The course of true love never did run smooth.

The big problem between me and bw arrived today already.
I tired explaining things and sort things out w you nicely.
But look at the way you answer me back. Shoutings and nothing.
You told me you were angry bout me saying i got no one to turn you.
Cos i've got you. But look! How am i supposed to share w you like this.
Everything turns out to be my fault. Now guys and girls are the SAME.
Not like the past that girls must listen to guys for EVERYTHING.
You know me well. And i've been doing what you've told me so.
But how about you?! Are you being fair to me.?!
Telling me not to do this and that and yet you're doing.
Making this desicion wasn't easy for me. I know what im doing.
And yet, what i got is you hanging up my phone w that tone, AGAIN.
At this point of time, you're still unchanged. How heartaching im.
Ya, i talked to guys. But is only pure friends chat. What's wrong?
And you yourself can do so. Ya, i should wait for you to say, goodbye.
Im not fit to say that to you right? Im sorry then. Im always like this, never changed.

wo hai xiang ta -

Sang by Benjamin Hum :D
But i dont know why is it by Terenze lahhh!
It's Benjamin! LISTEN LISTEN alright! :D

Dont know how many days have i not blogged. MISS ME?
Haha, no. Im just kidding! :D
Met Rena and Hubby today. We went Tiong for LONG JOHN.
Because Rena is made up of G-O-L-D. hahahaha. ( all inside joke ) :D
Had so much fun and jokes. And coffee bean snow-ed just now. Right, Rena & hubby?!
So i woke up late, was supposed to meet them at 3pm at town.
But i woke up at 5mins to 4pm. =/ hahah.
And when i called hubby, they are at home.
And they waited for me. =/ Ahahah. sorrryyy! :D
We walked around Tiong and Rena cabbed to AMK.
Hubby and me walked home and she walked to CH's house.
Talked so much w her and she kept laughing at the balloon thang!
Ahahha. Dint meet bb for 5 days already.
He's sick. Get well soon alright. :)

Met Ong today. And hubby dint go school today as well. LOL

Waited for her like half hour plus. And lucky im on phone w hubby. hah

Saw Dawn and her mum today. Quite shocked just now.

And had KFC, OL's treat. And bought Audi card.

Playing audi nowadays. hahah. so addicted to it and i dont know why.
Gosh. i gotto gooo. Byebye. :D

I guess, this is not a suitable place for me to blog out my feelings.
Whatever feeling that im having deep in my heart.
Only i know the best. Not anyone else.

Bestie, i saw the conver. I dont know why we've become like this.
All happened too suddenly. I know you're confused too. So am I.
Hopefully, this will be over soon.

Im just so pissed off with EVERYTHING around me.
Im super super not in good mood. Everything gets into my way.
And i just feel like shutting myself away lah!
Be it friends or whatever. Im so so disappointed.
And what has it got to do w others about my personal stuffs.
IS MY PERSONAL STUFFS alright.
Kimmie, Eunice, ignore them :) Im alright. :D
You both are best alright!
I dont know what's wrong, i really dont.
It's been so long after this matter had not been raised up.
Just what have it got to do with you guys? JUST OUTSIDER.
NOT shawn or me. FUCK OFF.
And i believe shawn have his life happily now! SO AM I.

PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE, SUCKERS.

Guessed that human trust are too fragile.
Be it stranger or not, trust is something that makes everything up-side down.
Till then, i know our conflicts aint small at all.
Just a small time of parting, so many things happened. Why?
Maybe you wont believe me, or us. But we've clarified everything out.
I dont know whether you believe or not, i doubt so, perhaps.

Yes, tell him dont stare or gin at me.
Like im the one who started EVERYTHING. HELLO!?
Is you who started and im 100% SURE.
So what if i wanto shout and scold. What can you do to me? N-O-T-H-I-N-G.
I cant stop you from saying things bout me or boonwee's.
And i dint stop you at all, fucker :)
So neither you can stop me from scolding you, sucker.
Dont pretend like one good man when you're fucking hell not one of it.
Since i dare to scold out loud just now for you to hear,
IM NOT AFRAID OF YOU. If im, i would not have scolded so many Fs.
So what if you're so powerful in force. SO WHAT?! HELLO.
I always thought that you're that fucking nice.
Always say till you're the victim in the RS to bb.
But now, i guess not, TOTALLY.
Whatever it is, im not afraid of you. And neither can you stop me from
scolding you NO BALLS at all. :D
Dont forget how you came to me and asked for H-E-L-P.
And this is what i called, G-R-A-T-E-F-U-L.
Thank YOU! :D BASTARD.

Im fucking pissed and idk why.
Fuck off to P. FUCK YOURSELF OFF.
BENJAMIN OR SHAWN, is my problem like HELLO.
Im totally not in a good mood at all for your nonsense. FO.
Whether i've FORGET, ohhnooo. IS GORGT shawn or not,
fucking mind your own business. OR u go set up a shop named :
ILPITYB. - i love poking in to your business.
People who needs help whether they have forget about their EX or not,
can come to you straight luhs!

Guess that im privating my blog for sometime.
I'll invite those who i wished to. To prevent all these.
Sorry to all that need to read this post. I need to vent my anger!

Im thinking too much i guessed.
Im thinking of how i first met baby. And how we got together later on...
Im thinking of the past. How many wrongs things i've done.
Im thinking of how to be better then the past.
Im thinking of so many things..
Im thinking of all those quarrels of me and baby.
Have i not changed from the 2 years ago till now.?
Why is it im always in the wrong when quarrels occur?
I dont know why suddenly ...
I dont know, and dont want to know.
I just wished to forget every single thing that had happened.
Baby's starting school and im gonna be working soon.
Will our feeling drift away like this. Be it 1 year or so..
I really dont know. Sighh.
Im reading teenage and teens magazine and came across this..

Play and Forget;

Learn from the guys. Gaming can be an effective form of post-breakup distraction.
Gaming helped take their minds off their injuries.
If the theraphy works for the soldier boys, it will most certainly help
broken-hearted girls to take their mind off their ex-boyfs.
Either you concentrate or it wil be game over soon.

Spring clean your ipod;

Some songs you both have been listening together make your eyes teary.
You're valuerable and have become more sensitive.
Lyrics that were once neutral to you become striring.
Scan your ipod and single out those melancholic ballads.
Delete songs that repeatedly tell you that you cant live without him,
but keep those that remind you that " you are beautiful no matter what they say "
A diva can either drag your spirits down or lift you up with her vocal prowess.
The secret to this is - what you don't understand cannot hurt you.

I really dont understand why, why guys tend to forget easier.
So much more faster and easier then girls.
Maybe not all, mostly, i meant.
Can those long-term rs mean nothing at all to you guys?
Or from the start, you've never treat this rs seriously?
How i wished im a guy. So i can forget my love easily.
Dont you guys know how hurtful it is to girls?
Perhaps not at all. Cos once break-up, they are nothing to you, anymore.

Long post not?! Sigh.
But, baby, no matter what. Im true that i love you :)
Please dont get affected by this post.
Is me who is just thinking too much. Nothing else.
No matter next time when you start your poly life and my working life.
I believe our love stays strong like now and before.
I love you! :D

yoyo! Im using baby's new lappy.
So he gotto use mine! hahahah.
We wanted to play audition together but
dont know why is my internet connection dying on me and bb.
So i wanted to use his keypad. And now his lappy is MINE.
Omg, my lappy mouse cannot use already lah! IDIOT.
But nevermind, i can go and get a mickey mouse mouse. hahah!
Alright, byebyee! :D

Yoyo! Hello peopleeee! Im super happy now and i dont know why.
Gonna update my blogshop by tomo or day after tomo.
New halter top and shorts!! :D Support alright :D
Met hubby today and we wento transfer money to seller. :)
Bought tank top with her on blogshop. I thought she would take B-L-U-E.
But NO! hahha, she super love BLUE! :D
So after walking around bukit merah centre, and bought my dog food.
My father's brother called me, my uncle. He asked me to go and take money.
My grandpa's bank account money, he split to the three of us, my cousins.
And so, $300 pop out today and i spent $200 already. Goshh!
Then then we wento tiong and get the money cos they wento the POSB there.
Hubby accompanied me! Had subway and she dint eat, AGAIN.
Always and forever. So i gave her my cookies cos she loves them! :D
SEEEEE! I know hor hor horrrrrr! =D
So she wento her 3855 house when baby arrived. She waited w me.
Thanks! :D Despite her 3855 is sick. hahahhaha! :D
So while shopping around tiong, we took a flyer about raja inn.
Buffet @ bloody $10.80 only! How happy am I . Ahahahha.
I bugged hubby to eat w me but her 3855 there cooked her food already. :(
So i wento called baby and asked him to rush down for buffet! hahha.
Poor baby, but i love you. :) Had raja inn and cabbed home.
And wento get stocks of halter top and shorts. Buy BUY okay!?
Cos you can rarely see them outside, plus i got from limited stocks place!
And only afew designs once finished, NO MORE ALREADY.
The company only have limited stocks! PURE COTTON and wont get stained. :)
Trust me alright!! Not like taiwan or whereever. Not china stock as well! :D
Ahahah, im being random. Sorry. So had dinner @ Han's w baby.
And im play audition like siao ja bor. hahah, got to go and bathe now!
Byebye, very long post already. And hubby, i want Rena's blog!
Where are you??!??!?!?!??!?!?

Ohhhh. i very long never blog le..
I dont know why. I just dont feel like blogging.
I miss my grandpa. :( Had my flea market yesterday:)
Due to the rain, i dint managed to hit my target :(
But nevermindd! got to gooo.. byeee!

I really wonder why..

Today is the last day of funeral already.
Grandpa will be burn tomo. Sigh.
Am how " heng " am i to get food poisoning at this point of time.
Feeling so terrible like F. And kept vomiting and lao sai at the same time.
OMG, i can really die manz. Argh.
Still have yet recover but luckily im feeling better after takin medicine.
Yes, i dont take medicine usually but i really cannot tahan.
So you can imagine how am i feeling at that time?! Ahaha.
Alright, shall go and sleep noww. Gonna reach there at 7AM tomo.
Bye. And thanks to those who are concern bout me.

Thanks to those who showed me concern these few days.
Appreciated :)

Omg, im very tired. Meeting seller tomo to collect camera.

Nice not? Ahah, but it goes by flim :( But the effect is power! :D
And i doubt i can upload the photos to comp. Argh. hahah
And meeting hubby! She's skipping school tomo! I needa wake up at 9am!?
Ahahha, hopefully not awake when hubby have reached my doorstep.

Ahahaha.! Nights:)

Im just back from funeral. Yes, my grandpa passed away today morning.
I was still sleeping soundly till cousins called me.
When i rushed down, before i could reach, he's gone already.
It hurts me so much when i saw them covering the white cloth over his head.
That feeling was so .. i dont know either. I felt so helpless.
But at least, im a blissful girl. I have both grandpa and grandma
with me till im 17 years old. Im counted as very lucky already.
Grandpa, rest in peace.. My grandma came over.
She's mentally ill. But guess what?! She cried just now.
And she refused to go home at all. She's sot, but not totally.
I felt so useless. So totally useless. Haiz.

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Am very tired now cos it's 4.17am now.
Dint celebrate anniversary with bb this month. Cos of grandpa.
Im feeling very scared now. I cried today when im visiting him.
I tried to control but i can't help it. I know he wouldnt want to see me like this.
Looking at him, feeling so helplessly. Can't even talk like past two days.
And he wasnt really awake at all. His eyes cant even open :(
Sighh.. Im really afraid that he might leave anytime.
I have not been a good grand-daughter to him.
Worst still, my dad dint even treat him well or even treat him as dad.
Wth. I really hate my father hell lot. Is this the way he treat his own father?!
Yes, im cant say him cos i dint treat him well at all.
But hello, he dint raise me up. Is my mom only. Not him.
I dont care how you people would comment, cos you aint me.
You totally dont know what i've been through.
And his dad raised him up alright. Still have the cheek and say this to me
when i asked why dint he visit grandpa at hospital.
" visit for what, only know how to take money from me.
He's in hospital want to die also cannot die. Visit no point "
Yeah, you're very right. So when you're old with illness, dont expect anything from me.
I wont visit you totally. And i'll repeat what you've told me.
Afterall, you dint raise me up for these 17 years.
The money you gave is only fucking $150 monthly. Im 17years old NOW.
Just for me to eat. School fees and handphone bill etc, you aint paying any.
So dont talk big for fuck sake and act as if you're so noble and give me money.
HELLO! all my internet bills and laptop. you dint pay at all.
I cant believe there're such son in this world.
So im learning from you. Learning how to treat my papa like this.
Dont blame me. It's you who cause all this and i'll never forgive you.
The way you treat my mom. You'll regret. Cos u never treat me as your daughter.
I dont care how people say about how i treat my dad.
It'll never affect me :D I HATE YOU.

Hohoho. Im super high now and i dont know why.
Maybe becos is my Anniversary?? :D
Kitchen under renovation now. Just the basin part.
And my who house are full of dust and still dust.
So we cant cook and have been buying take-aways home :D
And im super broke now :( Support the blogshop below alright!
5% off if you know this bs from my blog!! :D Selling very pretty clothings.
And i got a push cart but i dont know at where.
Support me alright :D Goodnight people!

Happy 14 months Anniversary to baby and me :D
I love you.

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wo hai xiang ta -

Sang by Benjamin Hum :D
But i dont know why is it by Terenze lahhh!
It's Benjamin! LISTEN LISTEN alright! :D

yo! Woke up at 4pm today. im pig, i know.
Then cooked porridge for bb cos he's sick. Ahhha.
Slacked at his place till midnight and now im home :D
Played dai di with him, his dad and his sister just now.
I won moneyyy! :DD bought cup noodle and just finished.
Am very full like 1234567. hahh. Seoul Garden tomo !! OMG.
Ahahhaha. im gonna buy majong table soon! :D
im craving for chocolates now and i dont know why too.
Using the new lappy and im totally not used to it cos its very small.
And i kept on typing wrong words like stupid.
I cant play Audition using this lappy and idk why either.
Gonna re-dl again later. And i needa waste another hour to wait.
Idiot lappy. :(