The course of true love never did run smooth.

Actually, i've tons of pictures t upload. But idk why it wasn't scanned into my lappy.
So nevermind. Had web-cam session w E the day before ytd or ytd.
Then i was feeling so down and he's so kind t draw his face and make me laugh.
Ahahaha. So yea. A Zao Chai Mao. haha. Can't upload the pics lorz. nvm.
So went tua ytd and waited for my dear kuebei. he came at sucha late time la.
Me and hubby waited and we get v high cos i danced indian dance w shuzhen.
i think i forgot her name. lol. then i bought a mike for her.
Then we three like siao. And then realised that FBT have got a new way of wearing.
Because of hubby! hahaha. So when she walked outta the room.
I saw and told shuzhen. Then i was supposed t go out and tell her.
But when the moment i stepped out of the room, i totally forgot bout it. LOL.
So when we came into the room, SZ asked if i've told her. And then i remembered! ha.
yea. Had some candid shots and so fun laa. right hubby?
Then kuebei came. We still in room cos others are still asking.
And ahma came in telling me in my ear, " Ah bei yao fa ren liao ".
means ah pek is going t punish someone. Ah wapiang. My heart nearly jump out la!
Then i asked who, and she whisper t me again saying that it's a guy from outside.
WAPIANG! my heart was beating so fast la. then hubby and sz laugh like idiot!
And i asked ahma t go straight t the point next time. And she laughed. ha! so fun.
Then she came in again, " WANT EAT PORK LEG? " ha, then we laugh again.
And i told her, ah ma ah, pork got H yi N one ley. chinese and english (1) lol .
She told us its very nice and then i told her nvm, cos we have got pork leg already.
Then we go in and asked everything. So yea. Got an answer. We cannot take back.
But he'll get punished. At first kue pek say he'll punish him, hand broken. Wth.
Omg, then me and hubby told him, forget it. it's okay. Dont punish him till lidat.
But kuepek say ................ Ah ya. :) Though this Fker stole ou things.
But we still helped u in the end la, idiot. stop stealing already. _!_
So i asked him why he's finding me. I got sort of scolding. :(
Cos he's finding for me last week which i dint attend the tua. =/
Yea, 1 more time imma gonna kneel on abacus already. :((
So again, everyone laughed like siao. Alot of inside joke la! :D I enjoyed alot overall. :D
Then was supposed t be at hubby house till today but then. I came home.
Then bathe and talked t E awhile then fell alseep. Called B and then went to sleep already.
So when E called me, i totally CMI. ahha! SORRY! im seriously tired. :(

i dint get angry or what or even ch dint answer me, i know he's sick. or being left out.
So yea. Just feel like coming home, so dont worry okay, hubby? :)
I saw the msn conver already. :) Im fine. :D

Ta hen ke ai right OMG, im getting high again whenever it concens BENJAMIN!
Benjamin Hum leyy! FAN PING GEN. idk if the spelling is wrong!
But i only know he's cute >.<

Yea. today woke up and curse the person who took my stuffs. Feeling like S-H-I-T-Z!
Totally mood-less today and i've been giving that LL face lahs. :(
I attitude everyone including my mom. And people who snatch my TAXI .
Yea. Kimmie's at Kbox now and she dint bring enough la! So she call me and
i went all the way t Tiong Barhu. And before that, E also! He need t buy card.
So yea. Head all the way t TIONG BARHU and blah blah blahhh lah!
And then i realised i lost E's acc no. and i lost his number. -.-! So called hubby.
Asked her log in my MSN for me t contact that idiot E. And no reply.
Then then, saw Indian guys and was looking at me la. wtf. Felt like idiot at that time.
And then, i ran home all the way without turning back t see if they are there.
So was panting like hell when hubby called. Wa piang eh.
Then he went MIA when im asking for the acc no. WTF. Feeling abit DL already.
idk why. Just feel so moody out of sudden la. NAHBEY .
Oh ya. do visit this idiot's blog t see her CUTE god-daughter! one and only!
And see how she promote her wifey as MONKEY, stupid chicken! RAARW~
http://allsointricatee.blogspot.com/ <---- idiot chicken's blog!

RONRON AH. bie bu kai xin le okay? Counsellor Tan is always a phone away from ni! Suo yi ni yao kai xin. Dont smoke liao okay? :) Im the 24/7 radio. Although i failed t be a good radio making lots of noise at times. But but but, CHEER UP okay! CT is always here~ :D

Bye! :D

i dont know why, i burst out into tears after so long since i last shed a tear.
I can't cntrol my tears but idk why i can't. Had a quarrel w grandma.
I dint mean so. So i can't sleep. So ended up chatting on phone w E.
And i got hung up by him suddenly. Feeling worst after that. wtf.
Im really feeling very sucky now. But yet, nobodys' here. Sigh..

NAHBEY CCB! TO THE PERSON THAT STOLE OUR THINGS.
Wtf. my bags and everything even slippers were lost. BRA AND EVERYTHING.
IPOD HANDPHONE CAMERA WALLET WTF. NI MAMA DE!
I WILL CURSE YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FAIL.
IT'S INSIDE THE LOCKER LOCKED, ME AND HUBBY DOUBLE CHECKED.
HOW ON EARTH OUR BAGS WILL GET LOST!? NI NAH BEY CHICKEN PIE!

Forget it. Shall stop ranting. Otherwise, i really can't cool down. wtf.
So yea. woke up by that idiot kimmie and went back t sleep. and then guess what?!
upstairs were renovating and making drilling and piang piang piang sound.
Make till i have no choice and wake up la. So ended up very dl cos im sleeping like F.
So yea, went up and blah. nb. so met hubby after that. Had mac at white sand.
So head to www HAPPILY. we were crapping like idiot. talking bout benjamin hum!
Ahahah. super high and she laughed all the way in MRT la. and i changed seat imm.
when she sits beside me. Ahahha. Super lots of nicknames for her and ch today!
And the macdonal toy! F. i got lots of pictures want lorz. really nb!
Yea, laughed all the way at swimning pool. played so many things la.
And climb alot, i mean REAL LOTS of stairs la. And im teacher Tan today! hahah
Imagine a sliver swimming person dont know how to use float! hahahah!
Though i admire her real lot for trapping water at 1.8m deep de pool.
But when comes to float, im power hor! hahhah! And i paddle like duck. -.-! ha!
And i gave EUNICE SOH 2 new lessons today for swimming. there's total 15 lessons!
So yea. i forogot already la. Very shag now liao. BYEE :(

STOLE this from BENJAMIN HUM's friendster! OMG! OMG! IS BENJAMIN!
HAWHAW! walaozz. BENJAMIN LEY. i never fail t get high when i heard his name!
Walaooz! SOMEONE KNOW BENJAMIN LORZ! WA PIANG EH!
AS LONG AS IS BENJAMIN, i'll go CRAZY like dong tiak tiak la! haaha!
BENJAMINNNNNNNN! Ying wei ta hen xiang _____ :(
If he's my friend jiu hao le! Wo hui hen kai xin liao siao zha bor lorz! ha!

ahhaha! He kept go MIA-ing want lorz. walao! And he's asleep.
So walked home from Bestie's house @ 1am. :( Feeling so scary la.
Cos got 3 indians sitting there staring at me. And i just ran all the way like idiot.
WTF. idk why i just felt like walking at that time. Am feeling very disappointed.
So before i left my house, called E. He went t sleep liaoz lorz. piang!
Walao, he was supposed t talk w me when im walking home lorz! LIAR AH! >.<
End up JARON talked w me while im walking home. XIE XIE NI!
HEN x3 NI LA! hahahhaha! =/ And thanks hubby for her post for me! AI SI NI LE!

How much i love them! x33. ( JARON AND E, my daughters are here! ) ><

Ah kor sibei RANDOM. We were chatting about some stuffs. And suddenly, he asked.

Louis, eh, you know why my face so smooth not?
Me & well, why?
L: Becos i used clean and clear! ( and the took it out from the bag )
WALAO. We both laughed like siao lah! Its really v. random at that time lorz! haha!
And when we're eating, he suddenly take out a mirror and see his hair.

Like wtf la! lol. Then we all were like, UNCLE TAN, you're guy lorz!
See! And i wento digged his bag and took the evidence down. LOL!

Thats all! Thanks to all!
Thanks for HAKIM's bday wish. Im 17 and matured! NOT CHILDISH!

And xie xie kimmie for saying how old am i and need botox! HAHA.

And again, thanks all for the bday wishes! :)

Wo yao go t my bed liao! BUAIIIx

im offically 17 years old already.
Thanks alot to many of you who wished me on the dot of 12AM :)
So much appreciated la! LOUIS TAN SONG WEI! :D
Followed by xuanwei, KIMMIE, hubby, hao, Jaron, Edwind, yaoxing, ahyi, and the rest. :)
Wahahahaha! i felt so blessed now:) So many people actually remember! :)
Feeling alil down plus disappointed. Because _ _____ _______ ____ _____! ><
Thanks alot t kimmie ah. For congratulate that im older and so many Negatives ah!
you most power kay! Ahahahah. Feeling so bored now. someone entertain me pleaseee? ~
wo yao AUDI liao la. byebye !

Yesterday was on the phone w ______. Gosh. Why are all guys the SAME.
Seriously i've never met a guy like this. So WTF like seriously.
Im afraid i'll start t hate guys and turn in les. nb.
Why do you have to get this result when you really trust someone.
But nevertheless, i wont lose any trust t friends. :)
Bestiee ahhh. Ni zai na li?!
Stupid hubby promoted me in her dumb blog! wtf! hahahhahaha!
I WANT SONGS LA! WHERE ARE YOU HUH!?

i dont know why i can't sleep. Feel like calling B. But he's sleeping now for sure :(

But nevermind. :)

Ohyaaa. Jaron ah, cheer up! counsellor Tan is always here!
Remember my birthday wish horz! Otherwise hor. Haiz liao ah!

Ahaahah! Picked out afew photos that i sup love! :D That's all.

BYEE! ( PS for the jiao face. )

Kbox-ing today and was so HIGH lorz. FUN. just one word. :D
Though did felt a'lil down at k. but was alright after that.
And picture like siao w dearest bestie! HOHO.
Will upload the pictures tomo. The 3 came t my house window shouting like mad.
I was sleeping and i thought that i was dreaming that people calling me. LOL
Shall update more tomo. My eyes are shutting down soon! ahahha.

Babyboy <3

Currently @ bestie's house. Overnight todayy! :D
Cant Audi lah, nb! cos of the internet connection. walaoz.
Yea, trying my very best t dl the internet. Please laaa. i wanna audi ley!
Hahaha, yea. 3 more days t me bday le leh! But but but horz, haiz.
I wishhhh many people to wish me happy birthday, can?? hehehe.
Perhaps, i wished to recieve one happy bday wish from _____. But i doubt so.
And i guess that it would be the best present ever for me, this year.

Ahhh. can't sleep at all now. nahbey. Feeling so fucked up.
Guess is because im lack of sleep. Feel like going home NOW. But she's fast asleep.
Alamak laaa. WTFFF. And i think i'll be very dumb if i go home now.
Because Audi just successfully downloaded at Winnie's comp la. wtf.
Should i go K later or not? idk either laaa. Cos im still lack of $$$. hahah.
Am feeling a lil sad now as well. But well, i should look forward.
I guessed, it's really time for me t move on well and stop dwelling.
As much as i know he's happy now, i will be as well.
Cos it'd be my best memory ever and it's no one can replace it, ever.
i think i've learnt how t " na de qi, fang de xia " after second relationship.
And i know i've learnt alot alot by now. Had so much talk w bestie just now.
Since i can put down this so ... idk how to spell out.. But why not _____?
Yeap, i totally dont mind what others think. But i guess,
im still sensitive to _____. Cos if i've totally let go, that shouldnt be the way i react.
And when it's one same situation but i've got two different reactions. wtf.
And by now, i know clearly that i live for myself, and i guess i wont change, for others.
I should be understanding and so, but never change myself for one.
Because if you do so, other parties will take it for granted.
I guess i've not been myself for the past one year plus. And now, i know i should.
It's so tiring trying t be someone that someone likes. Im tired, dead beat.
And i need to hide this and that just to be " perfect " in someone's eyes.
I know i won't anymore in future. Why am i feeling so down now again?
Because _____ kept flashing through my mind. Is it guilt or because i've not let go.
Im trying hard now t tell myself, i should " na de qi, fang de xia ". But ...
Yes, i promised you that i'll live better without you. And im still trying so.
From yesterday, i should already put down everything of me and you.
But i dont know why, why am i not looking forward to my coming bday ...
Baby, i'll try hard. Because i know i can let go...
Cos im strong enough now to face everything...

Feeling so sucky now. wtf.

IM FINALLY 18 in audi. So shag now becos the percentage is so lil. :(
Nevermind, 3 more level to go. Ahh lao ah, go dl audi and play w me ley
I think i wanna do story mode to lvl up faster!
Yay. married w Alston in Audi today. aahahha! SO FUN LORZ.
I told him i wanna divorce and marry again. haha! yea.
Another 5 more days to my big big day. I dont know why, im not looking forward.
Am supposed to meet kimmie and them, but cancelled. Yea, belated one okay? :D
I wanna cut my hair lah! I print screen the audi but idk where is the photo.
LOL, im stupid, i know! Roar! Ah lao, when are we going swimming?!?!
Ahaha, shall go and watch cartoon now! BYE LIAO!

sorry kimmie, hakim, hubby, bestie. Dint mean to make you guys worried for me.
went supper w bestie just now. :) And hubby there to comfort me.
Kimmie there t make me laugh and smile hakim there to make me angry. ha.
Am feeling alright now, i guess so.
yea. i only ate 12pills. Are you disappointed, brock.?
Yea, you get me 12 box, i'll eat it up and show you. You dare, i dare. :)

Yea, woke up by my that daughter pooter. haha.
She was licking my face till im awake lah! wth. hahahaha!
Hubby, you really very ding dong diang lah! saw your blog. Thanks alot.
Yea, many many! WWW and the SK swimming pool for that slide horz!
This GOOD wifey shall bring you go someday. hahahah!

I don't wanna treat you unfair, though there isnt fair or unfair in love.
There's only who give in to who more. who gives in the love more, unconditionally.
but becos i really want to put down the past of mine to walk towards the future.
it seems so diffcult. Very diffcult. . . How long can you last, for this situation.
Can you really accept someone you love having someone else in their heart?

memories are killing me, slowly. Right now, i've pop down 12pills of panadol. wtf.
i dont know why either. im not happy at all. Not looking forward to my bday.
So suddenly, i dont want this birthday. i dont want to remember everything..
the only forever related number...

749 days.

So natural lorz the photo on top. hahah!
Ahahah, yeap Jaron, im the MOST EVER CHOR LOR girl ever you see in your life.

nahhbeyyy! lol! wapiang, im chiong-ing my Audi now lah!
I wanna create FAM lorz. But heard that there's bug. wtf.

Bought couple diary and played with it lah. hahahah!
Shall upload song liaoz. qing ai de laogong sent me de. And i cried. wtf.
Can't find the song in imeem laaa. walao.

从来没想过不能再和你牵手

委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛

一切都是我太过娇纵以为你会懂

一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我

虽然分开的理由我们都已接受

你知道我会有多难过

所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我

才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头

我们都知道彼此心中

其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头

我多希望你还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我

虽然分开的理由我们都已接受

你知道我会有多难过

所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我

才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头

答应你我会好好过

不让这些眼泪白流

Walaoz, so many things flashed through. And i cried lah. I miss _____ suddenly. -.-

Yayaya, i kept kana scolded chor lor for nothing la. WAPIANG!

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And on the phone also scolding me. WALAO EH! He kept complaining that he's tired

But when i asked him go sleep, he dont want. wtf!
Ahaha shall go off liao. FINALLY lvl 17 in audi ! WALAOOO :(

( Ah lao sent me this to represent my anger now, that i can even bite a pencil! )

WA LAO EH! SO DULAN. BITCH BITCH & STILL BITCH!
im so dulan laaa. ding dong diang, where are you??
Wa laoo ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! nb laaaa!
Im really hen shen qi la.
Im currently @ wo de ah lao de house blogging.
Super love my ring, with ah lao de name! hahaha! XD

ah lao ahhh, when are we going to Genting?!?!?!?!
With Rena! So our cam will need i dont know how many GB de memory card xD

Tags replied:
passerby- thanks :) I won't! :D
Kimmie- what la u. DAMN IDIOT LOR. ><
Star- Ha, will give t you ON MY BDAY! LOL =/ It's don's job! HAHA
So yea, every year must be better, cannot stop at the same lvl la! XD

Met hubby todayyy! And we head t vivo. Went SD about working stuffs and so on,
Please, if don't want us t go back, say. Dont beat around the bush. like so wth.
Yea, idle around vivo giant and cam-whore! hahha. So mrt t buangkok & changed bus
t tamp. then walked around tamp and mrt t pasir ris. Bought couple ring w hubby.
And then while waiting, we took out camera like siao ding dong.
That ding dong diang soh horz, when im one the phone or sooo, she snap like idiotz!
So yea, when i uploaded photos, its 100plus photo. Uploaded alot of photos!
So yea, let the pictures do the talking alright? :D

HEAVY IMAGE!

i think im praying t god that hubby should stop snapping me.

HA! i like looking @ the guy's batok! hahahah!
All my single photo, by ding dong diang, hubby soh!

It's freaking 4.15AM right now & idk why am i still so awake.
Meeting me qing ai de laogong tomorrow leyyy! Walaoz, hubby when are we getting ring?
HAHAHA, i've jia gei ni for 1 year plus liao leyyyy! Walaoz eh, lousy la you!
idk why suddenly i feel like wearing ring again laaa. Makes me feel so un-comfy w/o it.
Actually me and hubby should be buying tomo at pasir ris. But trip cancelled. :(
I wanna get back that diamond ringg! idk why, i just love that w diamond! wtf!
Becos i think i can't get myself the real diamond. LOL. :/
So changed to vivo city instead. I wanna buy that MANGO tank top lah!
Since like 987654321 years ago i wanted t buy but i dont want waste money.
But im still thinking that if i should buy or not, cos i just bought 1 TT today.
Hoho. Should i go back to SD??! Cos got hubby, hopefully i wont de-motivate her.
So does she. Ahahahah! I wanna change job la. Wanna take admin.
But thinking of like i needa wake up early morning and like school hours,
made me already sian like more then half liao y'know! RAWWWW.

I dont know why am i feeling so sucky now. And after Jaron ask why am i like sad2.
Idk why, so many things strike into my brain. walaoz.
Having my cramps like wth now. I need jacket tomorrow. Otherwise,
you can see me faint at vivo tomo. hahaha! Alright, shall go t my bed and listen t music(:
My pooter is so cute laaa. Shall upload her photos soon.

why can't i answer her that simple question when she asked me that?
Is it really what she said is true about how i feel, no?
i don't know either, im lost, again. Why? sigh.

walao. So dulan after hearing something from laogong lahh!
Then went t see and blahhh! What the tian ahhh! so dl lorz. Grrrrr~
I WANNA EAT SO MANY GOOD FOOD NOW
Was supposed t go WWW tomo but thennn, so cool lorz me.
My relative came yesterday and planned t stay w me for 1 week.
" relative " y'know. So on the spot right?! tamade.
Nway, wanted to go airport to see aeroplane today but changed mind last min!
And i mean really very last min! LOL. Met xw @ tiong.
Then then then when we go down to MRT, i changed my mind and went JE. lol
So went pasa malum in the very end. LOL. Shopped and went Queensway shop.
Played arcade and then tiong to transfer money to seller.
dk why i suddenly feel like doing lots of online shopping! OMG.
Im broke already lorz. i just took money from my father just now.
And im left w $0 now. wo de tian ah. hahaha. Nvmm!
Gosh, my cramp is killing me already. byeee!

OMG, please get the fact right that it's totally non of your business of what i posted out.
And you don't need to blog out telling people what you feel or you hate. LIKE WTF.
Is non of your business about my stuffs and him. Why are you so free uh?!
I always heard people telling me how BITCHY you're. How two head snake you are.
And you ain't as innocent as how you looked like, but did i believe them?!
I still share problems w you at times and blahh. But now, i TOTALLY believe them.
Is really like wtf. i believe you and it's you who destroyed the trust.
I know you don't need it at all. But please manz, stop acting innocent like so real.
Yea, i got nothing t do w him already. So you must be very happy now right? hypocrite.

Stayed @ my home for like 3 or 4 solid days already. wtf.
Cos im broke already. somemore www on monday! :D So going take money from dad tomo.
Walaoz, i really need to work already. Cos i wanna be independent lahhhh!
you'know why? Cos i've got a useless laogong laaaa! never give me money one! RAHH!
So yeah. Im rotting like one idiotz at home la, you'know. nb!
On the phone w Jaron yesterday cos im so bored. Rahaha!
And stupid Jaron kept don't allow me t go out and i dont know why either la.
He called me just now and asked me if im outside. LOL. Ohshitz!
I said i'd call him back in 5 mins time, i totally forgot about it till now i named him name!
Ahhhh! byebyeee! i shall go and call him already!! byeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

Sometimes is not about how perfect you are or how perfect you will become.
Is the imperfection that counts.
And is the imperfection(s) that makes you perfect (:

Am so dulan just now like wtf. SO DULAN LAHHH! nb!
Had been eating white rice with river cover egg (he bao dan) these few days la! LOL =/
I wanna eat sharks fin tomo! ROARRR! Cos im broke :(
Shall go and find daddy for money tomo. HOHO.
wildwildwet on monday w my beloved laogong leyy! JEALOUS not LIMCHEEHO!
I know you won't anyway. But ahhhh shutup! :/
Ahahah. was supposed to go swimming today but cancelled in the end.
Cos im too sick t get my ass outta my bed like wth.
So B came over and bought me chicken wings! :D
Ahhhh! im craving for curry chicken again, NOW! WHATTHEFUCK la!
Ohyaaa, i've updated my blogshop! Manicure and promotions w free gifts! :D
Next collection will be up lastest before my birthdayyyy! :D :D
YAY YAY YAYYY! 11 more days to my birthdayyyy.
And after mine will be my bestieeee! RAHHHHHH~ XIAO MEI MEI AH! :D
Although it's only 1 week. but still im older! HOHOHO!
I can watch NC16, M18 or even R21 before a week then you do. =/
MAI JEALOUS HORRR! ( she'll kill me if she sees this )
Alrightt, shall go and bathe noww! Bye earthlingss :D

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IM SO PISSED OFF NOW! WHAT THE FUCK. _!_
So fed up w some brainless ass. _!_ nb.

Nway, the blogshop URL changed. Changed to http://iamblogshop.weebly.com
Collection3 coming up soon! :)

ROAR. wtf, im down w bad bad flu. Pluz my voice totally changed lah!
So many tissues around me now like wth! ROARRR!
I think is sicky season nowadays cos hubby, ch, and hakim is sick lorz.
& i kept complaining t noel how xinku i am now! Wakakaka!
and im dying soon, still going t swimming tomo. i totally forgot about it. WALAO.
Kill me please lah, i just went t pick up a phone call and i fogotten what t type.
nahhbeyyy. I need kenny now :( I need him t do websiteee! ( A's friend )
Nvm, shall go off now already. buhbyee!

When you love another person you don't ask them to sacrifice.

Met xuanwei today cos he din't went to school today.
And slack all the way till at night. And web-camed w laogong just now! :D
Yea... i wanna fly to her house and play the web-cam lah! WTH.
Am abit tired now! But still advertising my blogshop uhhhh!!
Meeting wo de qing ai de laogong tomo! ( hubby, sweet not! ) heheh.
I wanna wanna wanna eat crispy chicken now! Who can buy for me now!
After viewing hubby's blog, i start to think alot, again! ALAMAK!

Perfect isn't perfect. So i know i shouldn't demand anyone to be perfect, cos i don't either.
It's sucha hectic life i've got, or everyone?
Some ask " how can a person love 2 person at a time? "
Why can't? If you can love your parents why not others?
And im thinking, what's love actually? There're like so many type of " love " around?
And do i know what kind of love am i giving to each of everyone around me?

Im a very xinfu de Shirley now! blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

Because Xuan Wei say he'll fulfill all for mee! Hubby ah, hinting you ! AHEM.
So yahhhh! Im going to list down now! REMEMBER HOR! blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

I WANT MICKEY MOUSE ICE-CREAM CAKE.
I want eat chicken wings!!
I want do manicure!
I want MANY MICKEY MOUSE balloon! Those can fly to sky!
I want to have a most most MOST wonderful birthday this year.
I want eat chicken chop!
I want eat curry chicken.
I want to be very very very happy on that day!
I want go escape theme park!
I want eat shark's fin!

Alright, shall stop alreadyyy! So yeah. Thank you first ah! blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

So went bugis today and played arcade. And got a minnie mouse! SO CUTE.
Had long john for dinner :) And cabbed to tiong to get a mouse!
A mickey mouse de mouse! :D :D Cos my mouse was dead dk how long already.
Din't get a new one till just now! And im so so happy. Shall upload photos soon! :D blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

AHHH! IMAGE VERY HEAVYYY of my hubbyyyyyyy!

JEALOUS THE WEB-CAM NOT! IM VERY JEALOUS!
EUNICE SOH YI NING! I DONT LIKE YOU FOR NOW!

I think that im siao already, it's the 4th post that i blogged today. LOL
So MANY pictures~ !!!!!!!!

Finallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! FINALLY!
These long awaited photos are finally here! ;D And i stole from Rena's FB!
Don't forget our meeting this WED horr! MAI MIA PLEASE! XD
And remembered how we kept pouring the cheese @ our Pizzas'! HA.
And still need Eunice SOH to get another cheese over! HA :D

HOHOHO! Im trying to activate my WEB-CAM becos of HUBBY!
Hubby ah. y'know! IT'S ALL BECOS OF YOU AH! I think horrrz...
My web-cam doesn't wants to web w you lahhh! Haiizzzzzzzzzz.... Hahah!

Alright, i just want to upload the photos! Shall continue trying my web-cam.

Ohhhhyahhhhhhhhh! One more thing!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHEE ~~LINGGGGGGGG~~ HO!
Show you one picture of your wifey, my hubby! DON'T JEALOUSS~

And lastly,
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TADAAAA~

RANDOMLY~

I LOVE YOU, BABY! ;D

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MUMMY! :D
So celebrated my mother's day not long ago and just reached home.
Finally im not a lazy girl. I uploaded all photos. Wanted to edit, but, lazyyyy! haha.
So ate w grandparents, uncle joe and mummy @ my old place! :D
Shark's fin ahhh! Ahahahah! Super yummy! The restaurant was so WOW!
Dint managed t sell my camera just now. But still got money in the end :)
So walked home not long agoo. And im still tired but i dont know why lahs!
Was supposed to meet Zalif cos he's driving car today instead of moto.
Cos his bro wanted t bike today! hahaha. So he's @ AMK.
But Nowell called back so i told him it's alright, cos he's busy.
But he's being so nice to accompany me right? You best lah okay! :D
Yah, i always will never forget that you'd come and send me home after my work!
So Queensway then Chinatown w bestie. Chat like so much w her :)
I lost my foundation lahhhh! WTF! I needa get another soon! :(

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Yesterday's picture :)

Tags replied! :D

passerby - Thanks so much. :)
Bear - :D
Hubby - Yeah, u made me so high like f on the phone! HAHA.
nowell - bestieeeeee :D
Kimmie - Yeappp. i know! Thanksss :D
;) - yeah, i'll. thanks :D

Gonna web-cam w hubby later cos her sister got a lappy for bday present! HAHA.
Wowww! Nway, i din't blog out those t get attention or whatsoever.
I just wanto get it off my chest. & it's my blog, i can blog whatever i want,
And you can don't need to click on my link to view. So yeah.
Dont be sucha asshole! If you think by doing so is to get more people to concern bout you.
Then you're that attention seeker! IDIOT!

Thanks to those who cared for me like seriously from their heart.
I can't dig out the heart and see, but i can feel. :)
Thanks so much to hubby. Seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyy.
And AB. :)

Love is so contradicting. Or i should say, life. I start to think of how each of anyone that actually came into my life, and leave me without a goodbye. Just like friendships. They come and go, and who really did stayed w you? I've met so many friends and so many left. We had such good times together. Laughing and cursing at one another. We seems to be so close but we're actually so far apart. We all always thought that we know each other so well. But the fact will turn out to be, you totally don't. Maybe i should not get disappointed w some friends who just be your friend because they need friends. And someone told me, it's not the ending, it's only the beginning. How true? I don't know myself either. Even though it's been years that you've been together, perhaps same class for years, but they are not true to you at all all these while and just faking to be so good w you. I know i should not put them in my heart, but after all, i really cherish every single one that i've know. Cos' i believe that it's god's arrangement. But why can't god make all of us be true to each another? Though my actions made them think that they're nothing to me, but they are eventually. Not everyone is good at expression out all these. Maybe im one of them, i don't know either. Though i always shout at you, blame you, scold you, ignore you and get angry over small tiny stuffs. And becos' of all these lil' actions, you left. And everybody just know that you're not important to me at all. But deep down in me, i know i need you so much and i really do. I know i didn't cherish you well. So you choose to leave me. And i didn't know that the impact you gave would be so big. I always thought to myself that i'll still be as happy as ever even though if you'd really leave me one day. But only till the day you really left me behind, running on the track alone, i then truly know that i need you so much more then anything else. Even though giving up everything that im holding on. But we always realised too late and live w regrets after that. I'm not happy at all these few years. I seriously don't know why. I never ever thought that anyone can really brings me down. Till i can't even stand up again and yet have to smile to everyone, telling them that im totally alright. Everything seems so meaningless. I've never been like this before i met you. I thought that im the one who can really control my life, not anyone else. But i know that im wrong after i met you. I tried hard changing every single thing that you told me that you hate it. But what's the point of changing? They told me that it's for my good and i'll be happier in the future. But why is it till now, im still not happy at all. It's really really so tiring smiling to everyone around me showing that im so fine. And these few days, those memories flashed back in my mind, again and continuously. Or to those similar places where once belongs to only us. I should have moved on long ago. But till now, i realised that im not at all. Why did i actually stopped down and gave up running on this route? It's never the end of my world, i know it clearly. I've so many many wonderful loves with me giving me support. I should be really contented. But why is it that there's still something missing in me? It seems so imperfect without you. I've always been trying hard to let go. I choose to lie to myself that im strong enough. The impact you gave will never bring me down. And maybe this is that one and only obstacle that i can't overcome all these while. But who can really give me the time and support to pull me over this obstacle. I guess nobody will ever do so with me. Im all alone all these while facing this, fighting to win, like wars. But im running out of energy. Tell me, who will run with me knowing that i've got this big obstacle in me? Who will really have the energy to give me the support that i need. This isn't those small moral support. Maybe no other guys can do so. Because they'll still leave, so what for try with me. They appeared to me telling me that they'll always be there to overcome this with me. But can they really do so with me? no one? They say that it'd be a better start if you go back, but it isn't at all. That's why i choose not to. Even though i wanted, badly.
I don't want those perfect memories to be destroyed. I rather have it this way. At least i can still smile when they appear in my mind, again. Friends are always there for me, and also leave me. Why? I thought that we're always fine. Though i've done something wrong, but i thought true friends will always forgive and forget? Why am i thinking of you guys again. Why do i feel so pain in my heart when i think of the only reason that you guys left me. Those things that we've been through all, really can't be remembered by you guys? We used to be the best of all that nobody can break us apart. But then, i realised that our friendship are much more fragile that a glass. Just a touch and we'll break apart. How i wished that you guys will tell me you missed those crazy time we had together. I missed them so much. But we'll never be the same as before anymore. Though some say you guys are not my friend, leave me because of that reason. But i believed that you guys are true to me all the times. I don't know why this will happened to us. But it's all over. Time flies so fast, it's been 2 years since you guys left me. And it's been 2 years since we last talked to each other. I remembered vividly how we walked passed each other like strangers. That totally broke my heart and i felt like crying so much at that time. And i'm thinking of how you guys felt at that time. Still mad at me? I always thought that im so strong, just like those buildings. But im not at all. There're many pillars in my life. But the pillars had fallen one by one. I don't know im left with how many pillars that keep me hanging on now. How i wished you guys did tell me that you're still there to keep me from falling. And you said you did keep me free from the ground if i were to fall, yes you. But i've fallen hard to the ground, i see you nowhere near me. I can't feel the importance. Maybe you'll laugh at what i've said the previous sentence. Maybe you need to be double what people does. Tell me, how long can you last like this? Every things that you've told me, i remembered everything. And all these while w you around me, you've showed me that i can't be the way i'm actually. So please don't say you like me the way im. Because you're not. Maybe im being unreasonable, again. But that's me. I tried myself from shouting at you. Tried to be the way you wished me to be. But i don't know how long can i last at all. So it'll be game over when you've yet start. Don't tell me that you've lots of credit to keep this game going. You'll still run out of credit one day. Is the matter of time, baby. I should believe that this big obstacle is nothing to me and you. But i can't do so. Im really afraid that if i really let you in and you'll leave me with goodbye, again. Or perhaps, without a goodbye. It's the feeling that i don't know how to express it out. Just like im afraid if i were to pass you my heart, and then you'd throw it to elsewhere. I don't want to have another experience like this, again. I guess i will really go crazy soon. I don't know why i typed all these out suddenly. I just get out of my bed again. I need to get this off my chest. I don't know who to turn to at all now. Who is really true, who isn't?
Hubby, where are you? You came to my mind out of nowhere now.
As well as bestie... Sigh.

Sometimes, you just can't find any good points in this person, but they're still irreplaceable.

It's 1.40AM now & i should actuall K-Oed by now.
Becos i only slept for like 3hours yesterday. And these 48hrs, i only had 5hrs sleep.
So you can guess how tired am i now actually. Rahhhh!
So cabbed to SK and met xw & reuben. They went for their run like, errrr
Reuben ran only 4 rounds and stopped i think? xw sprin ( pardon for wrong spelling )
for 2 times and he stopped. hahaha! And went Koven then Tamp.
Went GIANT and the giant there was really GIANT ! haha.
And cabbed to Redhill w xw to find my father for money.
And home-ed after that. Slept till 5 plus and the went Tiong and majong-ed! :D
Lost a lil this time round :( But never mind! Very sleepy now.
Just finished advertising blogshops. OMG~ i dont know how long can i last. hah.
So yeappp. Im so sleepy noww. And i think i'll KO very soon!
So Jaron, if i never message you, you should know why. Not i MIA :D
Ahhhh! i forgot what i wanna typed already.
Gonna sleep now otherwise i wont be able to wake up tomo for celebration!
I took afew photos todayy of them running! shall upload, SOON. ha :)
Nights peopleeee~

No matter how hard i tried all these while, i just can't break free from that darkness.

Was supposed to meet Ong for my key, but ended up eating @ Queensway.
Ahahah. So dint managed to meet her today. Perhaps tomorrow?
Seriously, i never ever met a guy like really what the f*** at all!
He asked this girl to be his girlf and when the girl rejected him,
he asked the girl to FUCK OFF? WTFFFF?!?!?!? Totally not gentlemen.
_!_ I seriously wanna laugh @ how despo is he, y'know!
Yada yadaa ! Im freaking bored nowww~ Someone, entertain me pleasee!
Am going jogging w Xuanwei & Reuben tomorrow! RAHHH!
Dont know if Michelle is coming along! heheh.
Alright, shall go and sleep SOON! Cos they are running at freaking 8AM!
Any kind soul can wake me up @ 6.30AM?! HOHOHOOOO!

YAY-NESS. Im the happiest girl on earth now! BECAUSEEEE.
I just had my sharks fin for supper! :D:D:D And $30 flew away like this :(
I left w $50 for my mother's day dinner! Awwwww!
Nevermind, shall find a way to get money ASAP! ROAR!
Ohyaaa, something that really scared me like WTH just now.
I bought Pooter along to buy my sharks fin and when im walking home,
I've reached my house downstairs, a BIG dog appeared from nowhere
just came running towards us lorz. wtf. And i stood still.
Pooter was so afraid and she ran, the BIG dog chased her.
But luckily he dint bite my Pooter. Otherwise i really dont know what to do.
And luckily got this man passing by, i asked him for help!
And kind enough of him, he chased that stray dog away. And i thank-ed him.
So after the guy walked futher, the BIG dog ran toward us, AGAIN!
And that guy turned back and came back to help me, AGAIN.
And so kind of him, to see us go inside the lift before he go away.
PHEWWW! OMG, im really so afraid at that time y'know! WTFFF~
Going Audi nowww! BYEE BYEEE. Will reply my tags soonnnnnnnnnnnn! :D

415'08, Our class BBQ held is on 17 June. Make yourself free alright!
And message me asap for those who i informed to do so.
I dont know how many of you will read this blog. But remember to spread around!
Ahahah. So was trying to contact my ex-classmates w ong today.
And stupid Iman made me feel so idiot out of sudden. LOL.
Im so so happy that im meeting them soon! :D They are my best mates!
They are the first to really see me burst out in tears and showed me
so much concern. And that was when i felt that i belonged to them. :)
Though always there'll be one black goat messing up alot of stuffs.
But afterall, we're so united in the end. And they never leave me behind.
Like PE lesson and we need to run and train for napha 2.4km.
Im always the last one and always the only one walking.
And most of them will run with me like Isaac, cheering me pushing me. :)
And the rest will shout for me and ask me to Jiayou. :D :D How nice right!
Im feeling so excited now and i dont know why either. Haha.
Because they never fail to make me smile and whenever im sad or angry..
They will always be there and allow me to use those stamp and stamp on their hands.
How cute right! Though they always run away, but they still give in to me :D
And they never failed to make me go crazy in class! :) Awwwww! I miss 315 & 415!

Aahah, enough of old times, im gonna be 17 soon! :D:D
So so met B today, was supposed to delivery key till Tamp. But but ...
I was sleeping like a pig and he came to my house! LOL.
So cabbed to Redhill and meet up with Ong and her classmates.
& B went back to his school for his CCA. Ate KFC. Damn full lorz.
And Kenneth is damn " CUTE " ahahah! So shopped @ NTUC after that.
Wanted to buy Audi card but OOS already :( And home after that.
Nway, do support Rena&mine's blogshop. Yeap, we combined together.
So collection will be up slowly. :D All are totally brandnew!

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Link can be found at my sidebar under blogshop :D
Can email or add our blogshop MSN for any enquires XD

Thanks to all those who came and showered me concern.
Espically Hubby, she's the first who messaged me early morning.
Asking if im alright and so on. I know im not alone. Cos i've got you! :D
Im feeling really so much better now.. So so much better :)

Im so looking forward to 27 May! :D :D Im really so touched by LOUIS KORKOR!
Cos he remembered my birthday. My shifu is so useless! =/
Yea yea! Ong Ong planning for me! I want this year to be the best ever!
Maybe because of what had happened last year.
I want my sweetest 17 birthday everrrrrr pleaseeee!
Because it's another 7, perhaps. Hohoho.
Kimmie asked me to stated top 5 presents that i wanna get.
And she PROMISED that she'll be the one who fufill all 5 lorz!
Listen up, KIMMIE TAN.

I want our best clique to celebrate my bday w me. With your stupid surprises.
That will make me laugh and really cannot predict!
I want a new mouse and a keyboard that will make lots of "tiat" sound!
I want a MICKEY MOUSE ICE-CREAM cake! :/
I want you to be always there to cheer me up with your nonsense.
I want to be happy, forever.
Yeah, fufill all these for me. I know you sure can! Cos you're my KIMMIE! :D

So met B today and idle at home the whole day. heheh.
Meeting B tomo again cos of the key! WTF!?
I wanna sell away my camera. Cos i've got 2 camera! LOL.
Anyone wanna buy? Nikon coolpix. I've used twice only. -.-!
Playing my restaurant City like siao now! HAHA. I wanna trade ingredients!
And im gonna do menicure this Fridayyyyyy~~
I tried doing myself. But my left had bu ting hua! :(((
Alright, shall go off nowwww! Buhhbyeeeee! :D

When this love game has yet start, it's already game over.
Thinking of how we first met and the process, i did smile.
And when what had happened just a minute ago,
all those effort of yours had just gone into the drain.
There's someone who told me this - When hard meets hard, they crash.
And from those hurtful words that you've spoke,
don't take moment of anger to be the excuse of everything.
I don't deny that everything starts from my temper, again.
This proved that both parties just don't understand each other.
And how can two be together in this situation?
I'll remember all those words you've said to me.
Be it words of anger or sweet words or even promises...
Im really afraid of quarrels. Cos it's like leading us to an end.
Maybe not to you, but to me, yes. You won't know how many fears are there in my heart.
With the dead knot tied deadly in my heart. And something you can never understand.
I don't know why i've got so many fears then others do.
Because i've been through all these, it's what you can't imagine and understand.
You said you'd be here with me, but why did i see you nowhere near me?
But i can tell you now, all those afford that you've made is just wasting of your time.

I cried when i hung up the phone. And i think of _____.
I know, there won't be another same guy anymore.
But im really happy that i've met one. And this made my life worth so much more.
I always thought you can be better. I always tried to bring you forward.
To stand at a place of where he once stood. Or even better then his.
And now i know, im just wasting my energy to do so.
Because you've proven to me all, tonight.
I've told you, i'll never give in in any situation and this is me when im out of mind.
And since you're same with me, i know we'll crash.
I always thought that love can really cover everything.
Only till when this someone told me that there must be someone to give in.
Otherwise the ending will be something beyond what i could imagine.
Not all guys are like him, who can torelate this type of unreasonable..
This sentence knock my head, i guessed so.
I've changed better, really so much better that i can't believe that that's me.
But what have i got in return? So what if i changed for the better.
Why am i being taken for granted in the end? So why should i change in the first place?
That's the way i should be treated when i've really changed to a better one?
But no matter how hard i tried, people just don't see my changes.
And dont say that it doesn't matters at all. Because you just want her to love you.
It all matters alot. It's not just about love anymore. Its the whole person.
That totally includes the character and attitude, perhaps family.
But afterall, after tonight and all the thinkings'
Im really disappointed, really very disappointed.
Afterall, no matter how i change, i am still the old Shirley.
The one that will NEVER give in in that situation or any.
Can you really take it? Don't tell me you can. Because you really can't.
I dont wish to cause any unhappiness between us, me and you.
Perhaps it's better to stay this way. Everything like this, no.
Should be, it must be this way and it's the only best way...

Im home-ed finally! Nway, had so so much fun today with Rena & Hubby!
Met hubby first @ clementi and we wento buy candles :D
So head saw Rena and we head to Pizza hut! Yum yummy!
And yah, we wento counter telling them to put the candles and so on,
they gave us a free mini cake! Shall upload the pics when Rena send me :D
So yah, Rena took our uglam photos like, espically Hubby's! LOL
So yah, the cake came and we sang happy birthday song for her. :D
So head to her house and get shoots for her blogshop. :D
And in the lift, we burst out our laughter like AFJDGNSODGODSNSO!
Imagine 3 girls in the lift laughing out LOUD.
We was talking bout SD stuffs about Hubby and Errrr. ahahaha.
Then i changed his name to CHEE LING! . Omg. i cant stop laughing now.!
Even though im typing, i can remember how LOL just now is.
So yah, wento redhill market and wanted to eat chicken rice.
But wtf is, my idiot father had closed his stall already.
But luckily he's there! "D So dabao chicken wings! And get $$$ from him. :D

Chatted w my MSN baby yesterday night. And he made me laugh like siao.
hahaha, think he's not gonna be my MSN baby soon. Cos of personal stuffs.
Ahahahah, so should change and call him his name already.
Otherwise got vinegar already! =/ hahahahahha!
And meeting B tomo! :D Yay. i dont know if i should go TAMP1 tomo or not!
Or should i go eat curry chicken lehhhhhhhh (!!!)

LASTLY,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RENA!
Thanks for your advices that i once need so much. :)
And all the nonsense that you made me lol! :D ( please grow up! )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUBBY's SISTER! (sis in law?)
Wish you all the best for your PSLE! ( Though you may not see this )

Yoyo! Im @ Rena's house currently! I blogged becos of her keyboard!
Ahahaha! Shall blog when im home! I blog for the sake of playing!
Playing with her keyboard with the TIAK sound! :D

Finally! I used desktop instead of lappy. Cos desktop is damn L-A-G!
Playing fb de restaurant city! :D So so fun, for now lah.
Finally level up till 14 already. I need so many ingredients lah!
Anyone who play add me in facebook alright? Just click the fb link @ the side! :D

I've totally seen through you. What a good liar.

Yoyo. It's been 3 days since i last blogged. Damn L-A-Z-Y .
I dont know if i should remove tagboard or not.
Nway, did nothing much as well.

Yesterday, Met Nowell & XW for facial! LOL. And Nowell went for study.
So me and xw shopped around tiong and went great world to find Winnie.
So Jobell came over after awhile and plus Winnie's sisters.
Time-Zone till dont know how long and then over to Winnie's house for MJ!
It's been how long since i last MAJONG-ED. Hoho.
Then then thennn! We went down to the red signboard for supper! :D
Some conflicts happened but was fine after that :)
And one fucking stupid thing happened. Winniw fed one cat a fish.
And that bloody cat went to get all his/her friends or family to gather.
So i dont eat vegetables, so i just threw to one of them to eat.
So within 5mins, 4 or 5 cats were around us. WTF?! So im damn afraid of cats.
So winnis asked me where the cat that we fed went to. Guess what?!
It jumped up and was right beside me. And i jump like one idiotz and hit my leg.
Having blue black now. Dint noticed til one jie in sin tua asked me.
And back to her house for majong till 4am and walked home w xw.

And today, ate with xw and i bugged him for mushroom soup. HOHO.
So went to tua right after my happy time :) Sent him to MRT and cabbed to tua.
Waited for my dearly kue bei but, today so many people asking.
So i guess he wont be here. And before that, joke w the usual jies' :D
Still as funny as ever that made me laugh like hell de kimberly. hhahah!
Got to know ahboy's korkor de cousin. He's same age as me.
Finally im not the only youngest there uhh! WTF.
So cabbed home at 11.55pm. 5 mins to midnight - charge.
Im fucking broke now and how am i supposed to attend Rena's thang on Mon?!
Someone, please donate $$$ to my pocket now!
Am fucking tired now but but but. I needa go bathe now.
Ohya, i've become RONRON's counseller now. WTH!? hahha.
He said that imma weird girl. And NEVER CAME ACROSS a girl like me!?! wtf? HAHA.

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After yesterday, i guess that i really want my life now, unchanged.
This is always part of something that makes me go crazy.
I know i'd never give in even though it's my fault.
I've realised that i actually convinced myself that i should believe.
But just that, everything had gone back to the starting point.
I've been thinking and thinking of that incident. Even though i dont want,
it just flashes across my mind every min. And my mind starts again.
Telling me not to be brave anymore. Cos im too tired to be one and i cant anymore.
I guessed it had already reached the limit of all those and im really afraid.
Im really really afraid this time round...