TEK HONG TAI YIM DIAN, HUAT AH!

It's already day 4th of our tua's big day. Ending soon already. (: Tiring for everyone but enjoyed everything, as long as it's w them, it's all worthed. (: Nway, many stuffs keep striking t my mind and make me feel so helpless and can't rest my mind. Reading back my blog and cried suddenly. Idk why either.

Nway, wento my dad stall's that day. And we never even spoke t each other. Oh yes we did. I asked him for money, he gave and I walked t sit down w my back facing him. I could feel that he wanted t talk t me but he just didn't. Im waiting, y'know? And I seriously miss those times. Sigh.. Im really tired of everything. Yew keng today, our lorry had those big speaker and played those old song whereby it's for ahpek(s) t listen. So many memories flashed back. Looking at my sisters all came. Im really happy. But that's for today only. Sitting at lorry, memories flashed back one by one. And I really mean ONE BY ONE. I really felt like crying at that point of time but I know I can't. That feeling just suck maximum and I could do nothing about it.

Daddy, thats how I could call you, here. Do you know I actually miss you right now? I miss how you pampered me like lil'princess when I was young. When I see how well my tua people doted on me. Like my bro, Rong, Gab, Jing and Marcus. When I cried, I called up my bro in the middle of night and woke him up from sleep. He would always tell me, " mei mei dont cry, korkor is here." Or even Jing. Like jus now, I told Gab I wanted t drink soup cos im lazy t walk, Marcus took bag for me cos I complain it's heavy when it's not becus Im just plain lazy. And before gab left the cab, he told me t msg him when I reached home. And whenever Im w them, Im really happy and they're also the only ones I can truly trust. Be it r/s or whatsoever, I dont need and Im serious. Sick and tired of it. Cus they'll never last. Just like how I've been stucked for 5years. Knn, and I swear I MUST NOT fall hard anymore. Though at times I did, they're always here for me. Like a call t them, telling them Im down, they would bring me go drink, accompany me and so. So I know, Im very blissful already. (: Thankyou you guys! NI MEN ZUI BANG! x3

Ahhhhh, I should try t stop thinking so much and rest. Goodie night! Another long day for tomo! :D