows that he despise basketball so much and dont even know how to appreciate the healty sports at all.. no wonder he've got fats all over his stomach. HAHAHAHAH! please la.. the only one who lodge complains to police is only you and no more. you should move house to a dessert where by no basketball will be disturbing you while you need your toody sleep.. or if a sports car will to pass by with the loud 'vomb' you also wanto ring the police? pity the policemen that have to waste their petrol comming here to entertain your nonsense everyday... at least thrice a day... just like taking medicine yea? hahaha! _!_

okay... wento bathe start after i reached home.. i needa sleep now... cause im damn tired.. my leg, hand and body muscles are killing me every min. OMG. OMG. OMG. NIGHTS PEOPLE.

im keeping your love aside with me all along.

okay, school was a boredom today.. should have skip school today... but nehhmind, imma good girl(: maths the first lesson.. but i DID NOT sleep though im sleepy and mrloo did noticed it. AHAH.. skipp all the way to pan wei hao's lesson.. we were having fun and its really fun having him to relieve our class... SOO SOO much better than the MR SEETOH LA. sucha idiot okay! =x nowell dint came school today... poor thing yah. hahaha! =x

assembly made me have aim in my life, i think. LOL, waaahhh! im CHANGING. LOL. okay.. its about living life the fullest or whateverso... i cant remember.. and its saying that 4 things.

you cant take back the words you've said.
dont regret when everything is over..

alamak. i've forgotten already la.. but the first one, i remembered clearly... and sometimes, the things we've done will be too late for us to apologize to someone whom we wanto. okay, i just said im having aim in my life and now i've totally forgotten what did i learn just now. SORRY okay. and yah, patrick yeo, get this clear.. you are just trying to get attention and despo for girls.. please take a look at the mirror and reflect upon yourself.

sigh, i just happened to look back into my chatlogs on this comp which have been saved since march 2007.. i only view on that particular chatlogs and i felt knife stabbing me now.. Sigh, when can i really really get that over? pluhhhlease! IM DYING SOON. Sigh.

if this is the wrong path i took from the start.

i think i should go back to the place where i wanna stay at.

okay, i cant sleep now and i have a sudden urge of blogging too. haha, omg. i cant even stand well now.. or you should say, im even having diffculties to stand up. because of my 5 stations today and i ran 4 times for the shutter run. BOOO! my standing board jump is only counted at 180 when its 190. damnit! >:( i only did 12 incline pull up when i aim for 17. ))): FUCK. and now, my WHOLE BODY muscles are killing me... im really cant stand as i need a support from whatever things around me. SIANZ.

ohhya, lets talk bout today's 2.4km. the sec5 guy, jing guang which we called him curry chicken.. opps. not we, is ongling named him cause he was damn rude to the aunty and ongling scolded him.. he ran damn slow like ME and he's CUTE in a way that i also dont know how to explain. and i told christa, jayanthi, meilian that i've admired him for 2years plus.. LOL. they laughed like hell when i told them this and its been sucha long time since we last have all these laughters... really looonnnngggggggggg. well, everything comes and goes... that's what i've learnt.. maybe even nowell will leave one day, who knows.? she'll be going to sec5 next year and im heading into ITE ... different school already... come to think of it, i hope that time would pass slower... i used to wish that i can leave this school as fast as i could... but of cause, its not the school that made me hope that time will slow down, its all the friends that i had. Sigh.

was actually heading for dinner with ongling to koufu after everything, but i realise that i did not bring money out at all today so i went home. )): omg, my legs can hardly move now. -.- i just had 2 chicken wings bought by my grandpa cause he've won TOTO today, i think. okay, thats my dinner for today and i think im growing FATTER because im eating at 11.30 PM. thats POWER okay... lol..

dear wento work today... and he got drunk. omg.. he's always drunk i should say.. he should never touch wine or whatever at all.. so i've forbidden him to do so from now on. HAHAHAH.. and ya, 2 more days to our 3rd months anniversary, hopefully, im looking forward to it.. ... .....

yes, no love is TRUE.

i've found the ring that _____ gave to me on our ___________. i've stopped searching for the ring for like a month plus as i really camt recall where have i last placed. and yah, i realised that it's in my long pants pocket and i felt happy out of sudden.

napha 2.4 today, i got mc dont need run! LOL. but end up also cancel away as the rain is getting heavier and heavier after 4 groups of students run. school was sucha FUN TODAY. yea. only today. because i dint sleep at maths lesson at all today and i kept asking question...hopefully, this situation will continue ...

if you did realise, i've been trying to catch a glimpse of you.
if you did realise, i deliberately walked faster just to avoid you.
if you did realise, you have always been an apple of my eye.
if you did realise, i've love you in a different way which hurts me alot.
if you did realise, im totally gone in your world which i can never return...

because i love you!

okay, wento get an MC after i wake up.. and guess what. I'VE 2 DAYS MC! LOL. you know why? i was actually faking SICK but ended up, im having fever. LOL cool uhh? i dont even know that im sick at all. & i can still play basketball. LOL. proo ahhh!

head to school and passed lihao wrapping paper as he wanted to wrap the present for nowell cause today is their ANNIVERSARY! =D waited for him to end his napha... and it means, if i were to attend school tomorrow, i need not go for 2.4km which im so dying of la! HAHA! see, imma good girl. though i have got MC tomorrow.. but i'll still go to school.

but the stupid school did not conduct any hair check today okay! F-U-C-K. so, im thinking of going later for school tomorrow, incase there's hair check tomorrow. And my hair have been warn by mr tay last month and i have not get it done at all. SHIT!

i dint have my dinner today despite having basketball game today.. you know what? i won LOW BOONWEE in basketball. 2 VS 2. and 3 match.. we WON everything! ahhahaha! boy, you've deproved. lol. headed home and now, im waiting for him to call as he told me that he'll call me after he study.. OMG, mid-year is getting nearer yet, i've not studied AT ALL. SHITT..
SHIRLEY AHH, CANNOT LIDAT!

~~what will we be in years down the road?~~

~~will we still meet in the crowds like how we used to?~~

~~will we still have the chance to talk to each other like how we used to?~~

~~will we still joke like how we used to?~~

~~do you still miss the past, a little bit?~~

~~do you hate the girl who hurt you badly now?~~

~~do you hate the girl who once made you tears for her?~~

~~do you hate the girl who was always throwing her temper at you?~~

~~will you still ... ... ...~~

~~How are you doing?~~
~~How's your school work?~~

hopefully, this time round will be a better one, my ~~friend~~

~~will we still be friend like how we used to?~~

~~will you still want this friendship that have been build for ayear plus?~~

aint better than the past.

okay, like what i said, i PON school despite saying that i SHOULD NOT. damnn.. nvm.. this will be the last time, hopefully. anyway, today is nowell and lihao's 2 months anniversary already. poor them... got school nvm.. still got napha after school till 4plus.. nvm and maybe.. nowell is going to WORK. OMGZ! lihao is busying with present for her.. LOL.

i dreamt of _____ yesterday night.

i still miss you at times..
and i dreamt of you last night...
i hope that i wont wake up from that...

but still, its just a dream...
i know that its all impossbile and its all too late..

im trying not to look back... yes, im.

just a few more steps and i will be out from that world totally.

at times, i dont wish to.. but nvm..

im happy with my present and everything...

i'll only flip back the memories... Sigh.

i can see you in my dreams..

okay, head to school today but not tomorrow. sorry, im skipping school tomorrow, again. but see. tomorrow there're

hair check in the early morning!
CPA with CHENG ENG PENG!
NAHPA test AFTER SCHOOL!

so tell me, how would you want me to go to school? i dont even wanto drag myself out of bed with i think of these... ROAR. okay, head to chinatown after school with nowell... get some stuffs...and again, we had a talk after such a long time and we hardly had time for each other or go out together like this.. and lihao have class after school, so is dear. okay, i miss the times in the past like that. its PERFECT to me already ): then head to tiong after school and saw peiwen and her friend. Sigh.

though it hurts, but i cant speak.