The course of true love never did run smooth.

To that " ... " person who tagged me at my tagboard. Please manz. You just jump your conclusion like you are the director in my life which is a damn LAUGH OUT LOUD nonsense. Please, i've checked your ip and you are the same person who tagged me long long time ago. This shows that you have yet grown matured all these while ya. But nevermind. (:
But i just wanto tell you that no matter what you typed ain't gonna effect me like seriously. You think that you know me and the two so well. Maybe. But not me for sure. But please don't drag more and more people in to my tagboard, otherwise i have to apologise on your behalf. And wake up please lah. It's my life, my relationship and my everything. Who are you to even comment me in the first place. And one last reminder, no matter whose name you typed, it doesnt gonna effect me anymore(:

Ohmanz, im having high fever now): And i totally have no energy to do anything just now and now im so board and feeling abit better so i decided to blog, i cant blog at all yesterday cos im really damn sick. ): 38 degree already.. hahah, if fever don't go down by tomorrow, how am i going to sit for my exam on Tues? ): I coughed and blocked nose and fever. Thanks alot. But i cant fall sick now cos of my Nlvl please! Sickness, please come again on school day without exams, can? HAhahha, dear wento buy food for me now! =D And we are fine already. and im feeling real terrible now. Shall go and rest now! Nights people!=D

Did anyone of you watched the 9pm show on channel8 just now?! OMFG!
See, so what's " forever love " when a guy can just breakup in this way? Goddamnit! They have been through so many thick and thins and yet the love turned out ot be so fragile. So what if a couple have been through lots of UPs and DOWNs? Just listen to other's rumors and believe them instead of the one you know best and love? And din't even bother to clarify and just jump conclusion like this? And he'd never know how he've hurt the girl. So even no mtter how far your relationship have come to, there'll still be an end waiting for you to reach the finishing line. But sometimes, life is just like an ocean, you don't know how big the ocean is and just have to walk on and go through all up and downs to find a way of out that trap. So the same, So what if Jiaming had promised everythings and just say breakup in such a way. And when the girl wants to go, you'd cling on them tight and not let go. But did the guy give that a a chance? or even a chance to explain herself and everything? ... Sigh, Love can never be strong, it'll always be like a glass. When once it's broken, there'll be a scar which can't be remove.

Alright, enough of that. AHAHA, celebrate teacher's day today! And our class party was kind of successful except that Mr Tay came after that and they have to rush off to AVA room for their food thang. And we enjoyed alot and we did a speech for our teacher! =D
And after they left, class was like a rubbish collection centre. Cos table were all around and guys went round smashing the teacher's cake on each other's face.! And they push and swing all the tables around the classroom. -.-! Yea, clean up after that and was damn tiring. ):
Yeap. took photos and really had lots of fun. (:
Louis came and Sihan, Sihan called me " EHH " which is like short? hhahha, i said im taller then him =/ And louis came to my class and i ignored him! HAHA, sorry korkor!

And dear waited for me outside the clinic and we wento get stuffs. Mooncake festival is like in 2 weeks time! =D Im so looking forward to it! =D And something's happened to us yesterday night, and nearly, we are not together anymore. It seems that you've the idea and mind set of letting me go. And yeap, all the promises you made.. Alright, let everything prove that promises are just lies. If there aint any promises, there wouldn't be lies already. And i just need your understanding and a little freedom. That's all. And i dint mention anything else already. So don't put any words into my mouth. Dont ask me what promises you din't fufill, but tell me what are the promises you gave have been fullfilled all these while. . . And you can promise me everything and tell me you'd sure do it. But ended up, giving thousands of excuses that you can't do when i don't see why you can't. Prove it to me and let me believe in whatever you've said. Rather then asking me to tell you again what you need to do when you can't even remember what you've promised. If you're tired of me and this relationship, tell me straight. I wont be so bad to hold you back to me. I'll give you the freedom and happiness you want.

God damn, im so hungry now. I thought that he'd come and find me early but i was wrong. Yea, maybe im just nothing to him in the first place, a nobody at all compared to his her.

Just over and over again.

School was okay today and i hate Maths like really damn alot. And damnit. I dont want Maths tomorrow! And tomorrow is the celebration! =D My classmate is performing! And many many things are yet to be done! =( Anyway, i scored 3rd in class for English ): Damn the 2nd postion person, by only like god damn 1 mark.! And i got 10marks flew away just because of VERT MINOR careless mistake! if not, i'd be top. ): But i got top for my compo and letter writing. (: Finally, i think that i could really peace myself down and do my work well. This time round, i hope that all results will be better then last year. Cos there're nothing that can stop me from anything(: And my English dropped till dont know which position after some incidents ): But nvm, im climbing back to that postion now again. Cos i can focus on my English like totally? Isaac wanto compete with me in N. hahah! SCARED OKAY. And im waiting for mother tongue. Heard that me and Ongling scored top too. Hopefully im one. Then it will be double happiness! =D Congrats me. But on the other hand, im not prepared for Maths and Science! I NEED HELP LIKE SERIOUSLY IN THAT 2 SUBJECTS! WHO CAN HELP ME? ): Okay, nvm bout exams already. Having papers in the holiday ): Wish me goodluck people! =D hahah.
Wento D&T room today to do the " X-BOX " for Mr Ali. AHHAHA! not the real X-BOX 360, but X-BOX 415! AHAHHA. Anyway, Eugene came and reminded me that i owe him a saka sushi. ): HAHHAHA. It's been a long long time ago story and he remembers. =/ ahahha. SORRY! will return you sooonn! And again, after i typed that post yesterday. I wento think alot again and finally when i set my mind, obstacle came again. What's wrong with all these? I dont know.
Im really tired of my life and im having quarrels with bw again. Like im the BAD person and he's sucha Mr Nice when everything wasnt my fault at all like for fucking god sake.

And ends up it's like my fault and he's like saying he dont wanto quarrel. But who is the one who attitude first? Who is the one who gave me the cold attitude. And who is the one who ignored me when i called out for him? It's like not me at all totally! And it all becomes my fault. Well done manz. Im just wearing my classmate's jacket. Is there any fucking wrong with it when im that cold sitting under the damn fan? And do you have jacket with you or do i have one with me? You said you'd bring for me. But like i said, all promises are lies. And now, blaming me for wearing my classmate's jacket. Yea, and after that, everything is my fault. I told u i dont like to carry the heavy jacket of mine to school and you said you did bring for me. But like hello, when did you do that? And im not comparing you at all. Infact, i dint, for now. It's been a long time since i last show attitude. And im not the one who started it! I've really changed damn hell lot already. Is you who had not seen who am i really was before i met you. Get it? Ask those who have been closed to me once, is my attitude like now? NO. But still, everything is my fault cause you said you dont wanto quarrel and just walk away. I called out to you nicely and tried to keep my anger in myself. I would have flare up at you outside my classroom just now. But did i? And i wanted you to help me carry some books cos i have got hell lot of books under my table. And yet you walked off and when i called you, what did you do? All these are my fault. And im left alone carrying all those books and worksheets home and if you were to see my classmates helping me, you're gonna get angry again. WTH?! Please, im really tired. And whole day after that, you dint even bother to msg me. Im sorry, i wont be the one who start any message or whatever . Im already.. I dont know how to say. But i just have enough of everything. And tell me, where are you when i needed you? You are not with me. And again, you'd get angry. I dont know why like seriously. Im tired of all the lies you've gave. And im used to it already. Trust me, all the promises will never be fullfill.

something which hold me back.

We've been demanding too much things is our daily lifes. And we'll come to a point of regrets and hopping to turn back the time and look at that moment and have another chance of re-doing what we've did at that moment. But all was too late even though there's a phrase called, better be late then never. This doesnt goes to all kinds of things or whatever, but never to love for sure.
HAHA.

I think through alot after watching the 9pm show at channel8. It was really nice and i cried at the last part, must watch please. The last espisode is like on Friday ): The Jiaming told Kexin that he'd love her forever even though she's mentally ill. OMFG CAN?! Will it really last if this turns out to be in the reality? Will the guy in the reality love the girl till eternity? I doubt. Cause humans do change. It's now that the love is there, but no promise that it will be there forever. So what if he'd promised and swear? It's just lies. Swear because he felt so, felt that he'd love her forever, but when he love fades, there'll be more excuses to not to love than to love her. If dreams were to have eternity and forever love, make me stay in my dream forever, can i? I rather not stay in the curel reality and sleep all my life in dreams away. At least, i'd be happier.
But let the word "forever" love stay like this. Because there's also something called " nothing " last forever.

Had my pe today at last period. God damn FUN! Really! i snatch many balls from opponent and Ongling and i are not in a team ): But haha! NEVERMIND! We enjoyed overall luhs! =D Stay back for teacher's day thingy and I called the shots and everything. I was like talking to everybody in my class with only Yaqqub beside me as assistant. HAHHA! And yea. Bought things and hope everything goes on smoothly. Wrote 'invitation card' to 4 teachers. Cos i suggestted everything. And Only Mr Tay, Mr Ali, Mr Teo and Mr Low. Because of the class fund. Everybody dont want C***. =/ hahahha! And i dont want Mr Loo. He suck. Very suck. And Andy kept wanting him to come. And of cause, everybody is on my side. =/ hahahha! Yea, i really hate him alot now. I once hated him because of Maths thing. But not anymore after. But now, what he did was really unfair lahs. You'll understand if you were us. And time files, N'lvls are round the corner, afew more days. I scored top for mother tongue, head from my classmates. Hopefully, YES! hahhahaha! And im looking forward to English as well. I really wants to do well this time. Really do. ): Yea, hope that it's not too late though N are afew more days. =/ Gosh. So head to buy things for teacher's day stuffs. And came home, dear came. He's sck. Take care! =D He's having his prelims tomorrow. Good luck to him and everyone.
Queenscup today. I din't stay. ): I wanted to. But come to think of somethings, i skipped. But i don't regret this time round. I've overcome what i need to. (:
And now, nobody can really affect me with any nonsense anymore. Not even the big obstacle in me for years. Though somethings can't be forgotten. It's just a part and parcel of my life. I've took a postive angle to face it and now, im happier than before. I think so.
Alright, its a long long lonnnnnng post. Shall end here! =D Nights people!

I'll try till the last minute of mine.

i changed phone!
N95 (: Mum changed for me! =D
Today i skipped school cause my mum is sick ):
But she really loved me alot. So do i! =D
Im like so sian now. I needa study now. Nlvl are coming soon.
now, im going to study now. After i watch my 9pm show.
Bye.

Make my life colourful.

I wished that this lantern festival will be different from last 3 years.
Will you be able to make my this year the most memorable one and cover
up the last happiest moments of my memory?
Will you even try to let this year's festival be the best one then last 2years ago?
Will you even try to let that not me the most memorable one?
Will you even try hard to replace yours in my mind?
Will you even try in the first place... ... ?

busy with my blogshop again! And now, i felt demotivated again. =/
Shitz! I dont know what's wrong with me! This moment, im so entu. And the next moment,
i dont feel like doing blogshop again! ): Im going crazy.
Am skipping school tomorrow again. My mum fainted today. ):
Kevin came and asked if i'll be going back to ZPS, but the prob is, this QSS
doesnt have half day lahs! WTH?! keeping us till school normal day ends!
I wanto go back to my Zhangde! And with all my friends around me =D BEST!
And im in the mood of studying M - A - T - H - S ! IMAGINE!
MATHS! OHMYGOD! IM GOING CRAZY LIKE REALLY SOON!
Asked dear to teach me Maths yesterday and i really studied! HOHOHO~
Im getting sick i think. Crazy liao lo! hahahhaha! Hopefully i'll pass.
So will able to shut that bloody teacher's mouth! I dint go to school.
So i dont know my results! HOPEFULLY PASS, i aim top. =/ Yea, impossible i know.
But who knows? im aiming for English this time round. (: Wish me good luck peeps.!

replacing is something that are near to impossible.

I've come to realise that no friends are always here and so is friends forever. Some just be friend of you because they need friends. And they don't care how you treat them. And after they've got friends with them, they'll just kick you at a side and rot yourself. And again, once they don't have friends, they'll act one pity face to you and try to gain sympathism from you cause they need you to get friends around them. They ownself know that nobody wants to be with them. How pathetic? So tell me, who will want to befriend with such people? And leaking out others secret to gain friends " liking " and to make people go with them to gossip? And at the same time, kept telling about how bad this person is and make everyone dislike this person so they'll have friends with them? And once again, they'll act one very pity face as they've no friends with them to gain people's attention. I'll laugh at you manz. Please, get a life. If you really treats your friends well, they will and i will. But the problem is, you DON'T. Slowly, i've lost trust in you, totally. And never share problems with you cause i know you are just a hypocrite and i'll never know what's your next step to harm me and bring me down. But nevermind, you'll never have the ability to bring me down cos' your true colours are out and everybody saw it and expirenced it before. Serves you right then. Treat people well and good from your heart. You doesn't need many many many friends with you. Everyone needs a true friend. One will be more than enough. One that will go thru every think and thins with you, all obstacle with you, standby you every single min, cry with you, laugh with you and mostly, use a really warmth heart to be with you. Such friends are rare. Treasure them and not make use of them. Once you lost it, you'll be alone, FOREVER.

Skipped school today! Im damn tired! Yes!
And im like addict to blogshop again =/ So i stayed up till like 4am yesterday to do my blogshop! And i changed everything! Now is http://sn-shoppingneeds.blogspot.com . I've got sprees going on now! And also a pet keeping stations! =D I love dogs ALOT! So don't worry that i'll ill-treat your doggies! =D So support and me and help me to spread around kay, friends? THANKS!
And and also Samantha's! http://everylittlethingyousay.blogspot.com/ .
Support her's too cause she needa clear all these close!
Alot are very nice! Do drop by yea!

Whats the meaning of " friends forever " ?

Will be going to study with friends later on. I needa buck up!
And yesterday was nice, had steamboat! I LOVE IT~ HAHA
i flipped through all photos just now. And was so ... dontknow?
ahaha! i don't know how to say. And im sleepy now!
Though i slept at 11 last night! dear was watching tv.
And and i wento sleep leaving him alone. And he went home.
I dint know till i woke up in the morning today! LOL
Arh! shit, im running out of words, i dont know what to post.
Cause its early in the morning now! HAHA, MORNING EVERYONE! =D

staring at the stars blindly

The only four ladies.

Look at the bottom right corner, how a Guy should sit. LOL

Looking at my class photos, i wanna laugh at how Andy sit can!

Yea, he commented on everyone including me and now its our turn to do so.Dear went for basketball today. And im rotting at home chatting with friends on msn. Might be able to change phone! =D Either the SONY lastest, N95 or any phone i wanto change. Did some homework last night. It's been don't know how long since i did as i always copied work in the morning from my friends the next day. ):

And i lost all my motivation in studying Maths cos' my teacher is such a sucker. He said that for those who are weak and other shit, if we don't try, he'll not bother us. And he asked who thinks that they'll be able to pass Maths for Nlvl, 13 raised their hands, of cause not me for sure please. so 10 din't raise as its really impossible to pass for god sake. And he say that he'll put us at one side to listen and concentrate on the 13 whom he think will pass. So what's the point of trying when teacher is giving up on us. So what's the point of trying till the last min when teacher already gave up on us? We really have NO confident of passing cause we are really weak but that doesn't mean we dont try. And yet you could say that you wanto divide us away from those whom they and you think they can pass and leave us at the back of the class? You are such a wonderful teacher then. Just because you think they can pass so they can talk to us who we and YOU don't think we'll be able to pass is alright and but, instead, you said that we are influenc-ing them to be like us?! WTF?! Yea, better don't be a teacher then. And this is how the rest had lost motivation in Maths and such a sucker worst ever teacher like you. Come on, you think you're a funny teacher? Critising our class people like, etc, FAT, Ugly, Disguesting and so on. And saying that you're a beauty! COME ON, please spare a thought for them can? Like it's so paiseh can! Etc, " eh fat, shudup " Like hello, people trying to ask maths questions only, cant u just call his name which his mum had gave him? Cos' he's under Not able to pass maths student? OHmy! Go and teach all Express student then. Don't even step into any of the Normal Tech classes for all god sake! -.-"

And now, am going to take money from my papa and collect the mickey wallet, oh my, the brother din't reply me and idk if i should go and collect -.-

And please, dont ask me to change when you're nobody to me. I'll never change myself for anybody except for some really important people in my life. But not just any who want me to change for them. That's a NO WAY manz. Accept me for who i am and not ask me to change to who im not. That's not me and i will never be so cause it's too tiring to not being able to be myself. And im tired of not being myself all along, all these while.

What hurts the most was being so close.

There's always brighter side after darkness.

After everything, i've learned not to believe every word you said. And almost all guys are the same. I'd never believe all cos' all will never be fulfilled. Im tired of being treated like a fool. Just another disappointment once again. Im just too weak to do anything already.

i just don't understand what's wrong with you.
As the time passes, you seems to treat all promises as nothing.
And all the words i said and everything you promised,
you seems to have forgotten it all.
Maybe ending is approaching, maybe no. i don't know.
Finally, i think i've overcome what i need to overcome already.
That's a pretty good sign isn't it?
Maybe is just at times, im not sure. Trying hard.
And i've got my friends and boyf to support me.
I don't think i can trust guys that easily anymore.
Cos' most guys have proven me that promises made by them are fake.
Okay, enough of that ranting. Wento school today!
And my class only have 17 present. LOL.
Teacher also sian and know this will happen.
Gosh! who wanto go see fireworks! I WANTO SEE BADLY CAN! ):
Asked dear he said that he going to study with friend.
Called Shiqi, never pick up. Going to call kimmie soon!
Before 8 i should reach. ): I WANTO WATCH!
National Day i cant get to watch, now also cannot. Sigh.
Shall go and get all done ! =D

love never last.

I went school today! And im going tomorrow! DESPITE BEING SO DAMN TIRED CAN!
Wanted to skip actually, but come to think of it,
it's been a VERY VERY seriously LONGGG time since i last wento school for 5 days a week.
Surely there'll be 1 day to 3 days off, self declare off. So this week will be full! =D
And im really tired now and im down with flu. I just cant stop sneezing!
Got my class photo today cause teacher lost the name list! And Andy kept commenting.
Got scolded by most of the classmates! LOL
Damn, im damn tired. So many things to handle these few days ):
And have to pay so many things.!
Anyway, SD chalet, if 20 people can turn up,
each person pay $30-$40 ONLY! can all gather and pay?
Can go to eunice, shiqi or me. So we can book by next week! =D

Was a catching 12louts with Nowell today. But din't.
Cause the movie starts at 5 and end at like 7.
Was damn tired today. Tomorrow 3 prelim paper! GOSH!
Yaya, i just feel like blogging and go and sleep.
Walked around tiong with nowell and its been such a long time.
Long time since we really have the time for each other.
And yeap. We chatted Alot ALOT! =D
And we saw peiwen. She's going to study. OMGz! hardworking.
And my prelim, i DID NOT STUDY at all.
Im really not in the mood to touch any books at all.
Maybe due to my personal problems or so
Its an excuse, i know. But! AHAHHA, pass can liao.
Nlvls are dont know how many days away from me only.
I just come to know that my 1 week holiday isnt holiday to me.
I have to go back and take my prelim. LIKE, alhkabdoa!
Sad sad, no holiday, but im looking forward to chalet!
And peiwen had return me money. So is Xiuqun.
BUT BUT, not the GST 7% and my service charge! ):
CHEATER BUG! =/ hahahhaha! and nvm, they used toilet today.
Peiwen, Xiuqun, you think i dont know?! LOL ~
So ya, remember to plus in the GST and service charge when
you two pay me for the next cheque! lol.
I think it's time for me to buck up in my studies already.
Gosh! OHMYGOD and everything, i need to study! really need please!
Shall end my blog here! Nights people!

everythin's coming to an end soon.

And, I just wanted to say,

even if I never talk to you again in my life,

you are special to me

and you have made a difference in my life.

Another nice poem found in the email of mine(:
Just to all my friends and people who once came into my life.
All the significant people that came into my life,

no matter is good or bad, and also boonwee.

You try giving me happiness and just hoping to get my smile.

Nowell, no matter how bad my attitude towards you, you kept quiet.

I may not be a good friend nor good girlfriend.

But both of you played an important role in my life.

Just like two pillars to hold me standing. Without, i'd fall.

To all who had made my life wonderful, bring away my sadness

and wipe away my tears from my eyes and scream all my pains away.

All of you always had an important role in my life,

without you, there'll be no such a person now.

And those friends who i've quarrel with so badly and now,

we are longer talking to each other or so, you guys still played

an important part in my life. Though it may not look like one.

But its all feeling, guess i'd never know yours.

Neither you'll know mine. All are being kept & nobody would

just spare afew mins to tell me how you feel.

Many many questions that i wanted to ask badly.

But there's no more one chance for me to do so.

I've moved on without you guys with me,

that time was a torture to me. Very big obstacle you'd ever imagine.

And i was devastated and i just can't smile.

Now, you guys are no longer there to hold me if i fall.

But still, i'd miss the time we spent together and all.

All the stuffs and funny faces you guys did just to make me laugh.

Just to made me wear that smile on my face. Thanks.

I've been thinking alot at my exam time. Hopefully,

it won't effect my exams, i don't know why.

All these little things just came flashing back non - stop.

Maybe my temper have yet change, i know it's still the same.

But that's me, i know how's the feeling of being attitude.

Thanks for tolerating me all these while. Much appreciated.

To those who i used all kinds of harsh words, bad words,

and all stupid attitude that you'd wish to just slap my face

And you just kept quiet and allow me to vent my anger like

you should be scolded by me and said sorry when its still my fault.

All these people only have one. Once i've missed you and allow

you to pass through my life, im sorry.

You all are just hard to be met and i dint realise that

i needed you guys so much and took things for granted.

But thanks to you guys, i've learned alot!

to me, you guys just stay in my for life, for life, yes.

And now, i'd try my best to cherish bw that have always been

trying to enter my life to give me the best.

And of cause, all the friends and the one who helped me alot.(:

Finished my English paper1 prelim. Tomorrow paper2 ):

Nevermind, i'll try my best to do well. (:

Am using compueter in the Queenstown library now.

With Ongling and Shiqi, waiting for Sam and Nowell.

And also feeling very cold! ~~~~

Yes, another emotional post again. ):

Just too late to let you know.

Saw this very nice poem from a newspaper today(:

I was once a normal girl,
full of life and spirit.
Yes, i was full of life but lonely & sad.
Then you came and took over me.
You cared for me and loved me dearly.
I've always wished upon the shooting stars
above that everything will remain as perfect.
But we both know that not every wonderful thing last long.
I never once believed it.
And now, i really don't.

I cut short, shall continue tomorrow. (:
Really very nice please. (:

I think through alot alot. Friends are so important in my life.
And my dearest friend too.
Maybe we might think that we know each other best which we dont.
Maybe we might think that we understand each other well,
which we dont. And we may be all wrong.
Maybe is the time that drift us apart. Maybe no.
Maybe we are wrong. Maybe we really do understand, maybe not.
Whether our friendship stay strong, time will prove us.
But all the times you've stoodby me when i need a hand.
You never failed to appear infront of me and pulled me back.
Every little things that you've dont, i appreciate it alot.
And this year, we've lesser time for each other.
Cos you've got your boyf and i've got mine.
Maybe, maybe this is what drift us apart. Maybe not.
Maybe our friendship isnt as strong as what we think, maybe not.
But till the end of the very year before we go on separate ways,
i'll cherish every little moment of ours. Cos i dont wanna regrets.
And if our friendship is really strong,
no matter where we are, we still have both in our hearts.
And when i think of all these and when we talked bout these,
i've cried actually, even now, when im thinking, i cried too.
Every little quarrels of us made our bond stronger.
And now, like what you and i had said, let the time prove that
our friendship and bond is strong. Not breakable. (:

Yes, another emotional post. And i left dear on the phone
while im typing this. Ending here! NIGHTS! ~

OHYAYA! CHALET FROM 31OCT to 02NOV FOR SUPERDOG PEOPLE ONLY!
PLEASE fork out $40 - $50 for the chalet!
$25 for booking the chalet and $20 for the food.
Ex-staffs, please come toooo! LETS GATHER. ! For maybe last time?
HOHO! any equires, contact me or Eunice by Friday! (22Aug) =D
Thanks thanks thanks!

you always have a role in my life.

Good things never last.

Prelim of mine starts today. Gosh! CPA today. SCARED OKAY?!

Had maths lesson in the morning. nahhbey! i hate maths!

And head for our recess till 9.20am. Long luhs! (:

Head back to class and chit-chat with my friends.

And i pester Ongling to tell me Ghost stories! So does teachers!

Yaya, class were like, 'wah! Teacher, dont regret if you start.'

So teacher continues one after another because of me.

Another teacher came in. A indian girl. Damn Guailan okay!

So ya, whole class were like making fun of her lah.

And we lost the class key and was searching high and low.

That teacher says, " i dont care what key. not my business.

Faster line up and go for your exam. " Wahlao!

And i shouted dont know what and Ongling asked me to shhhh.

Cause if cannot find, she'll die! LOL.

Yada yada! And Isaac says we are at chocolate factory.

The indian girl says that she'll bring us to a room.

But its a corridor okay! -.-! And Azahar was asking where is

the whiteboard and fan if we are at the classroom. LOL!

And yah, she don't know what shouted at us. Girls.

And i shouted, " All quiet, if not later teacher dont let us

take the do chocolate exam then we no chocolate eat ah!"

And whole class burst our into laughter. And all was

making fun of her. I know it's bad. But she's BADDER!

Yaya, head to tiong after prelim. EH, nono. Wento sign a form

of our D&T for dont know what. And then tiong.

Ate at griller pasta. It suck! ): I hate that chicken rice.

And came home. Wanted to watch money not enough2.

And when i called dear, he say he left $2. -.-'

So i cant watch already. ): And i walked home from tiong alone ):

And now dear just reached and staring at the space.

Shall go and play the sims now. I feel like playing! =D

Might blog at night if i have things to post! STAY TUNNED! =D

what's love all about?

feeling very sucky now. Yes, yesterday we quarrelled.

But i don't need any comments at all. Thanks.

Im just not a girlf material. That's all. Just feeling very tired already.

Had so much talk with him yesterday. And i just dont know what to do already.

Was it my problem or his? Is mine, i guessed.

How i wished i can shut myself from everyone around me.

And only lives in the world of my own. No other people can come in.

To give me scarstic remarks or comments when they don't know anything.

It's my life. I knows it better than anyone of you does.

Unless you're my close friends. If not, just keep quiet.

Din't blog yesterday cause my mood is really low. Very low.

But things are getting better now. And i don't think i'll have time for this now.

It's exam period, i need to buck up in my studies instead of relationship.

So does he. Hopefully no quarrels till his O'lvl is over. Hopefully yea.

Stayed at home the whole day already. ): Was actually going out with kim.

But but she've got something to attend and we cancelled.

And yesterday was fun. Though that MRLOW is very anti-social.

Met up with my hubby yesterday and i forgot to return her her scarf. haha

Yea, meeting her tomorrow! =D And my CPA prelim is tomorrow.

Hopefully i can pass! Still have to attend school in the morning! =(

All the way till 11am cos im in the second shift. But can go home after that!

And as for shift 1, they have to go back class and study! =/ ahahha.

Yes yes, im really afraid though i may not look like. I'm SCARED! =(

Im not in the mood for school at all tomorrow. But nevermind,

after reading period, halfway, we'll leave for our CPA! =D

Can some kind soul bring one extra story book for me?
Cause i know i'll forget to bring. From the starting of the year till now. =/

But i know dear will prepare one for me. HAHA! =/

Yes, im relaying on him. But only on some stuffs. Shall go and

buy food for him now. If not he will die of hunger later. AHH! CHOY! ahha.

Anyway, before i end my blog,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHAO FANG!

im feeling very very moody now. And i dont know why.
My heart isnt feeling very good now and i kept thinking of things.
And im really tired of people lying to me. You kept dont want me to do this and that.
I tried my best to do so. But why are you just not satisfied? Demanding more & more.
Like its what i should do. But mind you, im a human. i need friends too.
Why is it in a relationship, a girl must lose all her friends and obey the boyf. ?
Ridiculars okay. And must not talk to guys and so on... what the hell?!
Yes, i may attitude you at times or whatever, but i dint stop you, did i?
You may talk to all kinds of girls and every girl in your class. Did i forbid you to talk to them?
Cause i know you are just pure friends with them. So why should i?
And im just talking to my classmates, why is it that i cant? i tried talking lesser already.
But do you even know? No. Look at my class for god sake, how many girls can you find?
4? Anymore? then they are all my classmates, why is it that i cant talk to them?
Im really tired of everything that you've told me, how to believe you? i dont know.
Yes, you'll say that you cant give me what i want again and the whole world will say im at fault.
But please, who is the one who broke all his promises and controlling people?
You said one thing and do another. I had it all enough. Im not who im at all.
If you'd know me eariler, im not such a nice girlf at all. infact im not all the while.
But i've changed already. If only you know me 2 years ago, i would flare up at you,
shouting at you for all these and make your life miserable. But did i now?
I tired to talk to you nicely but it seems like im just talking craps all these while.
Even now, i dint even flare up on you at this. This is just NOT me at all. Totally.
You said you've heard bout my temper and so on. But did i do this to you?
I tried ways to improve this relationship but it seems like i cant. im just tired. Very.
I need a shoulder to lean on. But you are not the one. Not the one anymore. prove me wrong.
If only you could, you will and you can.

Dont change me back to the old Shirley. Cause you'll NEVER like it.
You are not helping me to the better one, but the old one.
So don't blame me if i were to be how i used to be in the past.

HUBBY. I LOVE YOU! =D

This is how i study in class. =/

my project.! =D

Teacher says my this presentation is VERY GOOD! =DD

Time really flies fast. Its been so long since...

And when i think back, everything that happened seems to be like yesterday.

I know i will not be okay this month. but i know it feels nothing.

Out with my hubby today to jurong east. was actually going to woodlands.

But im kind of lazy and also i cabbed there! =/ hahaha! We chatted alot alot!

Tomorrow is going out with her again tooooo! Dear is working tomorrow!

He says that i never blogged bout him. So now here im blogging bout you! okay?

Meeting Nick tomorrow to get some stuffs. Because of Siming! =/ haha

Dint meet dear today at all. And im going to punish him soon.

He kept picking up bad habits like really alot lah! ):<

So tired now can! =( And dont know where to go with eunice tomorrow.

Have been spending money like hell today. I feel like changing phone again.

But mum asked me to wait till holiday then she change for me. Any one can give me suggesstion?

I wanna change phone so badly cause i dont like this phone already.

I know i shouldnt change but still, i cant control ): should i use nokia or SE ?

Siannnn! dont know what is the boy doing now. Cause he went studying with his friends.

And no news of him at all now! HAHAHAH! Nights people! =D

time really flies.

I hated myself very much now.
Hated myself for not handling things well.
Hated myself for not able to get the facts right.
Hated myself for not able to control my feelings.
And allowing my emotions to overtake me.

Yes, im thinking alot again. Its a bad habit, i know. Sigh ):
Skipped school today and went back to school in the noon.
And also skipping school tomorrow, anyone wanto join? =/
Finally my D&T stress are OVER! i did my presentation board well, i guess.
Teacher praised me! =D I have the picture, upload tomorrow! =D
Mr Tay says that i did it well because i used free hand and can do so neatly! =DD
Hopefully can get a 3 for this as its for my N'lvl. ): (:
Hahahah! Yea, stress are over! It really boils my blood over D&T these few days
And teacher says that i've no sense of emergency! =( until the last min,
then i know how important is this project to me. ye ye, i've not changed.
Nono, stress aint over yet! My prelim starts this Monday! =(
But school per normal till 11pm. )): cause im in shift 2. Wish me good luck please! haha!
im really really afraid! hahha! but all my classmates says that im not.
Because D&T before the last day, im still like happy go lucky & think that it can be done
by the date line. But, NO. and they are nice to help me but i scolded them. ):
But thanks to them, they make my day happy and de-stress me by telling me jokes!
SEE! Malays are always the better one, for what i feel lah. So, Hakim, Nabil and blah..
SEE, YOUR NAME AHHHH! =D hahahha! yaya, shall go and study now. I WILL.

Something that only love can do.

READ THE LYRICS! its really meaningful.
Listened to this Song at my Hubby's blog! (NOT BW!) haha =/
Very nice and wonderful song! =)

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

[Chorus]
But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

[Chorus]
I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye

[Chorus]
That's something only love can do

Another song! =D

see you all the time
Never see you smile
I try to picture what's going on in your mind
He leaves you every night by yourself
He took your love and put it on the she
lf He doesn't really care how you feel...
You should be moving on girl what's the deal?
I wana see you out that door... cuz girl you know your worth much more

So baby tell me why you stick around
Always lonely and you only wear a frown
He don't treat you good and you know
The only thing left is for you to go
You shouldn't live a lie with someone
When deep inside you know he ain't the one
I don't know what to say no more
I wana see you out that door

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know that it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind

Girl I understand
That you're scared
And you feel that you might never love again
But baby that ain't true
No no no
I know that there some there for you
Someone that will see
That you are worth
An undiscovered treasure on this earth
Girl you know your worth so much more
Wana see you out that door

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know its time to move on

Went to many many people's blog before i blogged. Yea, 9/10 are sad one.
And it dragged my mood down and i started thinking alot alot.
Being a friend and so many things happened and become stranger.
This feeling is so much more unbearable. So more worser than having bad quarrels.
And have to pretend that you dont know somebody which you knew.
I keep repeating my blog song and listen. Some of you will think that it's stupid.
I know myself what im doing. Nlevel's are near, i just wanna this period to pass faster
and sometimes, slower or even turn back the time.
I can't manage my time well neither can i manage my stress.
D&T is really stressing me out already. I shouted at my classmates which come and talked to me. sorry, i dint mean so. Im just too .. i dont know how to say also. but sorry.
If i can turn back the time, i'll score better and get into EOA.
But then, i dont regret taking up D&T course because i've fallen in love with D&T.
Though im not really intrested in D&T but i learn alot from here.
And i fell in love because of doing the work piece. Its was something nice and
i regretted doing photoframe for my Nlvl Model. Very VERY.
It wasnt done well at all. NOT AT ALL. And im really very sad bout it now.
If i can have the chance again, i wanna do CABLE CAR. (:
I know its impossible but then, i just wanto do so. Its more diffcult than my current one.
But i know its worth doing so. Because i love cable car.
I wanted to sit on Valentines day but due to some problem i cant.
And my wish on Vday is to sit cable car. Though this year i could. But i dint wanto.
There're some reasons which i think it's been solved and might be able to
sit cable car on next year's Vday. If nothing happens to me and my dearest. (:
And my theme for my project is Valentine's Day. I've did a very big mistake.
Sigh. Yaya! some of you will say that i can do that if i retain.
I will do a model of a cable car one day myself. Or anyone can help? hahha! ):

Yaya! if you are not happy with me, tell me. Dont go to boonwee, understand?
Dont worry, he never badmouth you at all. He even help you yea.
And you 2 are years of friends, from primary school.. You should know bw well.
And ya, if you are not happy, come straight to me. Dont complain to bw.
You think by doing so he can help you? Haha! NOWAY. please lah!
If you dont stare at me, how would u know im doing so? YES! SOUNDS FAMILIAR?
You told boonwee that. because i told him this also and he said you said too.
Come on manz. Imagine a people staring you ALL THE WAY, you wont notice one meh?
You got no frindge to cover your eyes hor. please hor! So im not the one who stare at you first.
mind you. Common sense lah please. Dont use this okay. Its you who started it first.
And now, trying to push the blame on me? Like you have got no fault?
Like i said, not happy with me, come to me okay? im WAITING for you.
Oh please, not because i like you hor. Is waiting for you to tell me where are you not
happy with me. PLEASE MANZ. Grow up. =.-

我好想她
现在好吗
旧画面还在记忆里挣扎
那年的夏结束时说的话
一直不能放下
她说爱啊
爱很伟大
所以才能让她勇敢离开
当时的我
不明白为什么
直到时间白了头发
我懂了她
她不让眼泪落下
所以让爱结束在最美刹那
她的眼里进了沙
她算了吧够了吧
不要再苦苦挣扎
我懂了她
不要我为她牵挂
她说天空很大要自由飞翔
没有结果的爱情
她放了吧走了吧
不想要彼此受伤
她那么傻

My blog song track 2. Very very meaningful. =D Listen! =D
To some of my friends who have broke up recently.
You might never know what's the other party is thinking about.

Track 1.

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能
会我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

看见你和他在我面
前证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决为
你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

I really really dragged myself out of my comfy bed today! ):
Im really really tired. Very tired! Exhausted, i should say.
Lessons per normal and fell asleep in class too. Yea, old illiness are back.
Headache over my D&T. I REALLY REALLY WANTO DROP THIS SUBJECT!
Today after school, wento hawker and had my lunch with ongling.
Start working on my Journal all the way till 5.30pm ):
NEVER REST HOR! Running up and down to cut this print that ... Gosh!
And hopefully can do on diet! Hahah! Yeap, dear came and fetch me ...
And came home to slack all the way and im too lazy to continue my DJ.
Today is supposed to be the last day, otherwise, i wouldnt be so hardworking.
Mr Tay took the risk of giving us another day. So tomorrow..
Have to stay back till 5pm and no more! =D No more staying back for D&T ! =D
And prelim are near. 6 more days. Im really afraid and want to do well.
Hopefully to everyone. I've destroyed something before which i've regretted doing so.
It was all my fault. I just cant stop pushing the blame towards myself.
Its was all my fault. Every single thing. And hopefully, everything will go on smoothly.
And next year, i dont feel like going to ITE, i just dont feel like studying already.

everything seems meaningless.

one short poem which i find it very meaningful. One is kind of love & one is for my dear friend.

we've shared so many memories,
so many smiles brighten our days,
so many things will keep us close,
even when we go on separate ways,
so any time we shared will be another cherished memory for me.

Yesterday's memories
Today's moments
Tomorrow's deams.
You have a special way of being a part of all these things.

Nice isnt it? Now i've come to realised that love is so so fragile.
my dearest friend is having a big problem now. I feel very sad for her.
Hopefully they'll be back again. I prayed.
School today! WTH ): Have to rush my D&T. So will be staying back at school till 5 for sure.
Because is a DEADline for me liao! ): I NEED HELP AND NOBODY CAN HELP ):
Yes, Deb wanted to help me but we've got no time to meet up. Thats the why. ):
But thanks anyway! LOVES! ((:
I've uploaded 3 songs in my blog. Chi Xin Jue Dui, Shou Fang Kai and Wo dong le TA.
I know nobody will stay at my blog for that long time. But all are very nice and meaning song.

Dearest, i'll always be here. Remeber!

Had a don't - know - nice - or - boring day today.
Hahaha, because im supposed to be the one working today right?
But ended up, dear is working instead of me! =s
Im too lazy to drag my backside off my bed and dear helped me.
then then then, i went there to just sit and play with DS LITE. =/ so dear did everything.
Yaya, im a lazy ass, i know. So sales wasnt good.
And we closed the cart early and wento ABC market and have dinner.
Was actually aiming for Jack's place. But its tooooo expensive.
So though dear wants to pay for mine food, i rejected. Because it's his hard earn money.
Hahahah! he was like " WA, ni hui shen qian de ah " in chinese.
Meaning, you will know how to save money ah. HAHA. because its not mine money.
Yaya, head to ABC and dont feel like eating. But dear wento buy chicken wing for me!
Haa, was shocked. He bought porridge, ham and egg, chicken wing and meatball soup.
And same old sentence he said to me, " LAO ZI YOU QIAN " means he got money.
hahhaha! yeap, bused home and im feeling sleepy and that pig had fallen asleep.
Shall wake him up and ask him to go home before he miss his last bus (:
Nights people. My D&T is !#$%^&*!#$%^&*. Im dying soon in 3 days time.
If only i dont try to chiong my work now. . . . . . Anyone can help me? ):

Im not the one who can be there

i know that dear have never seen me smile happily for a long time, im sorry.
anyway, i dont feel like blogging. Just type for the sake of feeling to do so.
Nights people, prelims are near. Good luck to all and myself. (:

Baby bought this for me! My anniversary present.((:

Each precious moment
we share is ours alone,
to hold forever in our hearts,
and because of you,
i have learned just how beautiful love can be

Thank you for the love you are giving me,
for the joy you are bringing me.
But most of all,
thank you for bringing
yourself into my life.

Skipped school today not because that im lazy.
Is because im really sick. Meet up with Ongling because she called me this morning.
So then i realise that she dint go school at all too.
Head to Tiong and spent most of our time idle-ing there.
Dear came after his oral. And i dint watch the movie at all ):
Because im broke and i dont want baby to buy for me.
yaya, he's rich, i know. But i just dont want him to spend so much money on me.
So after that i saw mickey mouse at more than words! SO CUTE CAN!
the pic on the top one! CUTE RIGHT? OF CAUSE! because its mickey!
I dint know because i was looking at the mickey cups and bowl
as i feel like buying one and when i turn, dear wasnt with me already.
So i wento find and then saw him at cashier. -.-"
He bought the mickey for me. how nice of him(:
So ya, i played with the mickey and he said that im cheeky again.
Which i never hor! LOW BOON WEE.. hahhahah! =/
Came home and head to see a doctor. Family doctor.
Dear paid for me): $23. i wanto return him and he say.
" ahya. dont need la. lao zi you qian. " -.-
YAYA. there's a phrase saying that once a guy have got money with them,
they will start to flirt around. HAHAH! yes, you! =S
He slept at my house till 8plus and went home at 9.30.
And i really like the mickey mouse! =D im still having my flu but better already.
Thanks for those who came and show me their concern! =D
I wanna go sleep already. (:

And ya, stop staring at people please. it just irritates us off.
Nowell also buey tahan please. If you're not happy, say out.
Dont use stare or whatever shit. Just come to us and say out everything.
Im saying this because i dont wish that any conflicts will happen to you or bw.
I know you've stop staring at me or looking or whatever shit.
Because bw had wento asked you. And i've told him not to.
Like i said, i dont wish to see any conflicts between you and bw as
you two have been friends for afew years? i dont know & not intrested.
And just stop staring or looking at Nowell also. Thanks!
im not finding any trouble with you or what. im just trying to say out what im not
happy with. Imagine people staring at you, would you like it? No right?
Im stating the facts and saying things out nicely here. Not finding trouble. (:
Just keep your eyes to your girlf will do(: .Hope that you'll understand yea.

Nights people and happy anniversary to myself! =D

my beloved is mine and im his(:

I want you to feel free to grow and change
& follow your life's path knowing i love you
for who you are and what you are.

Look upon another's head,
Love demands the loving deed;
Tell that one your love is true,
Prove it by the things you do.

I was damn tired & dont feel like going to school at all today morning.
And plus Ongling and Shiqi also not going to school which make me more sian.
So yah, whole class only left with only me and a malay girl whom im not close at all.
But at least, i've got my good classmates to be with me and talked to me.
I bugged them for ghost stories like how i did yesterday. hahah!
So after school, wento meet up with my long old friend, Stella. (:
We chatted about our childhood stuffs and were really happy.
And also saw Clarence, the one whom i "admire" in p6! HAHAHA
And how i scolded him for taking my number in class.
Hahah! I told dear and he gave me a kuku face! P6 lah! please. =/
HAHA! It was really FUN! =D The best memories of mine.
He've become so damn hell tall now and tan also luhs! HAHAHAHA
Yah, dear came and my aiai wento find her friends too.
Walked the pasa mulam and Nowell saw us buying food & she called me.
HAHA! yaya, came home and i kept sneezing. And fell asleep.
I woke up at 8.50pm and realise that dear was gone. ):
Now, im sick already. im down with bad bad flu! )))):

too late for all regrets

I've some nice short poems which i think its very meaningful.
So i decided to share here! =D

And things can never go badly wrong
If the heart be true and the love be strong,
For the mist, if it comes, and the weeping rain
will be changed by love into sunshine again.

I need so much the quiet of your love
After the day's loud strike;
I need you to calm all the other things above
After the stress of life.
I crave the haven that in your dear heart lies,
After all the toil is done;
I need the star shine of your heavenly eyes,
After the days great sun.

Woke up by my grandma because she turn off my alarm clock. -.-
And i was rushing like hell in the morning and feeling very sleepy! ):
Got back my holy Maths results, 3/30. HAHA!
But hor! i improved. The previous one i got 1/32 =/
Yea yea, i know that some of you will be laughing now at me, but nevermind.
Because i've gave up hopes on my Maths long ago.
PE times was alright but Shiqi had injured her arm. Our class are damn rough.
Rismail and Azahar's hair got cut by Mr Chua. & Rismail kept singing;
" Why did my hair get cut, why? " The sentence is like this & form into a song.
Damn funny and everybody was laughing at both of them .
My classmates kept telling me that my pony tail's colour is very obvious.
And hopefully i wont get caught for this. I dint cut my nails.
And i brought my nail clipper to school today. =/ hahahha
Having headache over my D&T AGAIN! ): GOSH! left with this last week!
And dear destroyed my Presentation board today! WTH
And tomorrow, i have to re-buy the board again! Fucking expensive lah.
I need help about my D&T! who will be willing to help me out? =(

preventing is better then curing.

Today is a fucking bad day.
Was actually going to gym with ongling and we skipped.
Because too many people and all are guys. =/
Yaya, bought lunch for dear. Because cannot be see him hungry alone.
So dabao go and i wento Jack's place to have my lunch.
Idle around and me and dear had a VERY VERY BIGGG QUARREL.
Yea, a very big one. We nearly broke up. Just so little bit if i dont give in.
And i know throughout the whole quarrel, i never did.
Ya, now my baby is rich already as he's working. hahhah!
yah, and we just finished our quarrel withing a hour, we're quarreling now.
And my attitude just now is sucker then before. Which i never had before at all.
Just cant figure out why you can control me and i cant.
And mind you, i dint hor! like please, i just ask u to delete somethings
which is unpleasent to you and your friend. I just wanto help him
and dont wish to see you like this with him. So i was wrong. Thanks man!
I know im only like a pet to you. What a master wants it's pet to do.
Yes, i've got it all totally. And i dont like to be a pet and neither am i.
So fucking get all the facts right. YA, whatever u do is for my good and im not.
And after this 2 big quarrels, i've noticed something.
I think its time for me to let you go. So you'll find someone better.

i'll let you go if you want.

Pictures will do the talking. But But, i dint take much photos this time because it's always dear who is taking the photos! ):