The course of true love never did run smooth.

There are alot more photos but im lazy already. picked out 5 of the photos will do. ahha. So you guys should know that im busying w my tua these few days. haha. Super tiring day on Sun like i swear. I never eat snake okay. Abittttttttttt only. hahah. I got bullied by 2 korkor in the tua lorz. Plus i forgot his name de. Then nevermind. I was all along holding on t towel, martel, beer, fan and the smoking stick. I feel so like super shirley at that time. LOL. Then everything ends at 1 plus and head back t teban. Ahboy korkor was driver. Super like roller coaster! hha. He drove so fast till idk how t spell it out lah. So when inside the room, its damn smoky i swear. Damien was beside me teaching me t close my eyes or open small small like him. LOL! while heading back t teban, Joanne msged me and ask me go t batok and accompany her. lol. Dragged abit and ahd called. So ended up at batok. Super tired and i got 2 cuts on my hand which i dint realised till the end. So yea. Met up w J then we went shop and save t buy MAGGIE MEE! lol. watch VCD and slept. Then had chicken rice w ahd for lunch. And went back t sleep. I will grow fat staying at that house. LOL. So yah. Woke up at 8plus 9pm and had very nice dinner w J and E. Ahd stayed at home. So cabbed t tua and help and was supposed t go pub. But dint go in the end liaoz. :( haha. So home-d and met mom w her friends. Had quarrel w her in the end and i went home. Shall not elaborate more already. Feeling very tired. Surprised that LAL messaged me. :D Cos i thought he wont. But haha. LOVE YOU ALOT, LAL! :D hahahha! NIGHTS PEOPLE. Im sleeping on my own bed tonight.! hahahaha!

Im home-d to my own house today. And it's freaking 2am now becos of
Tua stuffs so im home late today. Plus tomo, i wanted t reach at 3pm plus...
But i got caught. LOL. So have t reach at 1 plus before 2pm. Walaooo eh :(
Neverminddd. And it's gonna end quite late tomo. HO SEH LORZ. :/
I need beauty sleep like real lot now. But im still awake. Eyes very tired now ley!
Becos i can't slack today. I've been in the room since my kuebei came and till end.
Helped out so much more then usual today. haha! only today. =S ahhhhhh. :D

Im abit siao liao eh. Very sleepy now lahh. Had been staying at batok since wed.
Ate only maggie mee and potato. LOL. I will grow fat if I dont come back home. omg! ha.
So dint go out at all when im at Ahd's house. Except for shop and save. LOL!
So yea. Joanne is my company when the two Es are hugging their comp tightly. haha
Had so much talk with Joanne. :) Ohhya. Who wanna do manicure and pedicure?
Mani & Pedicure at only $50. With nail art included and massage plus cut dead skin...
Contact me for more info. Helping my friend to promote. Do support! :) Ahhh. alright.
Shall go and sleep now. I needa wake up real early tomo lah. nb! :D NIGHTSS~

Yoooooohooooo. Im currently @ bukit batok. And sibei DL!
Becos someone stole my newurbanmale $59.90 de flippers! _!_
Fuck the person who stole my flippers. Curse you wear till your leg cannot walk ah! ninahbeh! But forget it, i'll need t get the same one. Otherwise, idk how t answer uncle joe. fuck the person.! ROAR~! It's only how many days that i've wore that flippers. Not even a week lah. nb! Suaaaa! Now i've got no shoe t wear le lah. IDIOT!

Okay, i shall stop ranting. Been here since Wed! And tomo still have t go up teban garden.. Idk what t blog liao eh. Cos im on the phone. Byebyeeee!

Why did i felt a sudden pull and made me fall again? I dont wish to fall, again. Im really running out of energy already and yet i still have to smile to everyone around me. I thought that i've really thought through every single thing that actually happened in my life... Tired of all those lies that i've received... And also afraid that who will be the next one that is going to leave me, again. I dont wanna bid any goodbye. i think i've lost a friend today. Or should be yesterday. idk either... If goodbye were to be ready for another separation, does that means losing belongs to forever? I realised that we can't have someone with us forever, but we can easily lose someone forever.. So that's the definition for f-o-r-e-v-e-r? Im getting confuse.. very very confuse.. Perhaps, one person can only love a person at a time, truly love, i mean. That's why you can't get another person in, to your that only small circle in your life. Be it white lie or not, it's still a lie. Isnt it? Just like 1cent, it's still money... I've been thinking so much for the whole day today.. But i still get no answer at all... Who can really tell me, what's f-o-r-e-v-e-r? Why some people can just forget easily.. and some can't. Time can really change a person. From one innocent to ... I think i've got enough punishment. Why is it that it's still torturing me so hard? Why must it makes me feel so miserable? And why can't i remove this in my heart. And this time round, im alone facing it. I thought it will pull me stronger. But why it seems to weaken me? I dont want this to be the wrong desicion i made. Tell me, i made the right one... But everything that i've done, you dont seems to noticed, even a single bit..

I dint realised that i've not been blogging. =S ahah. okay.
I've forgotten what i actually did for the past few days too. :( STM.
But today, dint meet up w AHD as well. Met up w SHUSHU instead :)
Had fun and went newurbanmale w her t buy her slippers. Nothing caught my eye.
But then, just this slipper that caught my attention suddenly. HOHO.
And i went over and try. Then when i look at the price tag, i LL already. LOL.
$60 ley. nb. I rather eat shark's fin liao eh. LOL. then nvrm. Still i got the shoe in the end.
And i dont really like it when i reached home, again like this. i wanna kill myself. -.-
So nevermind.. Met my mom and her friends for dinner. :D SUPPER YUM!
Becos got shark's fin. And guess what. I bought my cam out yet dint take a single photo!
HAHAHA! Yea. Then homed and out t meet old friend :)
Eat with him and then saw Jeff with indians.. hahaha. Chat and so ps just now.
Thanks alot t Jeff ah, who digged out 2 years ago de things. LOL. Then home-d.
Then i realised that i actually sprain my elbow. dint realised till i drop my tray of ice.
Then my eyes are burning hot like real hot lah. And then i know im having fever -.-
Sibei shiok lorz. I can die anytime liaoz. ALright. Shall go and talk t my AHD on msn! :D

DEAR LAOGONG SOH, I WANNA CHANGE BLOGSKIN.
You should know that i'd be looking top and bottom for you! hahahahaha!

I guess i should be able t know who are those who really stood by me.
Its been awhile since i last settle down my emotional emotions. It took me so long..
I dont know what actually cause me t be so down for th last few weeks as well.
But i really appreciate those who always check if im alright or be there w me.
I know i should pick myself up, from when i fell, the same spot. And i guess i've moved.
A small step further from that point that i fell. Becos i've been thinking of the uncle's word.
The one who help me t see my fate? Yea. All was correct of the cards..
Maybe i should not keep t myself. But i dont wish t burden anyone ...
I think to really understand what the uncle had told me that day. Hope i do.
But thanks t those who really stood by me all these while and be w me.. :)

Bestie Ah Tan, Kimmieee, Hubby Soh, Hakim, Jaron, Jian Dong and even YX before he went for his holiday trip. Shuzhen, though i know her not long, she's also the only child. So yea, she's jus like my sis, right shushu! haha! And also lim ah lim,DD! Always infront of me and watch me cry. Wiping my tears away and tell me not to cry, everythings' gonna be alright. :)
I wanna tell you guys, i'd always be there for you all and im also a phone call away!

Ahhhh. Meeting Bestie later t get back my card ley.!
Meeting my hubbysoh tomo, AhD on tuesss and also SHU on wed leyyy. yay!
I dont wanna stay at home t rot! Working on Thurs and Fridayyy for $$$ .
Sat and Sun got Tuaaa. over t AhD's house t stayy. I dont know if ta still rem. anot. LOL!
Im very high t blog now. But i got nothing much more t say liaoz eh?
I'll die on Sun cos im afraid that i'd be late for tua! RAHHHH! NOTHING LIAO. BYEE

Am feeling so much better. Dont worry t those who kept sms-ing me these few days..
Those who tagged and MSN-ed me who asked bout me. Thanks alot..
Esp t bestie, hubby, kimmie & dearrrr shuzhen! Talked t shuzhen ytd.. Meeting her soon! :D
And yea, what have i done for the pass few days.. Let me think, i've forgotten. LOL
went t bugis de temple which idk what's the name called in Angmo. haha!
' jie qian ' as well and i asked bout myself too. My gastric is back again..
Which cause me dont really feel like eating and so. Idk why as well. But well..
I wont die becos of gastric! :/ haha. Nvmm, then bought a top for myself too! :)
GSS is here like since after my bday! I HAVEN GOT MY TANKTOP LEY! >..so nb lah. I must get it by next week. So yea. Went up t tua ytd. Quite fun i should say.
Bought the dk what bing for my kue bei. He said that imma good girl, w the mummy inside.
And he said i would be really good if i dont keep on running about. Means go out. . . LOL.
Soooo yeaa. And and im home like hahahaha lah. Sat come faster..
Cos i need t do some important stuffs and Sunday, we're MOVING tua alreadyyy.
Anyone who wants t come may come. We'll be setting off at 4.30pm from our old temple.
which is located at teban garden. Blk 10. And will be moving t taman jurong..
So do come if you guys wants to :)) The more the merrier! :))
Alright. Shall go off already. Im going t the place with lotsa chicken(s) today! =/

Sometimes, it's better to keep to yourself then spell it out..

Tags replies:
passerby - Thanks :D
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SHU - You always PS me lorz! :(
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I know that im all alone, all these while.. i want back my old self.

I tried t reach out for someone who can be here. And i realised there's noone for me t hold on.. Why am i crying out suddenly like tap water is dripping? How am i supposed t take this blow? That actually came out from nowhere, suddenly? Tell me what's wrong with me now? Why am i like this again, like two years ago... I think i needs t be alone for time being... bye.

Dont have t worry for me. Esp, hubby, bestie, kimmie .. and i guess no one else...

Im feeling very afraid today.. Becos it reminds me of that incident...
Im feeling so scared and yet i've t bear w that nightmare... Who will really understand that feeling in me?

YX's oversea by now already.. Sighh. We all will miss you de! :)
Remember to feel your heart, she's talking to you every now and then...

Never close your lips to those whom you have opened your heart to. (Got from fb ) :(
Nothing much t post. woke up at 1plus AM which is not long agoo. lol. Super tired. Then MSN like idiot. chatted w my beloved hubby Sohh! haha. My ahlao.
So long never meet her le. She very nb one. Always chee chee and Hooooo lorz.
haha. These few days, i got tons of calls and sms(s) from everybody. Dont worry, im very fine. Super fine! So dont worry bout me kay! :D Becos im supershirley!
Yea, so slept like pig since morning idk what time till just go. Bathe and feel like going out. But idk where t go la. Super sianz. I wanna watch movie. NAM2. :( idk if i should or not ... But i know i wanna watch " drag me to hell " ! Ask dao nobody lorz. piang eh. :( So long ever since i last watched a movie okay! Think it's been few months ago lah! Gonna update my music already.. So bear w the 30sec(s) de LSJ's song. Got one super nice song " Ti Wo Ai Ni " quite long agoo. But i cried when im hearing this.. Byeeee. Im still super tired and idk why. Can i just sleep and die like this? i dont wanna wake up anymore, to this reality...

I dont know what's going on w me now. Why am i feeling so down these few days.
Be it whether im staying at home or outside. It's worst outside cos i need t pretend.
At home, i can hide in my room for whole day and not stepped out of my room.
And when im w people, i need t smile like how i always did. How tiring.
I need a shouldle, a very firm one that would keep me from falling, but where?
I feel like crying out now, but i dont know how t cry, suddenly. wtf.
I need a pair of ear that can really listen t all the thing i've kept in my heart. But where?
All seems t be so far away from me. I can never reach out t all these.
Becos all dont belong t me.. Who can really know how im feeling?
Who can i really really trust, you tell me. . .

TATA~ i ate this for 1 hour plus and it's this size. And sis helped me throw away. ha!

Yong Xiang, Dont worry. Everything will be fine and time flies!
Wo hui miss you de, dont worry! haha

Pictures w SQ and starbucks

From beloved hubby!

CH and EUNICE. LOL! ( inside joke )

You see, E dont know how t eat fries! ( im the one who did so. )

Hua Lian Mao~

Thanks E for always there! :D LOVEEEE YOUU LA~ haha

I just reached home not long ago from sis's house. haha! And becos the day before,
i was DRUNK! imagine, im drunk la. wtf. So called up sis and he come and fetch me
downstairs ta de house. xie xie ni, again! So vomitted when i got down the cab.
And the first time i got drunk la. nb! nvmm, i thought i would KO when im reach his home.
But hell no! I watch him play PS2 and listen t music on the bed w eyes wide open. lol!
Slept at like 8 plus AM this morning only till like 4 or 5 plus lah. LOL.
Yea, slack all the way and then wento buy MAC for my mom and home-d.
Was supposed t meet Yong Xiang, but ended up i gave him kite. SORRY! XD
Dont worry! Time flies like areoplane, y'know! I'll miss you, though you're my 4 days friend!
Dont worry! I'll try my best t help you in all ways that i can! :)
Remember im somewhere in your heart, so talk t me when you're on holidayy.
Cos i believe i can hear from my heart :) JIAYOUUUUU !
Abit tired now but i dont feel like sleeping! shall go and bathe noww!
Im very confused now. About everything in my life...

And ya, sorry t bestie, hubby, shuz, jason for just now. Dint mean t not pick up calls. .

Back from Tua not long ago. SHU left me alone at tua today lorz! SO BAD!
Then me always the one who sneak away and do my own stuffs and slacking got worst tday.
I went downstairs and met up w yongxiang, weijie, bx and idk his name.
So pass the letter t yongxiang and we chatted at downstairs for awhile..
Then went up t check if tua had ended or not, so went up but no.
Then stucked there for awhile before going down again t meet them. Monkeys i should say.
Espically yongxiang. Kept disturbing me when im on the phone like idiot.
Wj so shy just now lorz! hahahah! WAPIANGZ you know! & chatting w him now.
So they went off around 11plus and i went up. Ong came over and find me.
I thought that i can wait for my kuebei, but he dint came just now. WALAOOZ.
Me very very sianz lorz. Cos mid-night cabfare kills me like hell lah!
So cab-ed t mac and home sweet home after that.

And she knows that she's really afraid of being alone now. Becos she'll start t think of lots of things again.
Why is she feeling so afraid now? Had heart to heart talk w ______ yesterday.
She really appreciate for all things that he've done so. And also what he've told her ytd.
Yes, the first one t appeared beside her lending her your shoulder t cry on.
And when he told her of what he've done for her all these while, she thinks alot after that.. She cried badly.
He said that she've not put her heart in, so she can't feel those care and concern from him.
Though he told her that he'd be there t hug her tightly and always wipe away her tears when she cry.
She's trying hard t believe and so. Becos of what she've been through, she's really afraid.
Afraid that she might fall from nowhere and also dont know why she fell, again.
Where are you? He went disappear out of nowhere, again. She's feeling very afraid.
She needs his comfort, but like what she've been through, nobody's there for her, forever.
But will he? Will what he've said all be fulfill? She's very scared now, feeling very terrible now... Where are you?

She feels like dying, cos nobody can understand or share how she's feeling now. Very alone, very dark, very scary...

Idk if i'd be able t meet you and chat w you later anot. But thenn.
Jus wanna tell you, im happy t know you. It's fate or destiny, maybe.
It's been less then 24 hours that i've got t know you.
And you'd be gone for a year plus after 3 days later or soo..
But remember that we've become friends today, having nice chat and your advices.
Nobody will look down on you when you're out. Cos im always here for you.
A pair of listening ear, though what i've said wont help much. But i can listen t you.
Dont sad, i'll try my best t help you for the gathering later.
I wont dislike or hate people like you. And of cos, never look down as well.
Remember that when you're out still must come and contact me okay!
Never forget me okay? Cos im still your friend. Counsellor Tan.

Remember, 13 June 09. :D

Thank you for making me worry like a fool for no reason.

I've been not happy at all for a week pluz already. Can someone tell me why is it so? And suddenly, i felt so empty in my heart, so empty, so pain. It's another blow t me which this time round, i dont know what's the reason myself. It's me, i should know it myself well, but why i don't? I recall-ed so many memories. And should i go back to that place that i've been trying t runaway from? Or stay at the present? Im so confused right now. What's actually in my heart? I really wanna dig it out and ask. Why am i having that feeling of afraid again? Afraid that i might fall again anytime in the future. I cant balance well standing on the firm track. I seems t might fall anytime now, again. I've not been home t sleep for a week. And now when im back t this room, why am i feeling like thousands of knife stabbing me right through my heart? I think i need a shoulder that i can really lean on and that can hold me tight, not letting me t fall again. I told myself that i should have closed my eyes and let go of you long long ago. But why am i still like this? I really dont feel like staying at home now. I wanna get out, dont wanna be alone right now. The feeling is torturing me slowly. I cant really spell it out of the feeling. Cos i myself also dont know myself anymore. Sigh..

Currently talking t counsellor Lim. ha. :(

reached home like 8pluz. Had quarrel w my mom as well. wth.
Im so tired of staying at this house already. Seriously tired.
Is this the way that a grandma will treat her own grand-daughter? idk.
And thanks t my mom. Forget it. I dont wanna say anymore.
Grandma is coming home anytime, so i needa leave house soon.

Thanks t Sister ah! My sisterrr! LOVE YOU SISTER! haha.
Ta hen hao de. Cos when im so down or idle-ing outside is was SHE being there for me.
Thanks alott. :)

I've realised that nobody is true. Why do everyone lie like this?
Though i know, but i still have t keep quiet. Im feeling very miserable.
But what can i really do? Smile and smile. Sigh.

Im feeling very down these few days. Seriously very down.
Thanks t brother alot alot alottttttttttttttttttttttttttt! Like seriously.
Xie Xie Ni! >..< Wo zui hao de brother! :) Not sleeping at home from like since friday.
Gonna be one week soon, by tomo. My bed, i miss you too.
But i dont want and cant stay at home. Sighh. Wtf.

And, i saw your blog. This is part of what occurs my mind now and then.
Yeap, i would exchange freedom for a relationship. NO DOUBTS.
And yes, friendship is more important then relationship. They are not same at all.
The importance of relationship? What's the importance?
Yes, i've many things kept in me which was never spoken. But am i feeling very good?!
And yes, even if it's _____, i would too. Becos I'VE DONE SO ALREADY YEARS BACK.
It seems that you totally dont understand. I've gave up the most important person in
my life t exchange for friendship. Sometimes, love is only a small part of a relationship.
Not all of it. And sorry if my promises are fake. I've changed totally.
Idk why either. Im sorry. Im not who i really used to already.
Dont keep saying that im always giving you cold shoulder, like you never did.
But nevermind, you'd never understand. Then let me go...

Im feeling so sad now. I dont know if i've made the right choice.
Someone told me this yesterday, " choose your path yourself, wisely "
This strike me so hard again, once again. Becos it's _____ that gave me the concern feeling. After that, nobody had ever done so. Though they did tried. But i've never got that concern feeling anymore from anyone. Even if it's my boyfriend. And i had a long talk w besite and winnie. I really wonder who am i now. Im seriously thinking alot alot now. Is it that hard to trust someone with your whole heart? I've never shed a tear infront of someone i dont really know . But why on earth did i cry out infront of _____. I really hate myself very alot now. Those promises that i've heard from anyone, why it seems like it's so untrue. I guessed we've drifted since yesterday, i hope not. Becos i dont want to lose a friend like you. Be it those rumors that i've heard or you told me how bad you were, i still believe my eyes till the day i see it myself. You told me that nobody actually believed that you'd actually changed for the better. Cos all believed that you're the same and nobody will believe you. But i believe. I swear i do. Becos i know your that feeling very well. Cos i've been through. That i really changed and yet everyone still thinks that im the one who was the main of a fault or so. So i believe. Though you might not need t, i dont know either. Hopefully you dint lie t me at all, cos i really believe. And also like what everyone told me, " action speaks louder then words. " But nobody ever done so. Im feeling afraid t believe. And from the way i actually felt. im worried that i'd fall again like how i fell before. I dont want to anymore. Though i've learnt how t be stronger. Im feeling like shitz now, seriously. I feel like dying for god sake. Really. I need to vent my anger out now. Cos i dont think i can take it anymore. Im going t burst soon, very soon. I need a shoulder, and i realised that all are not with me at all. I got so many feelings inside my heart, yet i cant really typed it out. Cos i dont know how t share. Share all these saddness with anyone, anymore ... Im getting sick of my life..

WHATTHEFUCK..sigh.

My super cute friends and my beloved tua. :)

Yea, bascially, i went tua on Sat again. Yea. im back t my tua liaozz.

And we're moving alreadyy. Awww. Means the next time, i need more cab money.

Hohoho. With the crazy Shuzhen talking crap, and own things:)

Had nice talk w you, really! :D

So yea. Ahboy kor2 talked t me and everything. Tell you! I WILL GROW TALL!

Super fun that i can't pin all down here.
So was talking t DAMIAN! DAIMIEN, i tihnk. idk the spelling! LOLz.

So thank you ah, for faking as my papa horz. So 'nice' of you. LOLz.
And from now on, i think i'll start calling you noodle. =/

And that Aloy i-d-k what liaoz which i named him JARON too. fking alike.

So manyy crappp la please. LOL. So yea. Talked w korkor and so onn..

So head t find E afterthat. nothing much already.

Home-d and slept before heading t St James. Met bestie and cabb-ed t vivo.

Surprisingly, Ming Xiong called. LOL! So yeaa.
Reached and find Winnie, Don, Russell and idk what name @ SD.
So head t St James. E dint attend. So poor thing lah you. LOL.

Dance floor was so packed like idiot. Me and besite kissed there. LOL.

So yea. Dint see Vincent at all, totally. He's so in the middle!
ORH HORRRR! My mummy's gonna kill you! haahha!

Our 10 years friendship, you've never treated me a single sweet lorz!
TEN YEARS HOR! And you treated my mom MACDONAL. YOU ZAI!

Wtf. I want macdonal! And also stupid spring chicken. LOL!

My appetite is back like finally. Get annoyed when i see food. dk why.

But today, i ate MACDONAL leyy! And my cup ah. forget t take home. SHIT! nvm!
And then, nothing much t elaborate already. Homed. :)

Took on Bestie's bday. My youngest daughter horz!

My chipsss! Look that the dob of the chips :)

This is the idiot that i watched him slept for 8 hours. -.-!

WO HUA DE HORZ. ( ps, i know it's ugly )
I also want, happily ever after. But where is my prince? :(

Is there seriously like happily ever after? Why they dont seems t come t me. :(

You hide your emotion sometimes .You are a moon type of person. You tend to be the quiet type or in contrast, you are happy but sometimes you act it out in order for you to no burden your friends with your problems. You've faced some problems in your life. Your heart has dealt blows before. You tend to think about things alot more than other people. And you may get annoyed with people who act out without thinking about what would happen later.You are also the type of person that others often come to you with their problems because you've been through plenty, and you are very understanding. Though you sometimes feel lonely. Your demeanor is usually chill, and relaxed.You usually are logical, and rely alot on facts and information on decisions. You often keep things to yourself. This is just one side of you, and you have different faces in different situations and environments, just like the moon has phases.

Was doing quiz at fb and this strikes me hard. KO for not more than 2 hours.
Am reading my chat logs now. From some people who wrote to me, promise-d me.
Will it actually be fulfill, for now i really dont know. But i'll try t believe.
Xie xie ni men let me know that i still have you guys w me.
But seriously speaking, somethings, i dont have the feeling of what i've heard. Sigh.

Jaron ah r0nr0n. Dont sadd. Remember it's not end of the world for you.
Becos Chor lor is always a phone call away or a webcam away. I promise,
i'll try my best t make you smile. Though i failed just now, im sorry. But but,
dont think so much about it already yea? Im really so tired just now.
Not that i wanto ignore you or what. Really sorry. Im a bad chor lor. :(
But then, bie bu kai xin le! YAO SMILEEE~
I really dont know what am i thinking at all totally now. Is so messy now. wtf.
I hate now. I really hate so. I wished i can really kill myself now.
Ha. My Kai Xin Guo @ tua now. :( How sad. And that mo mo ren, never cry! >.<
Dont accuse my dang shi ren hor tell you first. You're sleepy, so see wrong kay. :D

It's 1.24PM now and i just reached home not long ago. =/
So outz w bestie and her mum. And her house after that. :)
Bought and did things for her. Shall upload the pics soon yea?
And yah. Thanks t her maid that helped me blow-ed 16balloons. The 17th, i did. =/
hahah. So yea. Called her and bluff-ed her down t her playground. haha!
So head t her house. And she asked me t TON w her. WOW right?!

Ha. then End up i met E for MAC supper. I dint had any meal for 4 days already.
I only drink drink and drink. Web-cam w E as well. Rahahah. He deleted the photo!
Otherwise ah! i can upload liao lorz. =.= Had so much talk w bestie and winnie.
It's been so long since we 3 sat down and had such heart t heart talk. I love it so so much.
And then wento BMC and waited for E. Then MAC liaoo!
Yeap, i treated you your coke LIGHT as promise already hor. I fulfill it le! never lie! >.< So yea. Wapiang, Then there's a indian guy that sat next t our chair. I just merely joke w him that the indian is my husband, and he turn and shout. I stop in time la! WALAO EH! YES, u gave me heart attack. -.-! So then @ MAC but guess what did i do? TALKING T A PIG OR RATHER, MYSELF. Becos there's someone who slept right infront of me for fking 8 hours. And i've been doing self entertainment myself like idiot. Talking t myelf i think. Though E is right infront of me and it looks like im talking t him. And i think people thinks that im a idiot talking t a person who is sleeping like pig. SERIOUSLY i entertained myself for freaking 8 hours at MACDONAL! -.- Thanks alot ah, E. I'll never forget this day. My very first time horz. LOL! On the phone w hubby nowww. :) And my daughter is crying for me. And my bed misses me alot. :D

GOOD ~~NIGHT~~ MORNING! :D i think im KO-ing soon cos i spent too much energy at mac just now talking t myself. LOL!

Firstly, HAPPY BIRDDAY TO MY BESTIE AH NOT WELL! :D

You're offically 17 like finally one week after me horz. heheh! Still delaying your present y'should know why too. Sorryz. It's been 5 years of our friendship. This route wasnt smooth for us either.
We quarrel we cry and we laugh. Thanks so much for being there for me when i was at the most bottom of life would ever be. The very first person t see me tear and also that pillar in my life. Bestie, i wanna tell you, it wasnt those laughters we shared called perfect. Is those lil quarrels and attitude we gave each other and cold war for days are perfect. Remember that incident that we quarrel and dint talked t each other? Wth that CMI face w us playing pool? Haha. :D I miss and really love those time after when we quarrel and we'd laugh at each other hugging each other. And and at superdog, you insist me for continue the work? ha. Plus we quarrel becos im sick and dint wanto go home. Andy so poor thing! Between us? haha. yea. And even having some other people trying t break our friendship by all ways. We've overcome it. I need you so much in my life. 5 years may not be long or short, but it means so much in my heart. And then, remember, dont tell me that you are afraid that you might disturb me or whatsoever when you're down, im always here for you. Just like how you did for me. Like i said, i can give up boyf, a relationship that i really love most, but never give up our friendship. I believe our friendship is strong enough t face any obstacle in future. Though when quarrel occurs, we always said that we aint close, dont understand each other, but in my heart, deep down, you still knows me the best. At least, more then others. Xie xie ni. We're still gonna celebrate lots and lots of birthday and many more. :) Remember, you're the pillar in my life that i cant afford t lose.

It's been so long since i last shared my things w someone. And cried infront of someone.
I thought that im really that strong, i can be independent. But i know im very wrong already.

Jaron, must cheer up. Though she've left you, but it isnt the end of the world.

Remember that CT is here. When you're sad or down, i'll try t cheer you up.

Though im sorry that at times i cant comfort you. im truely sorry.
I dint mean t be a bad friend. :) I post bout you le ok! :D

And xiexie t E. Though i know you not long, but i believe you're not bad.
Like i said, i see no reason t say that you're bad, even though of what i heard :)

Sorry that at times i made you angry or so. But, still, thanku! >..<

Hao le. im so lack of money! I NEED MONEYY LAAA. SHITTHEM!

Going over t bestie's house soon. Super super weird feeling in me.

Everywhere i go, i never leave this number. Or rather, this number is always w me.

Is at tua de, helped hubby take de number. If i asked, i'd be at the last. =/

So yea, look at the number and it's 7. Favouritee. Im trying hard t believe.

Trying so hard t lie t myself that everything have not change. But but,

action speaks louder then words like seriously, totally. St James on sundayy, anyone?

With bestie, winnie, don and idk who liao... haa! the more the merrier.

Gonna go broke like omg this coming week. Gonna look for Ong's bday present w sq.

Now very bored like one idiot t wait for the time t pass. And dk if im coming home.

But i think i'll still crawl home in the middle of the night becos i will miss my lappy.

ahahaha! Yea, and my daughter's home alone leyyy. How can!? The god-mama also so useless.

hahahh! Alright. Shall go and change liaoz. How much i need a CAMERA now.

Fuck that idiot who stole my things. _!_

Met Edwind just now. He bought me tibits! haha!
So chat chat and still chat. And walked t bestie's house and pass her things.
So E accompanied me. And my gastric came back suddenly. wtf.
pain like one idiot. so yea. walk walk and sit down at shelter.
so after that. walked w him till his tua there and chat there again.
Saw my auntie like What The Fuck>.< So bluffed her. hoho- =/
Yea and saw one super cute aunty. >,< hahaha! SUPER I TELL YOU.
She was at there saying me _________________. Then E was laughing. -.-
Then then the ahma turn t E and say the same thing! super funny. haha.
And then E suddenly got angry. Wapiang. I was saying sorry lorz.
Seee. I super gooood right?! heheh. then then thennn when i needa go home,
it was raining like ohhmytian! So yea. E kept telling me that there's shelter.
But the moment i got off the over-head bridge, there ISNT!
I bring you walk if there's a chance! So ran and stop t walk.
Super dont know how t discribe de feeling at that moment. So many thoughts.
And i cried in the rain. Felt so much better. Because i've not cry properly for long time.
Ahahah. Yea. Walked home and try t figure out if there's shelter. But MEI YOU!
Sat got tua leyy. idk if i should go or not laahh. :( Cos i dont wanna get scolding.
I think i can get sick again soon. Because i have yet bathe and then im in air-con.
Freezing like idiot! >.<>,<
I got ren tou alright! Byeeeee! >C

like before u know a girl/boy well enough, u think she/he's an angel until u really get to know him/her & see how he/she behaves at home & with people he/she's comfortably with, u get a real shock....

How true? So never never get t trust someone you just know or dont know them well.

otherwise, you'd be shock like hell when you found out the truth.

Because they can hide it so well. I guess i should change and be like them. Should I?

I felt that im really the biggest fool on earth now. I dont know why.

And i realised that im so stupid to believe any or everyone around me.

And i know i wont believe anyone anymore. wtf. wtf. WTF!

Tags replied:
nowell- ahah! yea!
Louis- hahah! Cos you're dumb! :/
kimmie- of cos im good la! aha. yea. i love you!
guest- yeap. why?
00- erm, no one would do for you, you mean? haha!
Eunice- hubby! ai si ni ler! >,< wo mei you! so kua zhang! DDD!
XuanWei- LOL! ya !
Star- lol. dont cane me liao. that was when im sec1 or 2. LOL :)
Edwind- why hua lian mao no mood? :( Dont sad, CT is here! :D LIAR!

The reason why im not asleep is becos bestie just went home.
And then on the phone w r0nr0n. And lastly, Edwind. -.-! haha!
Cos he said ask me t wait for his call at 1AM. but it's freaking 3.10am already.
aha. im super tired now. my eyes are dying on me soon. Need toothpick!
Shall i go for movie tomo? Im super broke and GSS is here!
I wanna shop like one idiot. Becos im so lack of clothings! :(
My mango tank top ahhh. i dont know still need t wait till when lorz.
Im still wondering if i should get it like tiak tiak tiak! LOL. how how?
Anyone wanna go 7th de st James? And im looking forward t clubbing again.
Kimmie they all aint going. Becos. .. . ... :( So yea. going w bestie and winnie.
And and my DOVE chocolate ley! MAIMAI, dont forget! >,< haha!
Kuai dian blog. Dont lazy or no mood le! counsellor Tan is here!
Though you always lie to me! hahaahah! :/
Alright, i seriously dont know if i should KO or wait for this call.
Cos he's at henderson which is fking near my place. Tot it was downstairs my house.
I mean he went to attend tua di ji. Sort of tua de thing. ALAMAK la ni! >..<
I wanna get new phone! I dont want touch screen. I want sony! :(

SUPER love these people. Photos at tua. Very few. And im slacking all the way .

Im trying t close the bottle and throw at myself when using the mike! Ahaha.
So yea. Nothing much alreadyy. Feeling better abit already.
Hubby super exaggerated.

ℒ.eunice says:
*u laaaaaaaaa. i thought ewhat happen at first
*i see your post only,i msg you
*then so long nvr reply
*call u nvr pick
*my heart nearly drop
*call your house,luckily your ahma tell me u sleeping.
*u ah,ALWAYS GIVE ME SURPRISES

Ahahah. Shall go off now! Byeeee :D

I was actually closing my eyes. And hubby took so long and i peep. And got snap! >.<

I kept myself from all emotional songs and only listens t hubby's blog song. But it seems no cure at all. :( It sucks like seriously. I really feel like dying now. Or just cut my hand like idiot so at least i wont feel so pain in my heart. Yes, it's so stupid i know. But everyone have different ways t deal w their own problems. So i dont need any comments or whatsoever. I seriously dont really like by2 myself. But im so hook on the " Wo Zhi Dao " de song like seriously. And by listening t LSJ's song is really killing me like slowly and w alil of torture. But i just can't help myself t stop myself from all his songs. I need a shoulder t lean on now. I've got so many things in my heart, yet i really dont know how t phrase it out or say. Perhaps i dont want it.
My " HUA LIAN MAO " not at home. Nobody will draw faces and make me laugh, temporarily. Wanted t message Hua Lian Mao de. But ta today ton-ing w ta de peng you. So cannot disturb ta :( But xie xie ni de lian. Rang ni lang fei your mascara le. haha! I've been busy w my life. Busying remember so many things and thinking back. Trying t reflect of what i've done so far. Im sick now, sneezing like one idiot and can't sleep now. And my voice totally change till so man out of sudden. And my head hurts :(
How i wish i can really die straight away because of sneezing too much. =
And im again, sneezing like fuck now. Shall go off liaoo~
Hua Lian Mao, UPDATE YOUR BLOG. :)