The course of true love never did run smooth.

Hello hello helloooooo!

Wento Simei today. Damn hell is the dogs there are selling at 3k. piang eh.
Plus there's no JR as well. Yes, i've decide to get a JR :)
Ahahah, going to animal farm this Sunday! =) Uncle bringing me there.
It's gonna be th 2nd time im goingggg! WOOOHOOOO! =/
Okay abit tooo sua ku i know. But ahaahahha! im excitedd laahhhhh!
And wth is, im recieving weirdo calls from just now till now.
Damn pek chek okay. ninahbey. And im not in the good mood. im having MOOD SWING.
Maybe becos of my menssss??????????? I DONT KNOWWWWWWW. Argh.
Yah yah yah. idk what to type anymore. Im damn f'king lazy alr.
Ohhohhohhyah! Gonna reborn my hair tomorrow! =)
And tell you guys something.

There's this girl i know.. Which tYype lukk thiisSss..
Not trying to say those with this type of writing but only her.
Please, you're not that cute. -.-! It makes everyone puke! Right hubby!?
Hub, ii lurbb euuuu! =/ hahahahhahahahahah!

With all those hopes and wishes.

Replying my tags here:)

passerby, thanks:)

reader, but it's just about fun, is that wrong?
It's not like im going there often you see. :)

Kimmie, you give me first kay. then i give u next time. LOL

Random, haha, yea JR is so much cuter. ahaha, that you should ask my boyf.
why he doesnt allow. he says the girls there are crazy. =/

Peng, LOL. eh, multiple choice got 2 only leh.

passingby, hahha. idk lehhhhhhh! but thanks! :)

Awwww. Ahhahh, my stomach is damn hell painful now. Am having my cramps:(
Goddammit. I hate cramps. It means i have t lie on my bed tomorrow for almost whole day.
Or i'll need to pop panadols if i wanto go out :( But my panadols are running out.
Im left w two now for this whole night and wait for my dear to get me a new packet tmr:(
So nowwww, i have to bear w the pain in my bloody stomach. =/ ahhaha.
Shall go and rest on my comfy comfy bed nowwww! Nights earthlingsssssss! =)))))

It was way too much to be done.

一个人在这个夜里孤单
得难以入睡
真的想找个人来陪
不愿意一个人喝醉
醉了以后就会流泪
数着你给的伤悲
为什么你总让我憔悴
别说我的眼泪你无所谓
看我流泪你头也不回
哭过了泪干了心变成灰
我想要的美你还不想给
伤了的我的心怎去面对
爱给了你我不后悔
只希望你给我一次机会
让我去追让我去飞
毕竟爱过的心需要安慰
需要你安慰

Was like listening to songs in imeem. And the auto suggest came to this.
So meaningful. It's an old song if im not wrong lah.

Nway, i dint manage to get myself a dog today.
Wento so many places. SPCA, Parkway, Bukit Ho Swee and i forgot.
Spca's Jack Russell is pending. Parkway is too expensive.
Bukit Ho Swee no more already. :( But nevermind, uncle promised t bring me
out to find again on Fri. And he'd have more cash will just buy from shop.
Cos he'd be having more time. Today he's rushing for work. Ahaha.
Though im kind of sad but nevermind. :) Mummy doesnt wants JR.
She says its too playful and active. How would someone doesnt want an active pet?
LOL right. my first dog is JR and im in love with JR breed as well. But i dont know lah!!
She says chiwawa is more cuter. :( Suggestion anyone?
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! =D
Yea, im damn high now. Dont know why im feeling so happy now. Ahahah. :)
Then perhaps you'd see me very EMO at night again. LOL. byebye!

Yea, i changed back to this song. Becos i still love this song best lah:)
No need any stupid comments please, if you do, just fuck off from here.
Nway, im in a very very GOOD MOOD NOW! =D

Guess what...

My uncle is getting a dog for me tomorrow! Wooohoooo! FINALLY
After so long, im getting a dog again! Jealous not! Maybe not, but but but...
im yearning for a long for like 8446286406752706 years already lah!
Yea yea yea! Still thinking of getting back Jack russell or chiwawa.
But JR is more playful and last time i used to tell my JR my saddess! =/ ahahah.
Yea yea yea, im crazy. But i dont know leh. On the other hand, im afraid as well.
What if they are gone one day, i'd be v sad. Very very lah! =(
Haiz, but these few days, i've been going round looking for dogs stuffs already lah!
Dint buy cos im afraid if i failed to get one, i'd be wasting money lah. Alamak.
Yaya, my dearboy is clubbing now and im at home rotting like an idiot.

I really do wonder why. Why can he go and i cant?!
Is this fair? My friend's bday i cannot go. But he can? He said cos she came for his bday.
Then how about my friends? Dint they celebrate my bday for me?
And this year they planned everything and you ruined it for me.
Yahyah, i dont care. I wanna go clubbing real soon! On the 18th next month!
Tatata, it's been 2 years long since i last went clubbing lah.
Come to think of it now, all seems to be like just happened yesterday.
Times flies. Those crazy shouting stupid stuffs.. Ahahahah.
Yeap, Kimmieeeeeeeeee and Debbbbbbbbbb, you both are the best.
Guess that im brave enough for everything, everything that is going on my way.
Just what is fair and unfair. Everybody thinks that im the ONLY ONE.

The only unreasonable one.
The only stubborn one.
The only demanding one.
The only, one and only bad one.
And he's always the good one. Yeap, im the unreasonble one then.
Then why is it that he's NOW at clubbing. Answer me. Please manz.
Look at who is doing what NOW. Am i the one.
So stop accusing or assuming that im the ONLY ONE. You can alw turn the words here and there. Please spare a thought for me. Did i STOP HIM FROM GOING OUT?! EVEN CLUBBING.!? So why cant i go? Right.
Fuck all things now. I dont know why im so god damn moody now.
Yea, im having bad mood swing. Because the bad one is FOREVER ME. Not others.
Just somethings cant be seen from the outer. So who are you to comment?
Shut up, bitch.
Argh! Sigh...

Im so so so tired now! =)))) Went escape todayyy!!!
Class outing w classmate and im so exhaustated now.
Played so many games today and just got home..
Played arrcade today after escape.. And someone came over to challenge InD.
Wth is im so afraid is... I WILL LOSE.. And i really lost.
He's using card and upgrade to max. With the tyre is GOLD. NINAHBEY!
And i lost to him by 1mm okay!?!?!?!?!??!?! Nvm.
Cabbed home and im so tired. I want chalet chalet chalet! =(
Shiqi even wanted to go east coast to cycle. Piang, i got no more energy already.
So yea head home and msged dear. He's on his way to my house w chicken chop! =)
I got good boyf. Jealous of me kay?? hahahah! Alright, shall go and bathe now.
Nightsssss earthlings! :)

I AM JUST A NOBODY.
YOU TOLD AND TEACHED ME TODAY.
From the way of you telling me to go back, go away.
From the way you scolded me once AGAIN.
From the way you left me alone again.
I know i should prepare myself.
Yea, once break, there'll be no turning back. Maybe this is what you want.
Like i always say, once a glass is broken, it will never be the same.
So will be both of us. It's the scar that remain, not the love and feeling anymore.

My hand, nahbey, blueblack :( Stayed at nowell's house till like 11.30pm.
Playing poker cards on majong table. -.-! No majong cos her mom borrowed her cousin.
Have yet get them back. So yah, i was telling nowell that both of us should give in.
I'll take my majong amd she'll take her table. Both walk to half of the kimtian. LOL
Yada, not funny i know. Sooo cut cake and so on. Im so tired now..
Today is dear's mom bday. Happy bday to her:)
I wanna get myself a dog soon! Real soon. By this year? I guess so.

So real but what's the use?

Hello people! :)
I just feel like blogging so im here to blog. :/
Anyway,

Happy birthday to my dear mummy!
And also not forgetting nowell's youngest sister!

Yeap, she's born on the same day w my mum's bday!
I remember vividly that i was having breakfast w one of my friend
and nowell called me telling me that her mum is on the way to deliver.
So yea, falls right on today.!
And at night, we wento eat w my mum, the dad called winnie and said she's born.
And they rushed cab down to hospital.. Yea, that was two years ago...
And today is her 2 years old bday:) Withing these two years, so many things happened.
Yea, it's really cute to see her from a small baby and now she knows how to talk.
She's very cute okay.. but nevermind, let's not talk bout the past.
But now, TODAY! =D Gonna look for present with dear later...

Dont promise me anymore things, seriously.
You shouted at me yesterday like i owe you.
Just becos of a " TA MA DE " .
And you ASSUME that im scolding your MOTHER!?
So should i go to your mum and say sorry to her?!
If your dad scolds this, do you need to get your grandma down and ask him to apologise?
OR if my grandma scold this, means need to ask my great-grandma who had died long ago
to come back alive to listen to her SORRY?! Ridiculars okay!
Is ta ma, not your ma. Get the things right, buck up your chinese lah.
ta is refering to him, ni is refering to you. So when im talking to u, is NI MA. NOT TA MA. -.-
Please manz, people needs time to change. Am i still scolding so often now?!
Piang eh. I've changed alot already okay. Stop your demanding for god sake.
It's a habit to me for fucking 5 years. And you expect me to change over a night?
God bless you then, so sorry that you're so unlucky to have me as your girlf okay?
Im not those xiao tian tian, that will be so quite and sweet. Please.
Not now, not tomorrow, not in this whole life. =.=

LOL, Welcome back, Guest. euu arr sOooOo cUtte lerhsss! -.-!
Ahahhaa, so means all those prople no matter in blog or paper or
teachers that left blank on exams answer sheet is refering to Shawn as well?
Esp those fill in the blanks... So all the answer should write " Shawn " as well?
LMAO please. Dont be too cute. I wont be able to stand your cutinessSssSSssSSs.
Yea yea, so those bloggers that have ____ or msn that people have _ means Shawn?!
Trying to be funny uhh? please manzozozozozo~ But nevermind.
Im a nice person but you may not think so, dont have to comment either.
I wont quarrel with you or argue with you. Cos my time is so precious. Not like yours. :)))

Hubby's staying overnight at my house again tonight. :)
And prom night tomorrow.! Damnit. I really feel like going.! :(
Ahahha! actually, i dont know what to blog now. Ohhhyaaaahhhhhhh!
Wento meet ongling just now to pass her her clothing.
And i waited for like 1hour plus and she cabbed down. ahahah.
hubby was like leaning against the Subway's glass and the person came out and ask her dont.
O.0 you mean your glass are so " strong " till people lean will fall?
Yahyah, had mac and went homeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Im sleepy nowww! Veryyy!
Had to bring dear's clothes to him tomorrow morning for him to iron. :(
No more sleep for me if i dont sleep now. Nights peopleeeeeeeeeeeee!

People tend to regret when they lost. Why just can't people treasure the love ones when they are right beside them? Yea, im one of them as well. Always and always, i dont cherish those love ones that are with me. Be it friends, family or love. I dont know why either. It's everybody's nature? Guess so. It's been a long time since i last listened to my blog default song. The one at the columm. Yea. Im thinking alot now.. How i wished i can dig out everyone's brain to read, whether they are true or not. Its the most scary part when you realised that they are just using you for your kindness and harm you all these while. Im so afraid that what im having now might be lost one day. All my friends, family and love ones... Who doesnt? Right? I know what im having now will never last forever.. Guess that i really need to treasure what im having now instead of complaining that it's not good enough. I know i should be content with all that i have now.. But recalling all those memories, from when i know things already till today, guess i have change alot. I dont flare up at my mum anymore? I would talk to her cos i dont want to make her worry for me anymore. Im old enough, just really want her to be happy and she've got uncle joe w her. Isnt life good for her? So why should i be the one that destroy her biggest part of happiness? Becos im her dearest daughter, right? I may be angry that i cant attend prom night. But afterall, i would choose her then prom night:) it's the right choice. Though i have to miss the only one chance in my whole life. This only prom night of only these friends. But, i dont know.. ...
Am listening to so many songs currently, i dont deny it pulls my mood down alot but afterall, i have to stand up myself again to pull myself up. Right? Yes, my thinking had become matured as when im still going on on this path that i've chosen. Be it regrets that are w me or guilt of somethings that cant be erase from my heart, i'll be leaving it aside. Not to think bout it as often as before. :) So does everyone, so life can be better right? Im putting on that smile. Becos of a word from _____. He's the only one who taught me so many things in my life, its him.
Thats the sentence that makes me stand again when i fall.

Anyway, hubby stayed over at my house yesterday. And we prank-ed call so many many people! Yes, Dennis, Andy, Seng, Hao, my dearboy and alot more. Just to ask " what time does the KFC open " Yea, it's damn shit lame. But we like it! So as we fell asleep at 7am plus or so, they all started calling back and disturbed our sleep. Awwww, bao ying! Ahahahah.
Nights everyone! I know why kimmie they all not tagging for these few days, cos they are not at home but HOTEL! Wth!?!?! They wento book hotel and stay there becos they think is fun?! Godddddddddd! Deb should be bring her lappy along. Ahahah, i'll miss you! =D NIGHTSSS!

The pain will be worst if you've own than lost.

His sister, my new niece! =)

So many photos yea? Looks like model anot! He's so cute right!~
This pic above is my another cousin! Samuel. :) He's damn shy i tell you.
And so chubby. Ohya, tell you guys something, i had a nightmare yesterday night.
I dream that i've fought with a monster! Gosh, and when i opened my eyes,
my heart was like jumping so fast can! And i had 3 dreams yesterday. ohmy.
I dreamt that i went out with a guy=/ and did some shopping with him..
Met up with a group of friends and he held my hands. LOL!
But another girl was angry cos she liked him. ahhaha. And i dont know for what reason,
I flare up. LOL, my attitude in real or dream are the same yea? =/
And i woke up, nevertheless, i slept back again after awhile..
This time, i dream bout the 2nd part. LOL isnt it!? I was at sijia's home.
I dont know why, this girl called sijia luhs. It's the dream luhs.
And this guy came and bought me a dont know what luhs.. and i still ignored him ..
And the ridiculars part is, he's wearing a bomb watch and he doesnt even know it.
I took it and threw outside the window. LOL, left 3mins plus before it bomb. hahah!
And around 5mins later, we smelled thick smoke filled the air. And we wento the window.
The bomb exploded and the buiding opposite us was on fire. Fireman came and so on.
And i was caught cos there's a neighbour saw me throwing the watch.
And when the policeman came towards me, i felt damn scared and woke up.
LOL! Still got part 1 and 2 leh. Cute not? LOL. =/ joking. Had 3 dreams lidat and slept till 3pm.
Had dinner at crystal jade and cost me and dearboy $80. :( But neverminddd.
Going to m'sia on 19th. Wth, crash with my prom night. damnit.
God-mummy doesnt allow me to attend prom night and wants me to be in M'sia.
And i've planned what to buy for mummy! So will give it to her on 22nd! =D

Meeting hubby tomorrow! And now, im not sleepy at all lahs.. So awake and hungry~
i miss the sharks fin in crystal jade! I wanna go there againnnnnnnnnnnn! =DD
Nights everyone! viwawa anyone? ahahahahha!

Ohmy, i can go for prom already. Sigh. Nevermind then.
Anyway, got my mum's present today. So out of cash now..
My cousin, cute not! =D shall upload all later yea? :)

Yeap, i realised that i've got tooo many tags now.
And kimmie is bugging me for repliessssss~

Eunice, Sure will go out soon! No worriessss~ Ahahah, yea, no SD no us. :)
passerby, thanks.
Deb, LOL, yea. I know already the story. ahah :( And thanks. :)
Kimmie, Nahhhbeyyyyyyyy, sorrryyyyyyyyyyyyy lorrrrrrrrrrhhh! ahahah!
You want learn anot? You join SD within a week can learn all liao. Fast one! FOC :)
Juepeng, LOL. You win liao lor.
wanyee, No prob. :)

I was really emotional the day before. And so many of you came to me.
Thanks so much. Sorry for not replying. Dint mean so.
And when im awake from my sleep, i saw over 10+ people pm-ed me.
Thanks to those who are willing to lend me a shoulder. ahaha. :)
Yesterday, web-ed came with hubby and her cousin. She's so pretty luhs. Seriously.
And plus her voice, so CUTE... Ehh nono, it's adorable right, Rena? aahha ..
And the saddest thing is, i CAN'T ATTEND PROM NIGHT ALREADY.
Becos my mum's bday my god-mummy wants us to go in to M'sia on 19th!
And will be out on the 21th. :(((((((((((((((((( PROM NIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTT~~
So 22nd uncle Joe will be celebrating with my mum alone.. :(
So mum asked me not to go for prom night. So is god-mummy.
Sighhh. But afterall, mummy's bday is bigger right? So sigh. Bye prom night.
Just when im so looking forward to it. Everything buang here. FUCKKKKkkkkkkkkkk.

Now now now, i finally really woke up. Beliving that everyone is so true. But so fake afterall.
Yeaps, afterall, it's Superdog thought me how to be scheming should a person be.
When i thought that they are really nice and true. I think im really being too kind to them.
Yea. Being a friend, being just for a day or for afew years, now i'd realise everything of you.
I always lied to myself telling myself nevermind. You're not doing it delibrately.
But what did i get in the end of helping you? Backstab? Yea, you never failed to do so.
Each time i helped you, is also giving you a chance to stab me again and again.
Yes, you told me you dont know and so on, but after that, you told me another story.
Yes, im damn fucking stupid. TO BELIEVE YOU. SHIRLEY, WAKE UP.
I really need to slap myself up. By helping you, do you appreciate? Or have you ever appreciate?
No right? Yes, i already dont wanto stay in SD again. Facing all those backstabbers.
Espically the manager. One only. The worst person i've met in my WHOLE LIFE.
You have the cheek to smile here and there like you really wants to help.
But when facing the boss, you're complaining all the time bout us. You're two head snake.
I know already. Seen through you so well. So clearly. Yea. I got suspend just becos of a MC?!
And i told the MANAGER that i dont have my mum's letter is it alright?
Who is the person who said okay, can also. And yet aprroved suspension of me?!
Yea. You're so fake i tell you. Yes, i wont show you any good faces anymore. Cos there's not a need. Be it you a manager or whoever. You dont derserve any respect at all.
So tired, i remembered when i first joined Superdog, it's filled with laughters.. But nowww....
Everybody is trying to harm everyone to gain credit. How tiring to prevent this and that...
Yes, im leaving. Superdog teached me alot i know.

HOW TO COOK HOTDOG...
HOW TO GRILL BEEF PATTIES...
HOW TO WRAP BURGERS...
HOW TO READ THOSE MESSY ORDERS...

But nevertheless, they also teached me,

HOW TO BE A HEARTLESS PERSON...
HOW TO BACKSTAB ONE ANOTHER...
HOW TO BE TWO HEAD SNAKE...
HOW TO BE A HYPOCRITE...
HOW TO BE A SCHEMING PERSON...
HOW TO GAIN CREDIT BY BACKSTABBING...
HOW TO HARM PEOPLE FOR OWN GOOD...
HOW TO BE A GOOD LIAR...
HOW TO BE A GOOD ACTOR...
HOW TO BE A PERSON WEARING A MASK...
HOW TO BE A CRUEL PERSON...
HOW TO FIGHT FOR OWN RIGHTS AND HARM ANOTHER...
HOW TO FORGET THOSE WHO ARE NICE TO YOU...
HOW TO NOT FORGET THOSE HATRED...
HOW TO BE UNTRUEFUL TO OWN FRIENDS...
HOW TO REVENGE ON ONE ANOTHER...
HOW TO DISPISE PEOPLE'S WEAKNESS...
HOW TO ONLY CARE BOUT OWNSELF AND NOBODY ELSE...
HOW TO FIND PEOPLE'S WEAKNESS AND STAB FROM THERE...
HOW TO READ OTHER'S PEOPLE MESSAGE FROM THEIR PHONE...
HOW TO MAKE UP STORIES THAT ARE UNTRUE...
&&& ...
HOW TO PRETEND THAT IM NOT ALL OF THE ABOVE...

Yeah, so many. Thanks so much yea? Returning uniform soon..
By staying there wont help myself much. Cos i have to think bout myself ONLY.
This is what they thought me.. There's more, i cant remember now...
Yes, i really loved those time when i just came in. But not now..
Though those new comers are nice to me.. But im too afraid...
I dont know who is really nice to me and who is not.. You know? it's so tiring..
To have to prevent every single one around you. Just one minute, you'd die with no reasons..
And the worst part is, you dont even know why... ... ....

And im so tired of my life.. I need time for myself and not others for time being.
After prom night, i wanto be alone... I need to be alone.. I need to have time for myself...
And today, i went to that place.. And im really afraid.. It's been 2 years. It's fear not happiness.
But i know i have that someone with me. Thats enough that he understand me. :)
But maybe the person who is the closest to you might harm you one day.
Tell me why? Why is it so? Who can i trust? Maybe not even myself ... ... ... Sigh.
Dont make promises. Im really really REALLY SICK OF IT.
What are PROMISES FOR?! - Make you happy for that moment ONLY. -
I dont need that at all. So dont say PROMISE. It's all bullshit.
Dont say that word -WAIT- it's another BULLSHIT.
All are bullshit! FUCK. Sigh, im damn emotional now. Shall take a warm bathe to cool down.
Nightss. Happy one month old to my baby cousin.! :) Maybe babies are the best.
They are really innocent, right from their heart... I know who are true to me who are not.
Becos of those ups and downs i've been through with them or them with me..
Dont make me right, will you? Cos i really believe you.. Just that few of you.
Dont make me have to be wary of you all as well. I know you all wont :) hopefully. Sigh.

Today got underage partyyyyyy~~~ I wannna goooooooooooooooooo. LOL.
Kimmie called me yesterday night and tell me bout it. Dont think i going. :) Imma good girl.!
Raining non-stop these few days.. Cant really go out much at all as well. But nevermind:)
Bought a shirt at mango. Spent dont know how much already. And and and...
I went out with HUBBY yesterday! We enjoyed right dear hubby? :)))
Later going to Jurong and meet Yaqub for stuffs. Just woke up not long ago... Ahahah.
Rainy days are the BEST to sleep like piggggggggggggg! Wento hair studio to wash hair.
And i dont know why. I just suddenly felt that im wasting money. =/ hahahah.
But nevermind. shall blog tomorrow.

I pity you becos you're crying. though i dont know who you're.
But im not that heartless. God bless you.
The call you called, i guessed i've tell you CLEARLY. :) Move on yea?

Please Guest, if you really hated me so so so much and like shawn so so so much.
Please go to him. Me and him are over. So over. So what's the point of coming to me?
And when on earth did he come and bother bout me? Dont assume like it's true. Fucku.
Im sick and tired of replying your tags anymore. My friends are only helping me.
Maybe you dont have friends so you are jealous:) But nevermind.
Im telling you for fucking one last time, Shirley and Shawn is the PAST.
So dont come here to bother me anymore and say im pestering Shawn.
Are you trying to spoil his reputation as well? Come on, wake up please.
And i dont wish to see you or anyone tagging bout Shawn's stuffs, get it?
Get all those fucking facts right before coming here to accuse me and so on.
Fuck youself off from my blog then. Im already being damn fucking nice to you already.
Dont make me check the your ip and find you out. I'll do so. But im not as childish as you.
So all those things that you typed dint bother me as well. Just fuck yourself off.
Anyway, for all those doubts, who are you to wanto clear them or to know.
Its bout me and his stuffs. Not a single thing is related to YOU. And my boyf is BOONWEE.
So get it all clear? You're not me, you dont know anything.
No matter i think of Shawn or not, this doesnt concern you shawn or whoever. But myself.
So im not pestering Shawn or cling-ing on to him. Cos i dont see him as well.
And the most LOL thing is, did i ever mention about shawn wanting me back? No right.
Dont talk much, afterall, your status is just an outsider. Nobody else.

Out to Tamp today to cousin's house. They are super duper cute okay!
Another one is on 15th. Errrr, 3 more days... I wanna goooooo. Sentosa tripppp!
Yayaya, im damn high now. Cos i i i i i , i got mac wings to eat !! OMG, FAT.
My diet plan failed. Cos i have not eaten any supper for a week already.
Becos i wanto go on diet. But i cant stand it. Im those who needs to eat before sleep.
So supper is so important to me. Have gastric becos of this. So long ago i have gastric.
And just skipped a week's supper, here it comes. I can join Nowell already. =/
Tomorrow going out with my hubbyyyyy~ And i know i forgotten to call Winnie. =/
So sorry! Cos i reached home at 11+ near 12. PS! And as well with Sq for prom dress:(
And mummy's buying Wii for me!! Yea yea yea! =DDDDD Jealous not? Kidding yea? :)
Yes, i got a BIG MICKEY MOUSE~ Won from arcade today! =DDDD
Alright pray hard that i'd have suitable dress tomorrow. Or else, i also dont know already! :(
Shall go and have my mac wings nowwwwwwwwwwwwww~ =D

I'll hold you close.

Oh guest, you're warning me? LOL, im so afraid okay? :) And im not glue, so i cant stick as well:)

Wento shop for stuffs and so on.. Outing tomorrow.. Yeap, my cousin's first month!

More and more babies are on the way here to my family! =D Yea, i used to be the youngest.

But now, im the oldest already.. :) But i dont like it at all, cos this makes me feel so old:(

Yea, i always wished to be older when i was young. But now... :(

anyway, my dog is so damn over-weight okay.. ahahah. It's with my aunty.

When i last last visit him was like a year ago with my friend's sister i think?

Yes. And never visit him again. Im damn bad i know. But i just dont have the time? =/ ahahah.

Till last week. Wento visit him. He's so fat and he does go out for a walk now. :))

Yea. I still have the pics when he was so small and now, the fat boy pic:)

Felt so guilty that i dint visit him. Played with him and i snatched his sticks. :)

But he's really fat now... Ohmyyyyy:) it means my aunty never ill-treat him yea? Good good.

Tomorrow going out to find prom night dress at the morning. Then have to rush home at 3pm.

Tomorrow will be a so busy day for me yea? Shall go and bathe nowww~

Nights peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

I know, and just pretend.

Ohmytian, i wanna change blogskins againnnn! Out the whole day today...

Tell you guys something! I NEARLY WON LOTTERY! NAHBEY!
2nd prize okay. I told my mum 3751 when she asked. I wento colour, 3761! WTFF?!!?
I was god damn happy when i saw the result, called my mum she said NO!??!?!
Ninahbey! Wento arccade and vent my anger there. Spent 100+ today?! :( Fuck!
6000 flew off lidat?!? NAHBEYY! Still cannot really cool down.
No wonder my mum always got so angry and i dont feel anything. Now i know why. =/
But nevermind, what's mine will be mine, if it's not, i cant force yea? :)
Better luck next time then:) Ahaha. Im damn fucking bored now.
Not yet recieve my pay at all. :( Had been not at home for 4 solid days.
And already spent near to 1000 already, Yes, im damn Nahbey. =x
I said i wanted to save money but ended up? Im spending more then the amount i wanto save.
Sigh, yea, baby is sleep like pig on my comfy bed nowwww! He's so pig can?
Shall wake him up and shoo him home already! =/ Ahahahahha! Nights people! =D

Struggling so hard just for that reason.

ohohohhhhhhhh....please...you think by keepin all shawn's stuffs with u don tell?like the previous post those pics...the rabbit...why keep?throw laaa....-.- and why must put lee sheng jie song? cause is the first song that shawn send u wan rite?thats why u keep listen to this...u see..is so farking obivious that u wan shawn bac again...pls go away frm shawn can?just what friend? pls manzzzzzzzzz....u still wan to be his gf rite?but u 2 are the past...why still go and bother shawn?he needs a break la...he won like u again and now also don like can? u think u can still make shawn miserable like last time ah...now he not so stupid alr horrrrr... pls wake up that u and shawn are the past...stop dreaming bout him or think bout him alr...leave him alone! nowell..shutup....just a copy cat only...don talk much....shirley,pls la...u know u still LOVE SHAWN rite.. at ur i wan....why only sit cable car on Vday?huh?because u and wan shawn rite? forget shawn and leave him alone...fcuk off from him far far....

LOL, why cant i keep it? LOL, every single present from either shawn or friends, i never throw.

Because i treasure. Break means must throw? You want is it? Ask him buy for you okay? If a song is nice, dont tell me you dont listen? Maybe you dont know how to appreciate them? Hahaha. LOL, want shawn to be with you issit? LOL, :) So you mean break already must be stranger? Cannot be friends? Childish. Then everybody should stay single forever, if not all no friend already. And did i say that i wanto be his girlf again? Please manxxxxxxxxxxxx. Dont assume. Maybe from the start. But hello! Its been like a year plus already ok. My maths suck, but i think you're worst then me. But nevermind, study harder okayyyyy! =D Did i say he like me again or now still like me? LOL manzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. How you know that i've made him miserable? Ahahahah. Are you shawn? No right? Whether is he miserable or i made him to be so. Is totally between us. Not you yea? LOL, if you like shawn, why say him stupid? And did i said that he's stupid? Or saying that he's stupid to fall for me last time? Please... But the most clever thing he does i think is NEVER fall for you? Dont saddd.. go add him up in msn, i help u take want? Or you have already? Did i cling on him 24/7? I have left him alone for a year plussssssssssssssssssssssssss:) Go woo him lahhh! :) And i dont dream, can think. Cos dream is not being controlled by me:) Please buck up your English kay? :) Eh mind you, dont drag nowell in kay. First you dragged Shawn in and now Nowell. Lol. They not so free for your nonsense:) Whether i LOVE SHAWN or NOT, it have got nothing to do with you. LOL, Then why am I ATTACHED TO LOW BOONWEE? Use you ass to think, cos i know and everybody knows that your brain aint working well kay:) Poor you, consult a doctor please. ASAP. Hello, cable car.. Who doesnt wanto spent with your love one on a special day on the cable car? Maybe only u? So poor thing.. i dont need fark, cos im not near him at all. Maybe you? :)

Out the whole day and play arccade the whole day! =D Spent too much:(

why must u think that you are so pathetic?and u know you still have shawn in you that bloody heart but still want to be with boonwee?get your heart clear...so what you have been with him 10 months? i think no many 10 months or years,still cannot replace shawn rite?although i know is less then 10...6 or 7 months...u won allow anythin to replace shawn and that rs rite? you make urself so cham for what...go beg shawn to be with u...last time you woo shawn u also act pathetic what...pls leave shawn alone can?he doesnt want u at all...and yet here..u don wan ANYONE to replace shawn...so why be with boonwee?u urself don want him to be replace hor...then don make others so pity can?in ur heart now sure still got shawn..is u never say..oh i mean don dare to say... u think u really can keep this seacreat very well in ur heart?but i guess u are wrong...people can seeeeeeeeeeee with all your actions and those worry u have for shawn....even till now la...

Firstly, have i ever said that im pathetic? So LOL okay:)
Secondly, how do you know that Shawn is still in my heart? Are you living inside my body?
Whethere my heart is clear or unclear, i know myself best, not you. Be it 10 months or years,
i dont think this have got anything to do with you right. And you dont even know what i have
been through for so long.. Ohmygod! Hahaha! Shawn is Shawn, BW is BW, i know it clearly who im with all along. Shawn is past, dont tell me that once you've broke up, you can forget someone right away. LOL. Then i dont think that you have a heart okay? Even dogs are much more better then you.=/ Whether i allow anything or anyone to replace Shawn, have it got to do with you? And why is Shawn in here again? LOL. And get the fact right of who goes after who in the start:) Are you Shawn? No right? Then shutup. I dint act pity in front of shawn okay? Ask him lah. Cos you aint even beliving me. But i doubt he'll entertain your nonsense:) Did i keep on cling-ing on Shawn? Hello, im with boonwee. Thanku. Whether i wanto let ANYONE to replace Shawn, is up to me. Everyone is irreplaceable. Cos there's only ONE of each of them. Get it? My heart now sure got shawn anot is my problem, not yours. How to forget shawn you tell me? He's my friend, i remember every SINGLE ONE OF MY FRIEND. :) Im not that heartless to forget friend, even she's bad. :) Afterall, its the friendship i treasure:) Not like you. Please go to dictonary.com to check you LOL spelling. Its "secret". Hahaha.! O.0 So are you here to demand ransom from me to ask u help me keep this " seacreat " for me?! LOL!! Lol, why should i worry for shawn? Are you telling me or Shawn that he's so young that he needs someone to be with him every min? He's 17 this year mind you. Not a baby. Maybe u need a nanny:) so poor thing!

Wahahah. Entertianment again=/ Anyway, i got 6 soft toys today! SO HAPPY CAN!?
Talking on phone with my boy now. He's yawning now! Shall continue tomorrow.! Nightssss!

thanks to qub, i got a agent job now. Hopefully i can earn money by 22nd this month. Cos of my mum's bday:( I need money so urgently now. And have to pay back my grandma $300 that i've lent from her that time. Have been dragging and though she did not ask back from me, i still feel guilty. :( yes, i stayed at home whole day today. nono, get my bag that i bought from the bs. Bought mp3 just now as well. $28. Okay lah. i dont know.. im not in the mood to blog. Kimmie last min cannot turn up cos she said her mums wants her to go for prayer. And she came just now and surprised me with deb, farah, eileen and lydia! So long never see lydia already okay! =D Thankssssss soooooo muchhhhhhhhh buddies! They went off after 2 hours plus and i stayed at home..(: Thanks for being there for me when i need help. But sorry, cos i wish to be alone. Thanks afterall:) This is friend, get it. Not by keep dragging you to play games and get angry when you cant. hahaha, but they are more important, i know. Cos my friends are more important as well. Or should be most important.

Thanks to those that kept calling me today to chat with me.
Thanks to Winnie that called me when she's at school as well.
I dont know what to say, it's already 5pm now. And what you told me are bullshit.

Ahahah, so please come to me if you wanto BUY, RENT, SELL houses okay! :)))

Yes, the date today is 06 Nov. But it means nothing already.

I dont know how to smile happily facing this significant date anymore.
I dont know whether what you said is true anymore... I need your actions, not sweet talk.

I need time to adapt. And maybe your games are much more important.
Yes, your friends are more important. My friends to me aint important in your eyes.

You can be afraid that they'd be angry with you from breaking promises to them.

And how about mine? How many times had i not reject them the last min becos of you?

Tell me, how many times more then yours. Im such a fool to reject them for tomorrow's outing.

They understand me, that's why they never angry with me. Becos they are my friends.

Not get angry with me when they know what's the reason. Im damn lucky to have them.

Otherwise, i guessed i dont have much friends already now. Those who stoodby me all along.

I know who they are in my heart. Very clearly. And thanks to them, i can stand up when i fall.

They would always ask me not to be guilty. They understand me. This is f-r-i-e-n-d. Not by getting angry becos of a game is lack of 1 player. Get that clear. Did i ever stop you from going to play dota with friends? Did i? Ask yourself please. I dont care if your friends want to accuse me for tie-ing you by my side, not allowing you to go out or play with them. Cos i know myself that i dint stop you. Just like tomorrow. It's the 6th. My friends dint asked me out? I told them i cant, and they again told me nevermind. But how about you? Jolly well tell me you'd meet me at 7pm after your game. Yes, dont tell me you wanto celebrate occasions. Cos i dont think i'd be free after today.. I need time for my friends. I need friends as well. They are also important. Just like what you told me just now, right? Yes, im fucking flirt. But at the least, i told you bout what i did and not hide till you leak out without knowing yourself as well. At least i dint hide behind doing all these stuffs. Get it clear. I see that you dont feel anything when i threw away the phone just now. And you told me you really love the phone i lent you. That was also important to me, once. Not now, get that clear. And you could say you love the phone becos there are your games and music inside. So L-O-L. I think i get what you meant. You want your games, your music, i must as well give you my psp, cos i never used at all. You can get all those games and song from your friends.. No worries. Sigh, i really dont know you.. Tell me, which part of you are still the same? The love? ....... .......... .....................

Thanks to all my friends that called me just to check if im alright.
Thanks to all that always stoodby me and understand me.
Thanks to all that never get angry with me becos of my last min.

Yes, i need you guys with me... Very much...
And i know i still have lots of friends that understand me and will be there for me:)
I'll stay strong, like how i always did:)

Hopefully things will be fine from now on.. Im afriad i cant hang on long..

Cos i really dont know if you'll be there to hold on to me, i really dont know... Really...

Till now, i still dont know. Every of a little things that are happening now..
Worked till 10 today. Had a talk or rather argument with manager today. hahah!
Im tired, so tired. Not physically but mentally.
I guessed im just too immauture for everything. Sigh.
Life was never good, so torturing..

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢我错了
泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢

Im so dont know what mood now. Cos i cant sign in my msn now. WTF. And im damn pek-chek now. Tried using e-buddy and web messenger. But it suck, damnit.

I can feel that our distance is drifting apart. So much, after that incident. Guess we both need sometime to adjust our emotions and think what we really want to choose. You've changed, to a person that i dont know, or rather. You never gave me this kind of attitude for a very long period of time. This attitude you gave is just like when we just got together. Yes, i can feel so. Dont take me like a fool. Guessed that you're tired as well... Just tell me you want to leave, i'll let you go. Cos i've already prepared for the worst. And im not those who will want a boyf to treat me this way. Or rather all girls... Cos all these while, im tired of all those lies that you are going to make promise to me. Im so afraid of promises... really... ... ... Sick and tired of listening to, " i promise that i'll be with you." " I promise that i'll not leave you alone " Cos all these have already turned into lies in my eyes. And will reject them when i heard the word, promise. I always thought that i've changed. But i guessed, both of us changed. All these two days, you've already made me know what am i to you. Nothing special but a stranger.

Thousands of a time.

Omg, i slacked at home whole day. Kimmie called and asked if we wanto go Deb house for steamboat gathering! )))))))))))): Dint go. ): Yes, they are enjoying nowwwwwww.. awwww. Nvm. Nway, tomorrow mama is going to paint my roommm(:

New study table and new bedy! With the stand. Cos last time is put on floor. ((((:
Still a double bed! She wanted to change to single. But after throwing some stupid attitude and " sa jiao " to her, YES! =D ahahhahah!

Im not in the mood at all. Thanks Nowell. She was there for me yesterday. Listening to me crying to her and everything. I lost my way at dont know why. She wanted to come and fetch me:) But i took cab after that. Cos after i get down the bus becos of those nosiy indians, i got annoyed. Not trying to be rasist. ps. Cos im not in a good mood. I just took a bus when it came and sat all they way till they came and went down. Walked for almost 1hour. And realised that im tired. And called Nowell after that. Cos i tried calling him for so many times, 40 missed call. But he dint picked up for bloody once. Till i was in cab near my house. But he said he was quarreling with dad. Sigh. As well as today. She messaged me to see if im alright. Ding on handphone. sorry! I know you are stress bout your family, i'd be there to help you, no matter what. Never leave, so is you, okay?:) I guess i can only cry to you, nobody esle. Yes, i cried.
Its not that i dont cry easily, but i feel that by crying is just trying to gain sympathyfrom others. And it will only make people laugh at you. I remember one of my love-d, had never seen me crying infront of him before. Even though he's so important. Just only Nowell. But now, i guessed i can never control my emotions as well as how i did last time. You made me changed, alot.

I found my ring already. My grandma kept it for me. LOL. Saw at the table just now. Dear was surprise. :) Sigh, im still not in the mood. I need sometime to adjust, i think.
Tell me, when will you not break your promise? Today, again...

Where are you when i need you?